i love you. i miss you.
my dear boy..
you were frail, cold and stiff.
i couldnt bring myself to say a word.
so i plucked out the courage to give you a little shake,
just hoping you give me a little respond.
but you remained still.
just looking at you, i was lost of words.
i couldnt believe what was happening right in front of my eyes.
its hard to accept the fact that you are gone.
forgive me for not sending you off with a smile.
even if i could put on a fake smile, i wont.
cus its hurting me badly on the inside.
4 months ago, in the band uniform on stage playing the solo was the last time i saw you.
i didnt even had the chance to see or talk to you ever since then.
boy, you made me cried so hard.
so hard so that i will never forget you.
you have fought a tough battle.
you deserve this rest.
hope you are healthy and happy on the other side.
i will keep everything i wanted to say to you in my heart.
i wont forget all those memories.
in loving memory,
Egan Supharta
1994 - 2010
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i stopped , Monday, April 19, 2010 11:41 PM
why must it happen today?!
1 reason why i hate online submission.
it gets the freaking hell best of me when the server is down and the faci doesnt except this kind of excuse!
today is really like the best day man.
1st lesson of the module and this happen.
ARGH!
do i have to suffer the fate of always having to keep changing teachers?
after changing fyp topic and stuff, our advisor changed too.
and now, he's not permanent.
he's only to be with us for 2 - 3 weeks.
then a change of advisor again.
what the hell is this?!
so screwed up!
effort?
im trying my best.
i stopped , Friday, April 16, 2010 11:59 PM
life of a year 3 starts today.
what a day to start school.
retarded.
but group C timing isnt that bad afterall.
i get to sleep in longer and train ride isnt as crowded!
but waited 30mins for a cab.
damn the students and rain that started only after class ended.
well well..
there good things and not so good things that happened today.
so i shall just sleep it off and forget about it.
lets start tomorrow with a brand new day!
hoping for the better! (:
i stopped , Thursday, April 15, 2010 11:59 PM
how great can it get?
timetable... still acceptable.
class... NO for now.
faci... NO.
i seriously dont know how am i to survive this semester.
15 weeks..
i shall start counting down from now.
life as a year 3 will start on thursday.
not cool.
i have yet to think where on earth to go after graduating.
which part on earth will i land at for a few years...
argh!
making decisions suck big time.
i stopped , Tuesday, April 13, 2010 11:59 PM
im so proud of you guys!
the feeling of not being physically there sucks.
the feeling of being physically there sucks too.
despite where you are, theres just the freaking butterflies in the stomach that you hate.
distinction! congratulations!
this isnt miracle.
its the result of the hard work you guys have put in.
enjoy it while waiting for the next challenge.
people wont dare to underestimate you guys anymore!
keep going, kids!
you guys will always have my support! ♥
credits: cavver777
i stopped , Saturday, April 10, 2010 11:59 PM
Making the difference.
sometimes, luck is really not needed.
no one can be lucky 24/7/365.
as long as one have put in enough effort,
just believe that everything will be paid off nicely.
well, in reality or in this world,
results do matter somehow.
but as long as you give it all you have got,
why bother about this way of thinking?
if you have done your best, you wont regret.
and dont regret. there's nothing to regret anyway.
whatever it is, whether im physically there or not or whatsoever,
you all got my full support!
lets heat up the stadium even if its for only a few minutes!
GO GO GO!
i stopped , 12:49 AM
last day!
time is passing extremely fast.
6weeks of IEP is going to be over tomorrow.
school is starting in a week's time.
argh! where's my holiday!?
final year and off i go to another corner of the earth.
i did some thinking on the way home.
but there seemed to be loads of things to think about.
dont ask me what, cus i have not sot out my thoughts.
congrats to PXCB!
gold with honors!
next would be yycb!
*praying hard for distinction*
i stopped , Friday, April 09, 2010 1:43 AM
dreams are my reality.
down with a flu.
not just my usual runny nose kind of flu due to lack of sleep.
but flu, fever, aching body, bad headache..... etc.
MC-ed on wednesday and thursday.
im still not fully recovered yet,
so i decided not to go anywhere these days.
im finishing my IEP this week!
YES AH!
wooooooooooooots!
i stopped , Sunday, April 04, 2010 10:36 PM