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suay. woke up late so have to rush to school. mummy also kept taking her own sweet time. looking at the time i reach woodlands, i intend to cab to school. normally during normal school days, so many cabs waiting. today, NONE! so i had to walked superbly quickly to school.
one word to conclude this morning: scary.

after that went back home. finished up my stuff then watched vcd with big brother. so sweet of me right? lol. then wanted to sleep for awhile. superbly tired and shag, but the neighbouring house was having renovations. freaking noisy with all those drilling and stuff.

when i reached home, my big brother immediately talked about shopping things. i was mentally prepared that he would ask me that question again, every week also ask me same thing.

big brother: eh.. tomorrow accompany me go shopping leh.
me: tomorrow is hari raya, public holiday. i want to sleep in.
big brother: we can go in the afternoon lah.
me: aiyah. hari raya, public holiday. sure no shops open one lah.
big brother: crap lah you. nonsense only. eh.. shop tomorrow leh.



im in need of someone to brighten my day and get the lethargic-ness off me.


i stopped , Tuesday, September 30, 2008 9:49 PM


SHAG!

damn it! i just simply hate computing and maths. and thanks to the people around me, i stayed till presentation. after presenting, i zhao-ed to TRCC to slack, didnt even bothered to listen to 6P. i needed to do something to keep my mind off the speech thingy, so i entertained myself with things.
and i cant believe that i actually practiced a bit on the flute today! totally moodless and tired, but i tried. im so sadded! im airy once again. i want my tone back! the tone before i touched the piccolo! the airy-ness is getting on my nerves. im going to practice long notes very soon when i have the time. for now, i want to get my notes and rhythm right first.
less than 10 more practice for both RPWS and yuying alumni band before concert. madness. summore i have to miss one practice for yuying alumni band cus of the exchange. argh!

tomorrow after the meeting, i think i am going to rot at home. summore i dont think anyone is going to be at home. i think i will just catch up with my sleep and also go edit the panel thingy. i want to complete everything by either tomorrow or wednesday.

toodles!
wish me luck! =)


i stopped , Monday, September 29, 2008 11:09 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMAMA!

firstly, i must wish MR LIM JUN SHEN, friends ever since primary 3, all the best for his studies overseas! im so sorry that i could not be at the airport now to send you off. but still wanna wish you all the best! BETTER STUDY HARD HOR! and i seriously feel very bad for not being able to make it. BON VOYAGE my dear friend!

slept at 3+am and woke up at 11+am. im still tired, so it shows that 8 hours of sleep aint enough for me. was trying to catch some sleep wherever i go. dinnered at somewhere im not very sure too. i was freaking bored and there were loads of food, we were all struggling. and i was seriously cutting down on food. mummy keep saying im fat and keep asking me to weigh myself. but im not that fat that i need to cut down on everything right.. a pile of fats building on me, i know.

watched a little of F1 these days. its just so cool lah! unfortunately dont have hot guys, if not i will be so hooked! but its still cool! i want a F1 racer boyfriend! ang mo ones only!

i think my brother is still slightly into band kind of thing. cus i asked him something about a scale. i think he was figuring it using the clarinet fingerings i think? so he has not forgotten about it. i have the sudden urge of pulling him back to band.


just still kind of moody these days.
im trying to get over it.


i stopped , Sunday, September 28, 2008 9:45 PM


i wonder what gotten into me. im seriously freaking afraid of cats now.

i feel so motivated today. to think i actually initiated to my teacher to give me something to play on the piano. unbelievable. i actually done so cus i have freaking load of time before alumni practice starts.
alumni practice was fine. there were 6 flautists today. i love veronica's tone! mine is airy due to the playing of picc. damn it. but at least it didnt affect me much. and congrats to veronica for passing her grade 5!
taking warm ups can be freaky. whatever.
festivo, lion king and inn of sixth happiness. festivo okie, but i still dont really like it. lion king was madness. rhythm for me is koyak. notes wise, im happy cus i could pitched the lowest C. inn of sixth happiness was damn it shit. was freaking tired after sight reading that piece. notes were damn high. i was trying my best to get the notes out. less than 10 more practices before concert. this is super madness. it would be a miracle if you see me practising at home.

i feel like taking flute grades next year. im afraid dont have time. i need some motivation and enlightenment.

im starting to love chelsea! she's just so sweet! always buying chocolates to snack with me in class and now even she bought some keyboard protection thingy for me! (im not as chor lor as you are thinking though) she even has quite the same taste as me! clothes, accessories and stuff! foooh~


promotion time! please support both. get me if you want tickets.
RPWS : Symphonie de République II
date: 8th November 2008
time: 8pm
venue: TRCC; RP
repertoire: gloriosa, second suite, tuba concerto, yamato, etc.
tickets: $10 (NOT free sitting)

Yuying concert band : Passione III
date: 6th December 2008
time: TBC
venue: school hall; yuying secondary school
repertiore: its a small world, dance of yao, etc.
tickets: TBC


i stopped , 12:34 AM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ARIEF!


science module was fine. something that i know, finally. but calculations and stuff are totally shut off by my mind. W47K and their crap as usual. dester seriously like mountain tortoise. i was webcam-ing in class then park and dester came to disturb. i was webcaming even during presentation. dester mouth so big! he still said so loud from the front of the class "can see me arh?" still wave summore!almost kena from faci.
after school, supposed to go study, but cancelled. so met up with syu and headed to storage room to slack. in the lift, syu and i played our usual game! the sound of the lift buttons were different although same level. so we kept pressing one after another. until the lift suddenly stop. shocked sia! so we stopped playing. syu, pat and i were watching ju-on. we were screaming like nobody's business while watching. then zoe, yani, 大哥 and haqiz joined us. scary okie!

dinnered at pasta mania with jeremy. so sorry for making you wait! we were seriously crapping. so long never meet up already, so we crapped and stroll in causeway point for awhile. im so happy cus i finally meet at least one of them after so long! and i could not eat in peace. felt being watched!

im so touched! clinton (daddy) called me before third meeting today. he asked me to go out with him and jeremy sim (i think). i was in school and after school have plans already, so i rejected his offer. im superbly sorry! my daddy so sweet. that time when he went back to states, he bought me a present. but unfortunately, we have not met up ever since last year? i miss him okie!

piano and alumni band practice tomorrow. fooooh~ jialat.

and can the world be slightly fairer? the hot guy that i always talk about in semester one is in the same class as syu now! damn it! syu, can i pick you up everyday from class?

webcam of dester and park playing a fool.

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i stopped , Friday, September 26, 2008 11:48 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR CLARISSA ZHU!


im so proud of myself! i went for my very first talk! some lame etiquette talk. chelsea, shiyang and i went for first class seats! we sat at the first row, right in front of the stage! 62 slides and we were wanting time to pass faster, so we were counting down the number of slides. i was seriously tired and bored. i almost fell asleep. went back to class to rush ppt and was webcam-ing. i fell asleep can. luckily i wasnt webcam-ing with syu at that time, if not she would snap unglam shots of me falling asleep.

band was fine. only thing is im freaking tired. im so glad that i do not need to play that high for gloriosa. weee~ oh yah! zoe said she love me!


some unglam shots of me in class just now. this is what you do when you have extra chair beside you.




i stopped , Thursday, September 25, 2008 11:39 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CARIAH!

class was damn hilarious today. relief faci was hot. with all the crap from the people of W47K! i was laughing the whole time during second break. i dont really understand what the lesson is about, so i had quite a tough time helping out in the ppt. i fell asleep while thinking of points to add.
after school, slacked in class with syu for a while then went home. i finally go home early after so long. wanted to sleep, but i ended up watching tv. i hate cats and i hate staying alone at home. traumatised already.
syu asked me what's with me these days? to think that i am scared of cats.

okie, i have to do this or i will not be able to sell my tickets.
to my dearest friends and YYCB members, RPWS is having a concert on 8th november 2008. we will be playing pieces like gloriosa, second suite and even yamato. so if you need tickets, get me yah? please support! thanks!

going to be a busy end-of-year for me. RPWS's concert and also YYCB's. fooh~


i stopped , Wednesday, September 24, 2008 11:12 PM


to kick start, zoe say she love me for today!

woke up with a flu thanks to the late nights. the freaking vitamin C wasnt of much help. and mum was random in the car. she suddenly told me that the weather forecast said that it will rain in the afternoon. LOL. i was only half dead, so i didnt bother to reply her.
school was fine and i was in the mood to study! so i chionged okie! like after so long finally i got into the mood for once. team 1 was great except for that person. chelsea and shiyang made my day! im loving their crap! but they kept laughing at my chinese! it is perfect okie! and as usual, we had our chocolate snacking. presentation was fine, W47K was hyper.
after school shag like siao! flu plus the hard work put in during class. madness! entertainment from syu and zoe during band prac made me slightly awake.

anyway. this is what you do in class when you are bored.
webcaming with syu.































and im thinking of opting out. i rather give my chance to others instead of wasting everybody's time.

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i stopped , Tuesday, September 23, 2008 11:43 PM


如果自己不自爱,再怎么帮也没有用。

since when there was an opt out session? i must as well just disappear right from the beginning tomorrow.

i just have no mood for anything recently. it might be the weather, its getting into me! when im grouchy, i would not really talk much. i do flare up easily okie.
i feel im in the state of something is bothering me, but i just cant figure out what's the thing.

yesterday's alumni practice just reminds me of those crappy secondary school days. anyone, if you have any pictures of those crappy days in school uniform, send me can? i just want to laugh at myself. LOL.

i dont know. i seriously dont know. i just dont want history to repeat itself. those 4 years of being too enthu might be enough for me. i used to place band first place. now.. im not sure anymore. after putting band as priority, Os results are kns.

i think i just need someone who can really understand. or rather just some time alone.

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i stopped , Sunday, September 21, 2008 10:38 PM


seriously a bad saturday. im trying my best to keep my cool.

whats wrong with everyone in my house these days? whats up with the fucking attitude and stuff?

best thing i got to kill my saturday is freaking attitudes. i ignored by watching my movies, but my mum just dont want to give up spoiling my mood. could not watch a freaking movie in peace. damn it.
piano was fine. once again i didnt do my theory homework, so i was completing my stuff. my teacher expects me to complete the whole of my book during november cus she wants me to sit for the exam next march. its quite impossible cus im still no where near the middle of the book.
after that, alumni band. practice was pretty fine except that i was forced to play the picc. cus just nice there were 3 flautists. only after yan ming left then i played the flute for the rest of the practice. and veronica just keeps giggling non-stop. alumni practice is the time where i can stay at second for every piece.
after practice went to dinner with the rest. emo hwee say im fat, but jason and nelson say im not. well done, but i know im fat. i had chocolates after dinner~

friday.
i hate science. i was slacking through out the whole lesson and didnt help out, so i felt freaking guilty. and cus kena bad influences by simon, so i zhao class and slacked at the library with him and arief. after that had meeting. im so loving chelsea. she's so nice! she brought my calculator all the way from class to TRCC for me! she's my snacking buddy too! chocolates everyday!

have been slacking with syu, arief, simon and huss during second breaks. their crap never fail to entertain me. but i still see syu in class cus we webcam almost everyday during lesson! kena caught by faci last friday. she thought i was watching vedio. and thanks to syu, my embarrassing moments are exposed! if you suddenly see something red moving in the crowd, you will naturally be scared or what right? just because i kena shocked by that, syu labelled me that im afraid of the red cross mascot. -.-

syu's theory: if syu receives a call from vanessa after she finished any activities or what, vanessa is angry. she claimed its classic.
syu's wise words: exco = asshole

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i stopped , 1:33 AM


it doesnt matter anymore.


i stopped , Saturday, September 20, 2008 1:20 AM


im falling sick, yet im not. im at that kind of weird stage and im feeling freaking uncomfortable. so cant i just fall sick to get it over and done with?

on my way to school, i saw that guy again! but like who cares right? whatever. school was fine i guess. cognitive suck. i dont understand what is going on at all. wanted to zhao, but i cannot leave felicia, singsing and chelsea alone. and not forgetting my own team! in the end never zhao. and i didnt regret. faci was quite irritating during the first two meetings. keep picking on me. i think he knew i wasnt paying attention today. was on msn all the while! third meeting was fine.
the wacky girls of W47K went to the toilet and took pictures! madness! chelsea went mad again as usual.
and cus of chelsea and her arrows in msn, jun hou keep looking at my conversations and chelsea! so not my fault hor! i tried tilting my laptop to the extreme, but he still poked his head over. chelsea and singsing kept watching him lah! LOL.

after school went to push simon to do maths. and from there i can conclude that my maths is hopeless already. i need my TYS to recap back, but i have given them away already. JIALAT!


you just dont understand and believe me. forget it. wth.


我办不到。


i stopped , Wednesday, September 17, 2008 11:05 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SHI YANG! (chocolate cake boy)

i miss my rangers! i have not met up with them for days! i must meet them up soon!

its communication today, so damn it. its that faci again. team was fine. i thought of zhao-ing class, but my whole team wanna zhao too! so we decided not cus we worked very hard for our slides, worksheet and stuff already. and chelsea keeps claiming that she and i look alike! damn. like NO WAY. but she accompanied me to buy chocolates!
technology today is simply a total mess. first was my phone. i msged sannie, but she didnt received till first break out? next was MSN. damn the MSN. keep kicking me out and not allowing me to sign in. then it was VPN! but VPN nothing much cus it was during third meeting, so didnt affect me much. see? still say high tech? HA!

after school, band. tired like siao. i was practically low batt. and syu claims that im emo-ing. i got my reasons okie! its not that i dont want to look up, its that i dont dare! i think i got this phobia already. eeeewww! tired of pretending nothing happened. pieces were fine, but i just could not catch those notes. they just ran too fast. LOL. thursday, got gloriosa! fooh~ i can play with zoe again!

alumni practice on saturday! woots! i shall be there and be controlled by others. like totally prepared, so i think my job would be a breeze~ make my life easier for me.



and just a reminder to two people.
SIMON AND HUSS, GO DO YOUR MATHS!

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i stopped , Tuesday, September 16, 2008 11:20 PM


HAPPY LANTERN FESTIVAL, MOON CAKE FESTIVAL, MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL! (whatever you want)

我的天啊!不要这样耍我好吗?

really can prove that for smart people like me, as long as the first and last letter of the word is correct, the word can still be read properly. like vnasesa.

cus of the word puase, the smart like me read it as pause. so syu, yani and others laughed at the innocent me. like how would i know right? LOL.

slept like a pig today. and i bullied my big brother! it was so nice to of me walk to the kitchen and share with him the chocolate i was eating. the chocolate so freaking nice and he went to chew it. so i pushed his chin and head together to prevent him from chewing it. so we were practically making loads of noise and fighting while watching television.

tomorrow is AGM.






















i miss those days.




i want chocolates please?

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i stopped , Sunday, September 14, 2008 10:54 PM


late, late, late.

was late for piano lesson today. late for an hour! that's so great. but luckily teacher didnt scold me. grade 6 thoery is hell load of a killer! i just dont get certain parts, so i just anyhow do and let my teacher corect them for me. ha! i guess i will have to figure things out quick. going to take exam next year, march. hopefully.

okie i wanna apologise to huixian first.
im so sorry i could not make it again. i've been busy with school and stuff so hope you understand. but i will try to find time to meet you girls up. im so sorry!

and to 6J'03.
im so sorry i could not make it today. same thing. school and stuff are keeping me busy. catch up with you people some time soon!

i feel like uploading a photo, but just dont know which.

i wont feel guilty when you give me that look anymore. im used to it already. i have been seeing that for the past 17 years of my life, so please use something new next time. im big enough to know what i should do. so just shut up.

what the fuck?

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i stopped , Saturday, September 13, 2008 2:18 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NELSON!

science today was much easier than last week, but no matter how easy the topic is i stil cant concentrate when im freaking tired. im feeling damn guilty for not helping up for the past few lessons. *im so sorry!* and i reached class just on time! 0900hrs! heng!
was webcaming with syu all the way from second break till lesson end. so cool lah! so she saw what i did in class and stuff. haha! i think my faci knew about it, but didnt care. and i think dester saw it too! oh well, when it comes to science my brain will auto switch off. ha!
after school slacked at TRCC then went back home. im supposed to go jogging today, but... oh well. here comes the excuses. since im freaking tired and didnt know what i was doing the whole day, i shall have a break.
at yio chu kang mrt station, i saw a lady sitting. i think she's a pianist, cus her fingers were running on her knees like a piano while listening. its kind of scary okie. and talking about piano, i have not touched it for so long already. woots!

tomorrow have piano lesson early in the morning. afternoon supposed to go for 6J'03 class outing, but i need to get back my rest, so see how. most prob not joining them. as usual, i didnt do my thoery so tomorrow im going to rot while doing theory.


i stopped , Friday, September 12, 2008 10:46 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AZMIR!

knowing that today's module is enterprise really spoil the whole day, but knowing that im having a stand in faci is the best thing ever! ha! this stand in faci is WAY better than the present one! then i was in class craping online with felicia, sing ying and sheue lee! they were damn crappy, so it kind of entertained me for quite a while. then i was dead bored during second break and third meeting. no one want to entertain me, so i became very serious. was in the study-cum-sleepy mood. and i regretted using the wireless! my stuff changed slightly after i disconnect from the wireless thingy. damn it! i spent the whole meeting three trying to change back, but im a computer idiot.
then after school, band. its fun playing second flute, cus got zoe to entertain me. but from next time onwards, im shifting.
afer band, went home with ziqi and gang. then meet mr yeoh(zhi chao) at yio chu kang mrt! woots! small world eh?
and i think i know somethings i should not know. i rather not know man, but i maybe wrong and i hope so!

monday is AGM.
1. ZOE 2. SYUHADAH 3. ZOE + SYUHADAH

something that syu discovered about me. hungry = unhappy.

you reminded me of it once again. that time, that was an open secret. i chose to shut up hoping for the better. apparently, i was wrong. it made me freaking stressed and worried cus you meant something to me. i was too tired after that and decided to give up on it. i hope i didnt make the wrong choice. its your life after all, we cant control it. we also have our life to carry on, so what we can do is to only wish you best of luck.


i stopped , Thursday, September 11, 2008 11:13 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY CLINTON!

yesterday.
communication module suck due to the faci. so i truely believe that the teacher does plays a part in a student's studies. LOL. what kind of a person is he man? oh my god.
but class seem to be getting better. its slightly more livelier and stuff. i do talk in class okie! like crapping with the closer group of people, but sometimes they dont get my jokes! damn it. so im like keeping all the crap to myself in order to keep myself away from being pai seh.
after school was band. kind of tiring, but distrubing syu and zoe kept me awake! and good news! IM PLAYING SECOND AGAIN! weeeeee~
i was a nice person yesterday, but child labour! im still 16! i carried syu's superbly heavy bag, filled with plenty of underwears, all the way to causeway point. its the life of being the youngest in the clique. sad life.....
i showed my true skill of multi-tasking! i was on the phone, RJ-ing and msn-ing at the same time! cool right?! after RJ, searched for the damn kungfu panda picture. and so many people were rushing me off to bed!

today.
cognitive! faci is nice, but module suck big time. the saddest thing is NO ONE ENTERTAINED ME DURING LESSON! i was freaking tired and sleepy. was trying my best to keep my eyes open! webcam-ed with syu in class during second break! damn fun! hahaha! and i think my team mates thought that im mad or something. i kept smiling to my laptop and doing stupid things. and damn the mario game! lag my laptop like siao! i restart my laptop like so many times today. but i got new game! long lost pacman! very old school, but the thing is i keep on dying! so damn the game too! haha!
after school, met up with the sickly syu-lala and went home. and i slept when i reached home! didnt went for a jog. my "fats" are hurting worse than yesterday. and i was freaking tired! mummy only tried waking me up for dinner, but i carried on sleeping. after that, she didnt wake me up for RJ. luckily i woke up on my own!
and VANESSA SAVES HER BROTHER'S PHONE! he claim his phone was spoiled and tried all ways to make it work. so i said "take out the batt and put it back..." woohoo! the genius vanessa is right! it worked! ha!

im somehow getting closer to him like last time, but everything still stays the same.


i stopped , Wednesday, September 10, 2008 11:34 PM


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ANGELINE TAN DARLING! (member of the aunties)



saturday.
woke up early and head down to yuying for alumni practice. so many people didnt turn up for sectionals and even for the alumni practice. i was freakng pissed off. i was late already and the rest were even later than me. i understand that they are still playing their instruments at this point of time, but does not mean they are that fantastic and no need to practice already. if not why do we call for a practice right?
but the thing is that person who keep asking me to inform them wasnt there. i dont see the point for me to go down too if there's no one or most of them are late. just wasting my time. although im the younger ones there, but at least respect me lah. i can also be irrespsible here by not turning up for any practices. and you people are choosen cus i think you can make it and i will have less problems, but unfortunately im wrong.
after that, lunched at KFC once again. and everyone was saying that i sure take a long time to eat and sure be the last to finish. so i proved them wrong! i shut my mouth and just eat. i gobbled my food down. just dont understand why they eat so fast. damn it!
then piano! i just sat there doing theory. and until now, i dont know what am i doing. i just anyhow throw in answers and my teacher correct them if im wrong. ha!
then met syu and gang at tampines mrt station then headed to TP for SWSY concert. i think i had indigestion halfway through the concert thanks to my "lovely" juniors. after that went back home.
its not fun having only about 4 to 5 hours of sleep then out the whole day! super tiring. wooh! madness!


i stopped , Sunday, September 07, 2008 12:53 AM


freaking annoyed.

the start of my day wasnt very good. i was very very tired and i was trying ways and means to stay awake. new team was fine. i was the anti social one cus im tired. faci is VERY long winded. our team presenting halfway, she stopped us and gave 3 examples. irritating. W47K seem to have their ways and means to try to end class early! lol.
in class halfway, i remembered that i have not contacted the remaining few alumni members! so i got down to work. messaging and msn-ing in class. then i was quite irritated with some of them. it killed my mood for the day, so i wasnt in the right mood to study. during the last few presentations, team one was gossipping in a convo! that brightened my day! we were gossipping about the faci! wahahaha! all those crap! now they know im not the quiet and normal girl. i lost my "good girl" image. damn it!
after school, went home. freaking tired, so i tired to sleep. my mum and big brother kept making so much noise.

im feeling the stress, for the wrong thing. everything seemed to be piling up and craps are coming at the wrong time. i seriously have to get things moving. or maybe i will be more motivated if i could keep my mind off EVERTHING for a day? and please dont anyhow use my name without me knowing and after that scold people for nothing.

many thanks to neelam and syu! LOVES!

what do you take me for? why cant just people mind their own things? its my job to ask them to come back and stuff. you also said its my choice to call whoever i want. of cus im not so dumb to call back those who have not touched the instruments for years. i appreciate your help, but you dont seem to trust me and my judgement. you kept telling me what to do. can i ask you to please re-read about ALL the job scope. if i dont know, i will ask. if you want to take the job, by all means. we must as well have you alone to run the whole thing. what you are doing now is just annoying me. im not like you all having holidays now. so just do your things. its more than enough. the day when i throw everything back into your face, it means that i have enough.


i stopped , Friday, September 05, 2008 11:49 PM


solo-phobic (i seriously have one ever since after SYF'07)

yesterday.
enterprise im sure you will hate enterprise! damn the module and faci! i totally have no idea what is going on today. and the faci speaks like he's using a microphone to talk. so loud! he and his stupid ground rules and stuff. im so going to hate this module and faci. how am i going to survive this module man.. but on a brighter side, i grouped with nicole today! weee! and other team members were nice too! =)
after school, as usual band. didnt know that they brought forward the exchange! then first suite! oh man! the damn solo part. i hate solos. never fail to demoralise myself. i still sort of blame myself for last year's SYF. what an experience. i will never forget it. oh well. practice, practice and practice! but not for any solos. my own parts.
after practice, the whole band have to attend this piano recital. its cus no one from the school wants to go, so they dont want to lose face showing the pianist an empty hall. LOL. im feeling superbly demoralised lah! first was the solo part. next was the piano recital! the pianist seriously damn pro! her fingers can run like mad! chromatics and all that! makes me really think that im going to fail my grade 5. SADDED! argh! i must work harder (if i have the will power to do so)!
then trained home with the rest. damn it. im like so quiet, merely said a few sentences then jaron said i noisy?! im so not noisy okie!


i stopped , 12:03 AM


phobia of MSN. stress.

first day of semester 2!
i have to accept the fact that im now in W47K, no more W14H. i miss W14H!

went to school as usual. i was in the same train as wilber i think. look freaking familiar to me, but i didnt care much. then met elle and sannie at woodlands. their reaction to my hair is quite big. so were the other rangers and friends reaction! very weird meh? whatever.
class was okie. so was group. the usual things that happen during first day of school. then i was freaking pai seh. i was the first to leave the class for break. i think the others in class dont hae the habit of eating during first break and stuff. i went out during both breaks summore! but when i reached class after break, i did the things i needed to do. LOL.
after school, met up with syuhadah to get my things. then cabbed to amk hub then bus-ed home. crap. i was having motion sickness. felt like throwing up in both the taxi and bus! and it was raining damn heavily. luckily i wore shorts and slippers to school, if not i will be cursing and swearing on my way home. then big brother have not went back to camp, so its my chance to bully him! haha!

you can come to me with your problems. i can lend you a listening ear or even help you if i can. but if those problems of yours are that childish, then u can make a u-turn back. i dont see why you scondary school people still can quarrel until like this. freaking childish. and i know who started all this. change your attitdue before scolding others man! think before you act! i have my stuff to do too okie!


i stopped , Wednesday, September 03, 2008 11:06 PM


down with a flu. argh! but im still watching drama! all thanks to 大哥, im addicted! confirm cannot finish watching before school starts. so i guess weekends would be drama days for me! ha!

yesterday.
went to grandparent's place in the afternoon den rotted at home. so i decided to watch nodame cantabile. woots! NICE!
in the night, brother's friends came over for BBQ so i had to shift to my room to watch. when i step out of my room, my brother told me that some of his friends are drunk. scary. then went out at 11++pm to meet huixin at the bus stop. when i step out of the house, i hear "that's sam's sister issit?". totally reminds me of primary school. all three(my brothers and i) were in the same primary school. if i saw any of their friends, i would hear "hello, edmund's/samuel's sister!". lol. then when im walking back home, saw my brother and his friends walking out. one of his friends said by to me. LOL. dont even know if he is drunk or not.

today.
woke up at 1++pm. fooh~ rotted at home watching drama. halfway through looked through and chosed the pictures to use for the boards. took me half an hour to look through all the pictures! then went back to drama. that's about it~
oh yah! i dreamt of yuying band yesterday. damn, what kind of a weird dream that was.


stop telling me what to do. i lead the life i want. so shut up. im old enough to think for myself. what crap. i think if you dont know why im not so close to you people and rather stay out than to be at home, go reflect. i dont do things the way you want it to be. the more you force, the more i go against what you want. and set a good example if you want others to follow. fancy scolding me for not putting back thing where i took it from. it slipped off my mind can? and look at yourself first. always putting the phone everywhere after using. hard time finding the phone when someone call. that's why i dont even bother to answer the house phone, let alone find it. so before you come and scold me, look at yourself first!


i stopped , Monday, September 01, 2008 7:54 PM