you can't have a rainbow , without any rain .

wah..today dam sianx..ZHENLING nva cum..haiix..so sianx..wah piang..den today found out tt mother tongue leeson diff class frm her..haiix..so saded sia..lolx..hahax..den jus nw during sectionals saw the board outside the GO bout the geog splitting classes..haiix..im nt in the same class as ZL again..wah..siao liao..im in da same class with ppl i dun reli want to b with loh..haiix..ren sheng is lidat de..mus face reality..

so sianx..today got investiture rehearsal again..haiix..dam sianx loh..like wasting my time lidat..i culd have prac more wif yan ming they all loh..haiix..but den after da rehearsal join em in da prac..but den oso nva prac much..more of slacking..lolx..hahax..sorta regretted manx..i think i slacked da most..cus i was like usin da fone calling other ppl after awhile of prac..haiix..

friday got POA remedial..den oso got rehearsal again..den oso band..wahahahax..tt day seemed to be so fun manx..wahahax..i sure go home n die on my bed de loh..den sat oso got rehearsal..den after tt gotta rush to piano..haiix..seemed to be so busy..

mistaken manx..ppl tell mi wrongli..competition on 15 july lah..aiyoh..anihw ell mi..i so scard leh..wah piang..bluff mi..

i stopped , Wednesday, June 28, 2006 10:20 PM

manx..ZHENLING was like so sick the whole day loh..haiix..in sjab le..still dun take precautions..hahax..bird flu..but den she sorta helped me..lolx..hahax..i skipped the last 3 lessons..1 CME n 2 maths..wahahax..kept her company in the sick-bay..both of us kept on talking nonsense..wahahax..veri unfair manx..i think our class is the only sec 3 class which have lessons until 1415 loh..den i only have bout 15 min to eat n do my other stuff..den i saw the other classes ppl cumming dwn n saw em in the GO..den i went up supposed to be going up to take ZL bag de..but den i waited until ms pok lesson ended..haiix..sry arhx..cus i feel kinda weird gg back to class after a long time..den later they make so much noise..sry arhx..paiseh..at least u did nt stay for da investiture..ur fever like dam high loh..

after listening to wat ZL told me during english lesson in da library..manx..i us found out tt most of da blame is put onto me manx..wat the..i admit i got do wrong loh..but den wat i did all got reasons de loh..haiix..forget it manx..im used to being blamed..lolx..hahax..jus forget it manx..

nw tt for geog lessons..i think most of us will b separated..haiix..hope tt i dun so suay..hope remain same class with ZL..wahahax..hope our teacher is colin chia or jolene lim..haiix..den even mother tongue lesson oso gg to do da separation..haiix..y mus lidat..haiix..

today stayed back in skool..for wat investiture rehearsal..den after tt sectionals..haiix..on da way to da hall..saw ms loh..she asked us hu spreaded da rumour..wahahax..quite a lame rumour..wahahax..i was like hw we noe..lolx..hahax..den wanted to ask her why choose me to b a cca leader..den gotta go for investiture..manx..did nth much today..jus told us wat we have to wear n how we are supposed to walk n all tt..so sianx..tt day gotta wear band u..wth..hot sia..wah..actually today did not wanted to go for the investiture de..but den siyan n melissa gg..so jus go loh..got reason tt i dun feel like gg de..haiix..i rather go for sectioanals loh..i nida prac on the picc more den on the flute..but i played the picc today..woo~..cus a lot of ppl nva bring their instru..so end up lending jane my flute..wahahax..but den took da yamaha flute frm hye yoen before she left..wahahax..luckily i still got play flute today manx..if nt duno wat will happen..lolx..hahax..haiix..sianx..tmr gota stay for wat investiture rehearsal again..wth..luckily i no nida go for piano arhx..if not sure die..8 july..competiton day..haiix..

i duno wat had gotten into me..but i jus keep on writing da mth as july..lolx..hahax..da competition is making me crazy i think..arhh..even ma piano practical oso killing me..argh..canot afford to fall sick manx..nida practice..

i think im a failure in repairing instru. manx..lolx..hahax..duno wat was i doing jus nw manx..aiyoh..priscilla arhx..drop instru. oso nva report de..aiyoh..luckily only the keys out of position arhx..if nt i reli duno hw to fix loh..hahax..failure..

p.s. ZL..get well soon n takkaire..wahahax..mus horx..hahax..bing mao..hahax..mus c u at da rehearsals for the investiure thingy..hahax..(=

i stopped , Tuesday, June 27, 2006 8:53 PM

manx..im so sick n tired of all dis nonsense..jus canot take it any more..

so sianx..today first day of school..nth to do..jus get the time-table..n stay inthe hall for sum nonsense talks..den got attire check before we go back to class n have two periods with the form teacher..quite fun lah..seeing my classmates again n sorta bulling the form teacher..lolx..hahax..den da class secretary got a task to do..but den i ask chin huat to do for me..hahax..den we have a new POA teacher..MR LAM..still owe siyan yan ming n me sumth..we sure guess correct de..cus i feel tt we three have nth to lose manx..cus we we guess wrongly..den we quit band only mah..but den mus c if ms loh allow..hahax..but i dun think she will allow..so..we have nth to lose..hahax..

haiix..8 july is jus nxt week..i jus dun believe it manx..so fast..n im still like so shit with da picc loh..borrow home da flute n picc de..but den is put at home to bai mei de..wahahax..reli no time to prac..den oso dun feel like practicing at home..later kena suan..so..jus prac piano only..rather go to school n prac with my other mates..when is my paino exam..?!..i reli nida noe it badly..den i can plan..jus wishing tt theres band prac everyday..rather than staying at home..nth to do..n thinking bout nonsense..as wat mr faizal had said..flautist likes to daydream..i think i will have to agree on tt..i think i do daydream..hahax..during lessons..cus sum lessons are tt boring..like maths..POA..

nw gotta think of a way to finish up all the holiday h/w..got a while load of it..jus got em all frm ZHENLING today..MT..physics..n all tt..kept all my h/w..den nw gotta find time to finish up all..or i will die..still got bout 3 or 4 projects..siao liao..

got back my mp3 frm creative..put it there for 3 weeks..missed it so much manx..i think i canot live without music manx..but den mine was dark blue..but den i got it back as silver..no more dark blue..haiix..nvm..cus i got the whole thing replaced..all new..

aniway..dis goes out to band memebers..if u happen to view my blog or watsoever..tmr there is sctionals..mus cum horx..cus 8 july is jus nxt week..pls take ur sectionals n band prac seriously..8 july is jus a couple of days away only..jiayou..!!

i stopped , Monday, June 26, 2006 9:04 PM

haiix..jus duno hw shld i feel..everytime i go for piano lessons..i jus feel sorta stressed..haiix..holidays ends today also..haiix..such a short holiday..y arhx..?..or izzit tt im jus too busy tt i did nt notice tt time jus passed so quickly..haiix..im jus confused..

so sianx..have not finish ALL the holiday h/w..haiix..dun care le lah..im feeling very confused..im trying to concentrate on both studies, the comming 'performance' on the 8 july and the up comming piano theroy exam..i think im feeling dam stressed..jus feel like giving up hope on everything..jus wanna b alone..haiix..i seemed so problamatic..haiix..nw tt skool have reopened..i think i will concentrate more on my studies le..since i have my bros to teach me..hope i jus dun give up hope on my studies..stress manx..got things like competition n all tt..they all come tgt at once..hope i can cope with all of these things..like hw i always do it..haiix..

im so bored manx..hope today pass faster..i jus want my wallet back..left it in pasir ris park while bbqin..haiix..got all wet tt day..cycled in the rain like nobodies busniess..lolx..hahax..quite wet..but luckily didnt fall sick..hahax..mayb used to it le..hahax..reached home veri late tt nite..kena frm my parents..haiix..took bus home..cus kenneth say tt there will b no more train to take home..den no choice..have to take bus home..but im a road cum bus cum direction idiot..didnt noe hw to get home..scard tt i will b lost manx..but in the end..cus of kenneth..i was home..!!..thanx a lot friend..!!=)

jus nw rushing to finish the holiday online h/w...i was in a mess manx..my com was lagging like nobodies busniess..canot go into the website tt i nid to go to..quite pissed..but den kenneth helped again..haiix..thanx manx..thanx for all the help..if u didnt help..i would b so dead manx..but still no diff..cus i have not done all my holiday h/w...

feeling kinda confused at the moment..duno if i shld feel happy..sad..or wat..haiix..i think i reli nid sum help..hahax..depression..lolx..hahax..trying to spend every day happily..like hw i did last time..haiix..i jus feel like being alone..crying..havent done tt for a long time le..getting rid of all the stress tt have been kept..all at one time..im nt as strong as ppl think i m..im jus keeping it..hidding it all..pretending tt nth had happened..

jus feel like being alone...

i stopped , Sunday, June 25, 2006 11:40 PM

so long never blog le...so sianx..skool holidays gonna b over le...but den to mi..i feel tt theres no skool holiday at all...busy all the way...haiix...

8 july is the 'performance' day...so fast manx..nida prac more...still canot do veri well wif the picc..haiix..jiayou..2nd flute so mani ppl..den 1st onli have mi babe jane n mi..haiix..still can lah i think..nida balance the triangle thingy..double eagle mus kao jane le..the sorta onli 1st flute..hahax..i playin picc most of the time...black hawk...2 1st...4 2nd...hope all the sec 1s in the band can play both pieces..jiayou...
p.s.yanming..i love ya..!!..thanx for helping mi on tt day..

nxt mth..duno wat day...got paractical exam...haiix...im like so dead loh..no time to prac..cus currentli preparing for the july 'performance'..den mi cher ask mi a qns...ur piano exam or ur july 'performance' important...i was so stuck manx..said nth n carried on practicing..haiix..i was like both oso important loh..y i so suay 1 arhx..evrytime got competition cummin..den oso hav piano exam cummin...everytime got march camp..i sure 1st day late de..go for theory exam..haiix..so suay...hw to zhuan yun arhx...haiix..

so dead manx..still hav lots of h/w to do..argh..being so irritated by U..!!...the chem paper..dun evn noe wat is it tokin bout..still tryin to find all mi h/w...mus finish all before the holidays ends...i nida zhuan yun..!!...canot find mi work...all lost...shld hav kept em propperli...haiix..

happy manx..jus got to noe ma theory exam marks...81..!!!..yeah...!!..but den still nt veri gd..tot tt i shld have got higher den this..

i stopped , Wednesday, June 21, 2006 11:41 AM

i stopped , 11:17 AM

feelin so saded..veri disappointed in myself manx..

monday xchange wif kranji n other skools were dam bad..atrocious..could have done better manx..i myself oso played veri badly for both pieces n on both instru...haiix..tt day hear other skools picc sound den hands turn cold le..haiix..they all like so good loh..haiix..wi broke dwn haf way during the pieces 2...haiix..every1 mus pull up ur socks le..nxt mth 'performance' liao le leh..mus jia you arhx..exspecially those who never attend the band camp or always never attend band prac de..sec 1s..haiix..tt day was a very busy day..runnin here n there..haiix..nvm..its over..onli can rmbr wat we done wrong n not to repeat them only..haiix..

piano..haiix..so long never prac le..nxt mth got practical exam..haiix...so stressed..jus nw kena frm ma cher..sae wat band important or exam important..i think both equalli important leh..haiix...so confused..

i stopped , Wednesday, June 14, 2006 10:56 PM

so many thinggs happened when i was away for the band camp..stayed over night in school for four days..first night slept in the staff room with all the gals..which only have bout six..lolx..hahax..then the boys slpet in the classroom..wahahahax...mdm ratnah allow the gals to sleep in the staff room.. U R THE BEST MANX MDM RATNAH..!!..second and third night slept in classroom with everyone else..haiix..kkz loh..still can lah..every camp oso lidat de..hahax..i duno y i keep on doin things..like takingg the keys and all tt..doin most of the sai gang..wahahahax..1st night onli sleep for 2 hours..wahahahahax..den the rest of the nights slept for boout 3, 4 or 5 hours..wahahahax..no choice..trainingg camp..wat to do..lolx..hahax..but den i enjoyed it lah..wahahahax..

missed my friends SO MUCH...ESP. ma dear NG ZHENLINGG..wahahhax..paiseh horx..nva go out wif u ppl yesterday..cus break camp..den my mama oso dun allow..wahahahax..nxt time kkz..?..promiss..hehex.XD

when i break camp and on my way home from school...i was told tt my dog was bleedingg...i was shocked manx..den after lunch..my parents brought princess to the vet..i wanted to follow de..but den just break camp..very tired..so stay at home n sleep..when i wake up den my parents tell me tt she went for operation..o manx..so heart pain manx..luckily she dun need to stay at the vet arhx..if not i sure miss her de loh..hahax..den went to take a look at her..c her so weak make my heart pain..haiix..but den she was kkz lah..she still gotta take medicine..haiix..

den today go my grandparents huse like evry other weekend..den my grandma was not well..haiix..heart pain manx..haiix..so many thinggs happened manx..den didnt talk to her at all cus she sleepingg..dun wanna disturb her..haiix...

supposed to go out and help to do the thinggs tt tmr hafta give the other school..but den i canot..haiix..wanted to go and help de..haiix..but den got smth thing on..feel so guilty...make them do by themselves..haiix..sry horx kenneth...make u do the stuff...

supposed to prac picc de..cus of tmr xchange..i scard tmr canot reach the high F on the picc..argh...shld have prac..haiix...tmr mus jiayou..mus do my best...all yycb members..mus jiayou for tmr xcahnge..cus i think its was quite rush...but den wi can make it de..jiayou..!!

i stopped , Sunday, June 11, 2006 10:02 PM

haiix..so sianx..jus stay at hm n do maths..lolx..hahax...still hav nt started on ma holidae h/w yet..im so dead..gotta start on em soon...wahahax..

sat went 2 da ballon hat festival...nice but den veri warm tt dae..i still wear balck summore sia..lolx..hahax..big mistake..hahax..enjoyed tt dae..listen 2 da bands play..n c their ballon hat..sum veri funni..like gt 1 skool..their ballon hats r made wif sesames street..hahax..cute sia..sum of em shld b their own creations ba..hahax..kkz lah...nt bad..1 skool played high skool cadet..hahax..tts wat wi play every year for speech dae..lolx...den reached hm so tired..

2dae...ma clock rang at i think 9+ ba..but den i jus turn it off den continue to slp...onli wake up at bout 10+..lolx..wahahahax...wake up n do maths again...haiix...maths maths maths...haiix...do finish liao den rmbred tt i canot make it for piano lesson dis wednesdae...lolx...

dun1 blog le...so sianx...gotta find stuff bout flute n its family...lolx..hahax...

p.s.huixin arhx..pls arhx..dun make miie worri...pls dun look dwn on urself..kkz..?..cheer up..(=

i stopped , Monday, June 05, 2006 4:39 PM