you can't have a rainbow , without any rain .

haiix!! i feel totally screwed up lah! start of the EOY..EL n MT..still can lah..but i totally have no confidence in myself.. but den i jus do loh.. i think still can make it lah..den after tt..gotta stay back for the maths mock paper1..omg!! i was so damn tired..my brain is like totally nt able to function anymore during the maths paper can! very very tired after the 2 papers le..tried to do some last minute studying before the maths mock paper..but den i was really too tired le..did my usual way..do all tt i noe 1st..den cum back to the rest later..wah..i only did a few qns n i found myself at the last papge nt long after the paper started lah! but den i jus continused to try to do..at least if i write smth..i might gt some marks.. den gt toked to huixin during the paper..asked her for the formulas..canot even rmbr a single thing..i totally forgotten wat i learnt in bk A le..hw do u expect me to rmbr the lower sec stuff?! 23 qns..2 hrs..its craziness..haiix! my maths is totally screwed..but i really nid to pass my maths..

splet jus nw frm bout 5+ to 9..wahahahax! so cool!! =P

yesterday tuition..done 3 chapters all in 2 hrs..maddness..n i was so tired..i oso duno if i understand anot..i think still can lah..so-so..

supposed to look for ms loh today after my papers..but den muzamir told me tt she left le..haiix!! but i noe wats gg ard..omg!! sure kena scolding de loh..i nvr do my job well..forgot to check if they gt write the amt of their edusave the have at the back of the paper..worse thing..i wrote it at the front..lolx! siao liao! i think monday all the mambers have to meet her..den after tt..at the end of it..i think ms loh will sae..vanessa..cum..follow me.. wah..its total craziness..shes gg to kill me..

reached skool drinkin ginseng agn..lolx! i think it did help cus i slept late last nite..wahahax! i think 12+ den i slp..so cool! yeah! i nvr fall sick today!! i always fall sick on the 1st day of the exams..mayb i will fall sick on the mxt paper ba! CHOY!! hope nt..im strong!! =P

it took me so long to find out tt im stupid..totally..things shldnt have start in the 1st place..i really regretted nt listen to u ppl..i really regretted..-argh!- but im oso nt in the mood to think of all this..im nt tt free ok..exams..band stuff..omg! all i can think of is work..haiix!
omg! huixin, ZL n huixian.. thanx so much for being there for me whenever i needed u..i love u ppl!! nw..im strong!! n i will oao always b here for u ppl de!!

im really too busy to think bout all this stuff le..i dun1 to b bothered by it le..hack care..i jus wanna concentrate on my studies n dieting!! wahahax!! dieting!!

im gg crazy soon..been saying n doing wrong things recently..omg!

dieting n mugging in progress..

i stopped , Friday, September 29, 2006 10:05 PM

THINGS JUST DUN WORK THE WAY WE WANT THEM TO MOST OF THE TIME!!! ITS FATE!! NO1 CANOT CHANGE IT..NVR..

wah..its craziness today manx! im so tired!! i think im falling sick le.omg! haiix! still feeling tired although my mum made me drink the ginseng thing last nite.but it doesnt seemed to help..hahax!

PE was lame..dance wat hip hop thingy..very funny sia..hahax! lessons were boring..but i was quite attentive today..yeah! finally!! but den chinese gt listening compre..wah..so diff lah! i anyhw do de..tried my best..

assembly..so cool!! wahahax! gt a jass band came to perform..all of em were like so cool lah! i love it manx! hahax! but den i was nt paying attention cus of NEELAM!!! aiyoh..keep poking cum tickling me..den steal all of my stuff..aiyoh..hahax! very fun! den maureen turned back n confronted me..wahahax! shocked manx! asked me smths..wah..i was in the middle of forgetting all tt stuff..den nw..haiix! nvm..watever..at least i told her the truth..n tts wat she wanna noes..(=
p.s. maureen..i dun think theres a chance for us to gt back tgt le..he's gt some1..n sry tt ur zoo dream is gone..u can oways go on a double date..wif him there..but the gal there is other ppl..hahax! laolao old le..canot go zoo..hahax!(=

after skool..went for piano..wah..pianoing agn.. -argh!- den did nt finished my work agn..hahax! den ended up sitting there n do..so sianx! den kellis was teaching bernice;s cousin..den we were like all crapping..wahahax! den went hm..think lots..felt like slping..but den went to prac maths instead..wah..very tired..changed the back of my fone cover..nice..wahahax.. THANX MUMMY!!! I LOVE U!!

im gg crazy very soon!! i duno wth m i doing this days manx! totally blured..confused..totally..watever!! but im reli........gg crazy le..all stressed up!! doing sai gang when exams r ard the corner le..omg! still kena scolding frm ms loh today..cus a lot of ppl have nt handed in the forms yet..

BAND MEMBERS.TMR HAVE TO HAND IN ALL THEY FORMS.NVR BRING..GO HOME N TAKE!! MUS HAND IN BY TMR!!

mugging, mugging, mugging
thinking, thinking, thinking
trying to forget u....

stressed up...hating myself...

i stopped , Wednesday, September 27, 2006 9:05 PM

monday blues agn~ so sianx..nth much to do today except to print things during recess can! thanx to my deary yan ming for helping me wif the printing n the notice board!! thanx ZL for helping me copy the stuff!!

tmr gt POA test..but den got a glimps of the answers..wahahax! so cool~ got back our EL common test on summary..luckily i gt pass sia! if nt..i reli duno hw to save my EL le..den gt chem test..omg..i think i will fail can! although its open bk..but its still so diff lah! canot find the ans. in the bk de loh..

rushed hm at 2.30 for tuition..den waited for my bro to end his..when i jus fell aslp..he jus finished..lolx! overall it was fine lah..but den i almost fell aslp..cus i was really xteremly tired..den showed him most of my maths tests..he like sort of gt a shock lah! wahahax! den he started to joke wif me when i was gg to fall aslp..wah..toked lots of crap..hahax! den wat suddenly sae wat i gt bf..den i was like NO! lolx! den he sae dun nid to hide..den wat..he wont sae out de..n all sort of nonsense lah..wahahax! im nw getting used to having tuition le..yeah! =P n im so dead..i forgotten when is my nxt tuition..some time this wk..but i duno when..forgotten to ask summore..lolx! DIE!!!

spent most of my time looking for ppl..gt sai gang for them to do..nw all given out..so i can relax a bit 1st..den on thursday..my turn to finish up the remaining sai gang.. -argh!- den saw mr phua..wahahahax! haiix..supposed to b studying de loh..den in the end..find ppl..den nvr study..haiix!

band members..go to the notice board to check ur attendance for term 1-3..those less than 75% are highlighted..go n check it out!!

i dun wanna face reality
it jus hurts so much
m i too much
if i wuld ask for another chance?
hw i wished
things had nvr started in the first place

the further i go
the more hurt i get
the bleeding seems to nvr end

i dun wanna face reality
i mayb im thinkin too much
but it hurts so much
n i can nvr bear anymore
hw i wished
things had nvr started in the first place

all the nonsense.. KUKU-ed me~

thinking too much le..

i stopped , Monday, September 25, 2006 9:45 PM

totally freaked out!! omg! i heard tt my cousin broke her arm today.omg! pri 4 only..den oso exams cummin..wat a time manx! haiix! i heard tt it was quite bad..her arm went into a V shape..eew..very disgusting..dun think i can go visit u my dear..im so sry..takkaires my dear!!

today was nt a very gd day for me..i was quite clumsy can! went to the temple..den accidentally droped all the joss sticks on the floor manx! so pai seh..wah piang..den summore gt shuai ge ard.. -argh!- so damn pai seh can! aiyoh. den after tt went to my grandma's huse..jus got off the car..walking..den almost fall..gt tripped by myself can! lolx! wah..duno y today so blur..mayb cus slept at 230 last nite..wahahax! den woke up 1130 today..

wah..im in a mess nw! i wanna study this n tt all in a day! but den i didnt planned well..so today slacking away~ only did a few maths qns..so sianx! den did a mass msg! msged all the SLs..wah..den darling; bridget called me..chatted for so long! wahahax! fun sia! den this is wat tt sort of stressed me..tt i still have to collect all the papers..den oso have to count n all tt lah..den still have to do up the attendance thingy..wah..im still wondering if this is the time tt everything stops so tt we can study for the exams..so im like rushing the attendance thingy nw lah! den the com dun1 to work s hw i wanted it to work!!! everything jus doesnt goes rite when u r in a rush!! pissed off!

i think im in a mess nw..im nt in a very clear state of mind at the moment..i wanna study for the exams!! but im still trying very hard to change into the study mood!! very pissed wif myself manx! i think im like giving myself stress lah! o manx! after the exams i sure wanna go shopping!! i wanna relief stress!!! wahahax! i feel im nt like sum other ppl (nt aimming any1)..can go out n relax..wah..im like so stuck at hm..trying or rather forcing myself to mug like hell..

i hate myself!! really hate myself...totally..

i think i really nid tt clear state of mind to mug!!

i stopped , Sunday, September 24, 2006 9:14 PM

OVERSLEPT! supposed to wake up at 9am de! den only woke up at 10am..but den luckly yan ming n friends geog lesson ended at 1030 only..den reached there after tt..sry horx!

studied in skool for awhile wif yan ming, alyssa, edmund, johnamin, felix, jeremy, muzamir n aaron.. kuku-ed..didnt feel like studying at all can! no mood..den ended up toking n toking..disturbing em..hahax! den saw mr lam in skool..he give the n/a classes xtra POA lessons..nvr give us..BIAS!! hahax! den we disturb him..ask him to give us a ride to heartland..kiddin wif him only he take it for real..den he send alyssa, yan ming, johnamin n me to heartland..hahax! reckless driver.. den went to top up ezlink card n sent alyssa off at the mrt station..den walked back to the skool back-gate bus stop wif yan ming n johnamin..hahax! neglated johnamin..kept toking to yan ming bout band stuff..im so sry..(=

went out to study..but nth much went into my head can! wasted lah! reach hm le den slp..only studied a lil of F&N jus nw..so sianx! no mood to study at all..feel like slacking~ but den exams startin nxt friday lah! den still have to finish up the band stuff..wah liao..sianx arhx!! mus mug like siao n finish up the band stuff before the 5th of oct..

dinner was so cool manx! KFC!! but den so much lah! 9 cups of drinks, 3 zinger, 1 cheese fries, bout 5 whipped potatoes n many pieces of chicken lah! all these for 5 ppl..craziness manx! eat until wanna throw up! lolx..hahax! my wei kou become smaller le..eatting much lesser than before le..wahahax! dieting in progress!! xP

mugging, mugging n still mugging..

hope the exams wuld end ASAP n tt all band member can go for the hk trip..(=

i stopped , Saturday, September 23, 2006 8:46 PM

today very siao..after MT test..den have physics test.the physics test was diffcult can! but anyway..mr peh is known for setting diffcult papers..den rushed my F&N h/k during recess..feeling tired the whole day can! slept late last nite..

stupid amrit..dun believe us tt ms liza took the music rm keys for us so we can study inside..pissed off lah! but den i think we are in the wrong oso.cus i think the rm was meant to b open for band members only..but den let other ppl in too..

im so sry yimei, alyssa, felix, etc..if we kena punished, we will cheng dan de! so sry!!

den still kena suaned by her when we were in the canteen lah! wth..den we jus walked oway..waited tgt for aaron's bus to cum..den went hm..yimei was quite worried lah..i admit tt i was oso worried..cus i scared tt those innocence might gt punished bcus of us..haiix..

continued to do sai gang..summore before exams mus hand in..so many things nid to collect n do le..den today gt another thing to do..wah piang..i sure go crazy sooner or later de..haiix!

i think my maths improving le..wahahx! had 'tuition' wif ms latha..missed those days manx! hahax! den so serective..canot let ms pok noe meh..? teachers are meant to help students de mah..wats wrong.. i oso dun think ms pok teach well loh.. dun care lah! nw chionging.. i mus pass all my subs dis time round n prove my bro wrong!! wahahax! =X

im so sry...

chionging in progress...... =)

i stopped , Friday, September 22, 2006 10:26 PM

haiix! feeling very troubled n depressed today..but better nw le..no longer depressed le! gotten back my maths textbk..really kena confiscated manx! but den still feeling sort of troubled..

haiix! siao liao! tmr got 2 test can! gg crazy can! physics n MT..omg! studied a bit of physics in music rm wif yan ming n friends..so fun manx! disturbed muzamir n ______..den went hm n continue..MT no nid to study de..den F&N..all the work are all cumin nw lah! ms irda lah! nw den ask us to re-do or smth lidat..still rush us..wah liao! expecting us to produce smth gd in such a short period of time..den tell us tmr nid to bring duno wat things..nw i forgot le..siao liao..

my memory is really failling..frm bad to worse can! yesterday chatted on the fone wif muzamir for a long time..den we toked bout the band's dec concert..den he sae tt jane n i will b the MCs lah..wah! i was totally shocked can! i den today in skool keep asking those ppl who were at the meeting if they noe bout this MCs thingy..den they all sae gt..omg! i dun rmbr a single thing although im the secretary lah! mayb i was too busy copying dwn the stuff during the meeting le..but den i think i rmbred toking bout it after band prac on tt day itself..i really forgot..siao liao! i dun think i can do it lah! jane sure can de! luckly found the things tt i written for tt meeting manx! if nt i sure die de! i totally forgotten where i put em all..even forgotten to bring my physics notes n oso duno where has it gone to.but found liao..in my chem file..lolx! hahax!

today spent most of my time chatting wif ZL in class..den during geog..huixian n i was like playing ard can! wahahax! kept on toking bout nicholas they all..still write on the back of my foolscap can! den i oso play..i oso write! wahahax! i really missed those primary skool daes..the grp of us during pri skool sure playing ard all the time de..its usual..wahahax!

im so sry dearest ZL, esther n weizhen..im so sry for nt studying wif u ppl in the library..i was studying wif yan ming n friends in the music rm..sry horx..but den i keep getting suan lah! the only combine there..the rest all pure de..haiix!

dis wk no tuition..sianx! den my maths will luo huo for 1 lesson..haiix! i have to temporary depend on myself le! haiix! circles..im like totally blind lah! it took me most of my time figuring out all the things lah! i think triangles easier..lolx! hahax! im jus pray hard tt will pass all my subs this yr n prove to my bro! oways cursing me de! -hurmp!- =X

ZL confronted my this morning on the way to class after FRC..siao-siao! jus for wat i written in yesterday's post?! lolx! hahax! but to state the fact..n i admit..im myself oso nt sure..im still in confused state..nt bothering n thinking bout it only..cus mus study 1st..i guess all other things can cum ltr ba..jus dun wanna tok bout it..hidding oway frm it..tt prob! -argh!-

tmr muggin POA in skool wif ZL n gladys! i really need ur help, galdys!! if nt im really gg to fail wif nt even a mark! i totally forgotten all the things tt was taught in the begining ig the yr! tts a huge prob! omg! mus eat more fish n pills tt wuld boost my memory!!

mugging mugging mugging...

i stopped , Thursday, September 21, 2006 11:14 PM

-argh!-

duno wats wrong wif ZL today..so high can! early in the morning so high le..dunring PE lesson she high wif alyssa..i didnt..cus i was jus simply too tired..wahahax! in class den at least 'woke up' a bit..den start to high wif dearest; ZL! wahahax!

so happy manx! finally passed my maths..but den its jus a class test lah..so..duno lah..but den get pass can liao..yeah! den MT lesson ms neo relief..she oso tok crap wif us can! so fun! den assembly.got performance by CO..but dearest n i were playing wif neelam they all..wahahax! but den still gt watch some parts of their performance.i admit tt i was nt very interested in CO tts y i was lidat.if it were to b a band performance..i sure high n pay attention de! hahax! when dismissed huixin tell me band members got to stay back for a while..i did nt noe manx! i was still chatting oway wif ZL can! den ms loh give us forms agn..n s usual..i nid to collect em..sianx! den ms loh ask me to follow her to go take the attendance bk..want me to update.lolx.hahax! den rushed to 1B for oral. den gave forms to yiling n amirah..asked em to meet me outside 1B classrm..hahax! oral sux lah! although it was easy..but den the pic nth to sae de loh..den the passage i think i read too fast le..siao liao! hahax! nvm.its all over le..sadded!den helped yoo jin n hye yeon in their english while waitin for huixin..on the way out of skool keep disturbing n playing wif huixin..wahahax! very fun manx! den went for piano. den in the bus den found out tt my maths textbk in class den gt 1 boy tell me tt he gg ard to help mr neo confiscate the bks..den my book~ hoped tt its still there loh..pray hard!!

went for piano late.very late.den sit there do theory cus i have nt finished..sianx! do theory for bout 1+hr lah! very sianx.denden prac the piano for awhile before leaving..reached hm bout 1815 le..den do a bit of attendance stuff den start slacking..nvr really prac maths today..mayb 1 qns.? lolx!

today 'rest' day..nvr studied..hahax! so cool..still read comics manx! hahax! tmr physics time~ pia physics..den friday POA~

nw den i realised smth.u r still in my mind.all the while.been thinking lots this few days.its been bothering me.diffcult.im trying my best to concentrate on my studies.i really nid time to sort out my tots.but i dun.i knew things like these wuld happened.because of time.studies.everything.but i noe everything have to come to an end sooner or later.n i rather hurt u nw den later.im hurt too.i have my reasons for doing wat i did.time is the thing i lack most.im sry.

keep working hard~!! (=

i stopped , Wednesday, September 20, 2006 9:09 PM

o manx! i tot the early slp last nite wuld help in my flu or smth..but den i think i became more sick can! nw i got a bit of sore throat.but i can still tok.to dun care.wait till i reli no voice le.den will do smth bout it ba..gg back to my zi bi mood..lolx.hahax!

today lessons were very boring..did nth much..but den duno y felt very tired..nth much happened but den mr lim like a bit sot-sot de..lolx.hahax! den today ZL nvr eat anything for recess cus i nvr eat.den she kena gastric!! omg!! i haii her de! im so sry to let u suffer..nw i noe..mus eat every recess..if nt tt bing mao suffer.. =X handed in the report slip..heard tt he failed everything..wanted to msg him to sort of like ask him to work harder or smth lidat.but.i thinked twice. in the end did nt. i duno y but im jus worried bout all other ppl's resluts but myself.weird. ppl..gd luck for the exams!

stayed in skool to study wif ZL s usual..but den gt more ppl came to join us..but den duno they gt study anot leh..keep on laughing n playin a fool sia..yesterday was me.den today was ZL they all..wahahax! shimin, cindy n hafiz joined us in studyin..i was reli studyin can! onli kena disturbed by hafiz they onli..hahax! studyed until bout 1530..den went hm le..very tired..pei dearest ZL to her bus stop wif hafiz..den walked to back-gate there wif hafiz..den went hm wif ahmei..

muggin in skool n at hm(tryin my best).. tmr piano n tuition. im so nt gg to touch my piano until the exams r over unless i have to. but theroy is a mus do thingy.but i have nt even finished em..tmr sure kena liao..sure sit there n do de.sianx! but i duno y i prefer theory than prac..sumtimes i think pianoin too much is oso no gd..tts y i hardly prac nw days..cus of exams oso lah. mus gt my piano tuned le.it sounds weird to me.but im too busy s usual.

saw sum1 or rather ppl in the canteen..but i think i jus became heartless for a moment.jus continued to chat wif hafiz they all.wanted to sae bye to sun-nu;maureen de..but den he was there.so i jus continued to walk.jus walk...

im so sick of the way things are manx! y cant i jus get into the exam mood?! y cant i jus stop thinking bout other things n concentrate?! omg! my tots n feelings are all in a huge mess at the moment can! i think i reli nid a time out to have a break n mayb think bout em carefully..

STRESS!!! MUGGING!!! CONFUSED!!

i stopped , Tuesday, September 19, 2006 9:30 PM

monday blues!! s usual..chatting wif ZL in class.wahahax! it seemed to b a everyday thingy..wahahax! toking n toking.. hahax!

duno y suddenly sick..gt flu..as usual lah! but den i think i falling sick le..hahax! so cool! lolx! hahax! my throat..argh! i think i nt enough slp ba..den summore slept quite late last nite..was doing some reading..lolx! keep on sneezing lah! luckli it onli started after maths lesson..cus gt test..wahahahx! im bound to disappoint my tuition cher n fail my test can! i duno hw to do some qns lah! den tt bloody ms pok..nvr sae gt no. patterns..wah liao! den i sking ZL smth only den she shout n diao me! very pissed lah! bloody cher! im starting to hate her day by day..oso duno y..haiix! duno wats wrong wif me this few days..haiix!

gotten back our report slip or smth lidat.. omg!! i duno y i failed my english lah! maths still can understand..its a usual thing tt happens all the while..but english leh! omg!! luckli i onli failed 2 subs..supposed to b failin 3 de loh..cus of gladys..helped me for POA..thanx so much manx!! failed my maths wif onli 4 marks! hahax! im so dead..

stayed in skool to study wif ZL..MATHS..but den i nvr do much..cus i was busy toking to siyan..didnt wanna neglate her..so pei her loh..but den when i went home..i did maths for 1.5 hrs manx! unbelievable manx! lolx! hahax!

feel so blur after dinner manx!! mayb tired ba..den i oso have nt take a long nap to cure my flu.. n i duno y but im feeling...very..confused ba..i think i nid time to sort out my tots n everything..but tts where the prob lies..i dun have time..nt in the mood for everything manx! jus feeling tired..very tired..i feel totally lost can! duno wat to do..but i will 1st pull up my socks..after exams den i try to find time to sort everything out..totally in the world of blurness..

pls cheer up yanming..i noe u can can do better than dis!! i have faith in u!! trust me n urself!! takkaires n keep tt smile on ur face..

i stopped , Monday, September 18, 2006 9:48 PM

haiix! yesterday was the last band prac..the nxt band prac will onli b on the 12 oct if im nt wrong..but den still got to sort of like do band stuff lah..sianx diao! got to find those ppl who r gg for the trip n pass em the forms.. -argh!- forgotten to do smth before i left yesterday.. o manx!

tmr got maths tez!! jus nw prac very hard manx!! i think i sat there n prac for bout 2 hrs ba.. 1st time..ltr gg to continue..mayb after dinner ba.. i canot afford to fail anymore!! hope the exams end quickly..den can resume band prac agn..wahahax!

yesterday's band prac was fun!! especially during the esemble!! prac jalan-jalan..den had fun can!! hahax!! played colonial collage before band prac ends..so fun..den head hm after tt..very tired cus slept late on friday nite..s usual lah..hahax!! fall in tt time..mr phua asked the band hu gt piano grades..wahahax!! no1 answered manx! wahahax! cus jalan-jalan n escape gt piano scores if im nt wrong..hahax!! in the night..calista celebrated her b-day at my huse..hahax! the cake was like so nice can!!

went to grandparents huse today for luch..den didnt expect my cousins, aunties n uncles to b there lah! den so re nao!! wahahax!! spent most of my eating, watching tv n toking..lolx..hahax!! den almost kena bombarded by my god-ma sia!! wahahax!! luch was great today! followed by a nice piece of ice-cream cake!! wahahax!! enjoyed sia!! lolx!

im very tired sia! but den oso duno why..lolx! hahax! i think i nid to force myself to get into the exam mood le..den get all the exam stress..yeah!! den mus think bout the theory tt david told me..wahahhax!! so cool! lolx! thanx so much for tt theory tt u told me!! i think it wuld help at times ba!! hahax!!

still in search for the confidence tt i have been looking for all the while...

i stopped , Sunday, September 17, 2006 6:26 PM

damn tired sia!

sch was s usual.boring. gotten back the f&n results le..wahahax! failed. s usual. but den jus nid bout 4 more marks i guess. hahax! nvm.jus nid to work harder loh..

after sch.went for the thing tt i wanted the most! BAND!!! wahahax! very fun manx! kept playing ard..but den felt a bit bad lah.cus aaron left early today.den left muzamir n me i guess. but den i was like playing wif my section can! my dearest section! most of my dearest ppl there! lolx! kept laughing wif the flute section ppl..especially yanming n jane can! lolx! felt quite blur today during band prac.tired ba.but den when mr faizal asked us to play certain parts.den i will ask jane where's it..but den our score oso different.1 pic socre n 1 flute score.printing of patrs are a lil diff.lolx! den 1st piece play jalan-jalan le..den play play play..den duno suddenli go ask us to play part H.den i was like nodding my head in responds.cus H is on page 2 but im still on page 1..lolx! den i noticed tt mr faizal seemed to b lookin at me.den i fatser turn the page.s usual.looking for tt part.den it was my solo lah! schocked lah! but den tt part was so-so lah.so jus play loh.den duno y keep on repeating tt part lah! i think cus afetr my solo tt time the ppl playin..duno wat happened lah.den jus paly loh.im so lucky.at dawn they slept n escape i no solo..but den jalan-jalan n colonial collage gt.sianx diao!

rushed hm after all the band stuff cus gt tuition.reach hm den went to eat. after tt watchin tv haf way my turn le.i was superb tired lah! nt reli paying attention to wat he saein.den brain block.think oso canot think lah!im lucky to have tuition.cus i think the reason i have been failin my maths cus i dun listen in class..hahax! even after tuition i was still brain block.canot think when is my maths tez.

let the music in u rox on!!!

laopa clinton left for US le..i oso duno when leh.wah piang.still sae wat i dun care.is tt he nvr tell me when he leavin lah! anyway.wish him all the best for his paper.hahax! n tt he n my mummy will stay happy tgt forever over in US.
ur nuer here will oways suport u de!! takkaires!!

trying my best to get into the study mood! im reli gg to chiong le! mus reli try to pass the subjects tt i have failed.

ppl!! jiayou for ur exams! takkaires!! (=

i stopped , Thursday, September 14, 2006 10:45 PM

manx!! too many things happened during the start of sch.. haiix!! i myself oso duno wat i m doing manx!! wth. i duno hu i m nw. confused. guilty. sick n tired of all those nonsense.

today. angeline n yimei keep on hittin zhenling n me. pain sia..all red! but den had a fun time playin wif em..hahax! den played wif ZL during lessons..den chinese lesson. i was nt even payin attention can! i was like playin wif shimin lah! she teachin me hw to tear likin like u r cryin lidat..kept trying. but den unsuccessful. den wne to hall for duno wat after skool..cus no assembly..den mr neo wants to meet SLs..even CCA SLs lah! den we like go for nth..nth much for us to do..den ZL, yimei,shimin n me started playin..hahax! den rushed to piano. walked out of sch wif hafiz. toked bout nonsense while walkin..den stayed at piano there longer cus tuition postponed to tmr.. den tmr mus rush hm after band..sianx!

haiix!! exams cummin agn. gotta chiong agn. gotten back most of the common tez results le. they jus sux can! POA gt quite a gd grade. but is copy ppl 1. lolx! maths. superb cool sia! 2 over 50! wahahax! chinese. still can lah.gt pass.but den nt reli s gd s before ba.. combine sci. i think gt pass cus both oso gt pass lah.i think so.. den.. english. omg! FAIL! 9 or 9 1/2 over duno hw much lah. f&n. FAIL! have nt get paper yet. but den sort of noe tt i failed. geog. PASS! i think dis my first time passin manx! i oways fail de..sec1-2 fail..hahax! haiix..i oso duno wat subs i take..canot rmbr..rmbr le den announce ba!

haiix!! did things tt made me guilty jus on the start of sch. haiix!! but i tot i bout it for long.. n i reli nid a time out.. cus im getting rel busy nowadays.. im reli reli xtremeli sorry for wat i done.. but den i gt my reasons for doing this.. SORRY!! haiix! aiyah! i dun wanna tok bout it le..

tmr got band prac! YEAH!! im waiting for this dae manx! i think i feel more happy when im in band manx! i think tts the time when all my troubles r gone for awhile ba! very good!

music jus rox my life!!

i jus hate myself.most of the time.confused.

i stopped , Wednesday, September 13, 2006 9:22 PM

i think its been a long time since i blogged le..lolx..very busy sia..even though its in the HOLIDAYS..but den saded is tt the holidays r gg b over soon le..haiix..start skool got maths tez..ms pok so the kind sia..lolx..hahax..

been gg to skool for band prac n sectionals can! den i think ms loh didnt noe bout the sectionals everyday lah..i think the exco members will soon kena scoldin by ms loh de loh..s wat she said lah..haiix..today..cus of the lady hu holds all the skool keys..hai the top 3 ppl to kena punished lah!! irritating manx!! she cum to skool late..den canot get into the music rm to get the attendance file..den bo bian..use another method..haiix! didnt noe tt method was useless.. haiix! had lots of trouble wif the attendance for today.. den duno y suddenly gotta memories all the absentees..scarded me manx! luckily i was nt tested manx! lolx..den kena punished..me, aaron n muzamir gotta run 5 rounds ard the parade square..lolx..den rush to sectionals.. LUNCH TIME..sux lah..had to call all those absentees..cus they nid to b accounted for..lolx..den called while eating..den reached skool late lah! den kena punished agn..40 push-ups..haiix.. y today so suay?! tmr canot b late..if nt sure die until canot die de!! -argh!-

haiix..im so tired manx!! tired of everything.. jus hope to let go of everything tt i have or wat-so-ever.. EVERYTHING!!!! im superb tired..jus wanna give up.. but nt on my studies.. been workin hard lately..lolx..duno wats gotten into me sia..watever.. jus feelin veri irritated n tired..haiix..

im very tired..pls..pls let me go..i jus wanna b myself like hw i used to b....

i stopped , Thursday, September 07, 2006 9:19 PM