no, im not fine.
i failed to be firm once again,
so im stuck with another year there.
just what the hell was running through my mind at that point of time?!
its been long since i went back.
it was fun yet... saddening?
its really hard to explain though,
but yeah...
some things are kind of possible to resolve,
but some things are just impossible.
dont say nothing is impossible,
it just doesnt applies here.
for now,
even if its just pulling on a strong front,
lets encourage each other and the people around us.
seeing others feeling better,
it kinds of make yourself feel better too.
or does that only works for me?
happy 10th anniversary! (:
i stopped , Saturday, March 27, 2010 11:59 PM
9 weekdays.
i have lost touch with the world ever since IEP started.
attachment made me lost track of everything.
and thanks to my supervisor,
i have to always bring back things to do during the weekends.
he always comment on my ppt on friday before i go home.
so i have to rework on the weekends for presentation every monday.
how great..
i guess i should be more firm with my decisions and myself.
i decided to stop after tomorrow.
i know i will regret sooner or later,
but there are other factors to consider.
bahhhhh!
why must "decision(s)" exist?!
others might not know.
but as long as you know it yourself,
it is enough.
i stopped , Friday, March 26, 2010 11:59 PM
zzz...
why must it only start pouring when im 50 steps away from the company?!
if it were to rained earlier, i could have slept for 5 minutes more.
if it were to rained earlier, i could have taken my own sweet time to walk to work.
if it were to rained earlier, i would not need to open my umbrella.
but what's the point of complaining now?
the day's over.
its so cold. its so boring. its so quiet.
i dozed off at work many times.
so i decided to watch the shows in my ipod. HEH HEH!
im seriously not thinking of doing desk work in future.
its too boring. its not exciting.
in conclusion, working life suck big time.
14 weekdays to go~
i stopped , Tuesday, March 23, 2010 11:17 PM
%^&*%$#$%^!
i promised myself that after working hours,
its totally rest time. no doing of work at home.
and that includes weekends.
but my manager really deserves to bang the wall and kill himself.
he always tells me last minute things on fridays.
and i have to make amendments to the ppt slides on weekends.
and he doesnt listens to me!!
when im explaining certain things,
he just goes "mm.. mm.. mm..",
then he will continue with his point of view.
ARGH!
15 weekdays more..
dont blame me if i were to 造反..
i stopped , Sunday, March 21, 2010 10:44 PM
allergic to bullshit.
it doesnt really matter if things are not going my way.
it doesnt really matter if my manager is really pissing me off.
whatever.
but it does matter if friends turn out like this..
this feeling seriously sucks.
but life goes on.
these things aren't in my control.
so i turn away and walk my way,
wishing you all the best whole heartedly.
its not that i dont care.
its cus that's your own life.
so do as you deem fit.
i stopped , Saturday, March 20, 2010 2:10 AM
lets... hang on till the end.
its just 18 weekdays more.
although i really hate it,
but colleagues are nice.
im so not motivated to go to work every day.
im so tired.
im so stressed out by my manager.
):
i want and need more sleep...
T.T
i stopped , Tuesday, March 16, 2010 11:17 PM
dont envy, you got everything.
im bound to fail my theory paper.
its really tough.
or maybe i was in a panic mode to think carefully.
argh!
i really feel very sucky about it.
failing is not a problem,
but the money & time spent on the exam is.
there's no point regretting and thinking back about it.
what's over is over.
im trying very hard to get over it now.
now that exam's over,
im thinking of stopping right here be it passing or failing.
should i?
i stopped , Sunday, March 14, 2010 10:28 PM
all i need is...
crap.
theory exam's tomorrow.
i should be studying for theory exam now,
but im too tired!
nothing is getting into my head!!!!
jialat..
all i ask for is a pass.
monday have presentation..
this is crap!
im so dead...
im really in need of all the luck i can get now.
let me borrow them for... 20 weekdays!
sleep.
i stopped , Friday, March 12, 2010 11:59 PM
guilt stricken.
im really very sorry.
exhaustion must have eaten up my brain,
thats why i have said that.
im really really extremely sorry!
if you would allow me,
i definitely wanna take back my words.
i didnt mean what i said.
and sorry,
我真的是不会招待客人..
T.T
i stopped , Thursday, March 11, 2010 11:57 PM
ROAR!
im freaking tired.
im freaking stressed up.
what else is coming up next?
can i just let everything go?
i want my holiday.
i want my rest.
i stopped , Monday, March 08, 2010 10:39 PM
to give up or not?
its hard making decisions..
i really want to stop cus its eating up my rest time,
but i dont know..
im being psycho-ed not to stop,
being convinced to carry on.
but then again,
its my own decision.
and i dont know what to do about it!
i stopped , Sunday, March 07, 2010 10:51 PM
uh oh...
i foresee a presentation...
cus i just completed my slides.
this is... bad..
wish me luck,
cus im hoping not to have to present.
okies, im exhausted.
the feeling sucks.
i want to have more sleep,
but my schedule just doesnt allow me to.
T.T
im just not fated with these things,
so i can just watch and envy.
i stopped , Saturday, March 06, 2010 12:49 AM
its killing me on the inside.
im so tired!
researching is pissing me off!
schooling is still way better.
at least if you dont know something or could not find what you are supposed to be researching about, it is still fine.
its the learning process.
BUT imagine not able to find out something you are supposed to researched on at work.
ha!
im feeling very stressed up!
cus its what im facing now!
ARGHHHHHHHH!
i stopped , Wednesday, March 03, 2010 10:49 PM
i shed teardrops in the rain.
its march!
29 days to my freedom before i have a week off.
and school will start then.
gosh...
i really hate it when people make use of me.
although i know where are they coming from,
but i dont think this should be the way.
im there to learn and experience, not just to kill time with researching all day long!!
have i made the wrong choice?
have i taken the wrong path?
i stopped , Monday, March 01, 2010 10:28 PM