eve of the new year. eve of 2009.
last day of 2008. argh.. it wasnt a very good year i think. but i doubt it will be any better in 2009. whatever it is, i still need to live my life unless im out of this world.
im surprised mummy didnt make a big fuss about me reaching home after 12am. cool. and i think im falling sick soon. my body has been aching! i feel... old. lol.
at least my voice is still around after all those talking/pysco-ing.
im afraid. i know its not right of me to think towards the negative side at this point of time, but it just worries me. maybe im just thinking too much. i hope nothing of the sort that im worried about will happen. that's just my biggest fear. it will come to no end. i will try to make it not happen, if its within my limits.
dont hurt her in any way. try being in her shoes and see how it feels like. totally ruined.
i dont know. i dont want to know. i dont intend to know. i cant be bothered to know.
maybe its just me.
im more towards being realistic.
i only care if its my business, if not i wont even give a damn about it.
for all you care, this is me.
i stopped , Wednesday, December 31, 2008 2:01 AM
ordinarily special
okie. the previous post was freaking long, so dont bother reading it. HA!
i didnt expect myself to adjust back to s'pore's hot weather that quickly. from -__ degree to 30 degree! madness, but im coping well. LOL.
but food wise. omg. i think have adjusted to korean food or maybe their food style. mummy went to da bao food back for dinner last night. i took a mouth and lost my appetite. well done.
their food are freeeeaking healthy! like less oil, salt, sugar, etc. and apparently they have endless supply of free water. so they are freaking healthy and always drinking water. but korean food are expensive.
people there have weird hairstyles. they like the nerd hairdo with the nerd black frame. both males and females. and their style of ah bengs ah.. similar to s'pore's. just looking at them, i can laugh. childish and lame people. retards.
im so going healthy lifestyle-cum-diet. cus i need to shead some weight. the thing i did in korea and remembered the best was eat, eat and eat! its was freaking cold, so eat to keep warm. LOL.
this is all i can think of now, my brain has stopped for the day.
oh yah! christmas is over, santa didnt gave me my present. i bet santa thinks im extremely good this year, so saving up/making a better present for next year! HA! i shall wish for the next christmas~
okie. im going to reply tags. freaking long ones... lazy arh.. haha! sorry arh~
~fang : i will wait for u to get ur license! fetch me to school!
~ all who wished bon voyage : THANKS! safe trip indeed!
~ allwho wished merry xmas : THANKS! same to you all too! =)
~ Alyssa : korea is fun! go go go!
~hu!ci : im back! i shall wash the toilet soon enough~ haha! sure clean one, cus i locked the door!
~SYU : countdown for new year! 2009 in 2 days time!
~Siyan : thanks! i got food for u all! heh heh heh~
~SAMANTHA : yeah babe! i cant believe it lah! haha! but at least we still met at the airport!
~yanming : thanks! =)
~clarissa : where got foget you?! okie! settled! =D
~Bridget : thanks! i know that im hot.. like all the while~
i stopped , Monday, December 29, 2008 9:48 PM
how much i hate goodbyes..
im back!
firstly, HAPPY BELATED CHRISTMAS & MERRY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
okie. now im going to crap about my korea trip. i want to put up all the pictures, but i know blogger will give me problem and im too lazy to do so too. might put the pictures in my multiply, so please be patient. it will be ALL words. be prepared! heh heh heh~ and hope i didnt leave out anything.
first day (21/12).
flight there was fine. around 6hrs? and i didnt sleep. i was too engrossed with the movies. the damn headphone was spoilt somehow, but i still survived. HA!
second day (22/12).
the first thing i did when i stepped out of the plane was shiver! crap. it was cold and my body has not adjust to the cold.
took a long bus ride to Everland; a theme park but way better and bigger than escape theme park. tour guide brought us around. went to the mini zoo there and stuff. woooooooo! then had lunch at Everland itself and had our own time to go around to catch the rides and stuff. i wasnt in the mood to go for the rides at that time cus i was tired and cold.
bus ride to some place for dinner. STEAMBOAT! eating steamboat in cold weather is just so shiok! then went to rent the ski stuff. then spend the night at phoenix park hotel; right beside the ski resort!
after putting down our things, our family went to FamilyMart(something like 7-11) to buy alcohol and snacks cus they wanted to warm themselves with alcohol. it snowed. i saw snow flakes! snacked and drank at the guys room then went back and sleep. tatami with 2 pillows for me! heh!
the first thing i did when i stepped out of the plane was shiver! crap. it was cold and my body has not adjust to the cold.
took a long bus ride to Everland; a theme park but way better and bigger than escape theme park. tour guide brought us around. went to the mini zoo there and stuff. woooooooo! then had lunch at Everland itself and had our own time to go around to catch the rides and stuff. i wasnt in the mood to go for the rides at that time cus i was tired and cold.
bus ride to some place for dinner. STEAMBOAT! eating steamboat in cold weather is just so shiok! then went to rent the ski stuff. then spend the night at phoenix park hotel; right beside the ski resort!
after putting down our things, our family went to FamilyMart(something like 7-11) to buy alcohol and snacks cus they wanted to warm themselves with alcohol. it snowed. i saw snow flakes! snacked and drank at the guys room then went back and sleep. tatami with 2 pillows for me! heh!
third day (23/12)
breakfast-ed and went for skiing at the resort right beside the hotel! snow was freaking thick. and our tour guide was nice enough to teach us the basics. i skiied until i was freaking tired. so i played snow and stuff. the photographer took many unglam pictures of me. -.-
i got presents from skiing. bruises! but skiing rocks to the core!
breakfast-ed and went for skiing at the resort right beside the hotel! snow was freaking thick. and our tour guide was nice enough to teach us the basics. i skiied until i was freaking tired. so i played snow and stuff. the photographer took many unglam pictures of me. -.-
i got presents from skiing. bruises! but skiing rocks to the core!
lunched somewhere near the ski resort and went for spa/hot spring! indoor and outdoor hot spring! woooh! then headed to another resort. the second resort was way colder than the one beside the ski resort, but there wasa ski resort nearby too. then dinnered. BBQ! but the food is already bbq-ed for us, so we just had to eat. after dinner, my dad was out of his mind. he wanted to take a walk before walking back to our rooms, but it was too cold already. it snowed too!
forth day (24/12).
eve of christmas!
eve of christmas!
breakfast-ed and photo taking! the place was very nice!
headed to mt. sorak park. took a cable car up and still had to walk. damn cold and snow was seriously freaking thick. hard to move around cus loads of people and the damn snow. then went to the temple for a walk. slippery! we were lucky as there wasnt any strong wind. if nt we might not be able to go up the mountain or even kena stuck there if we are up there.
had bibimbap for lunch. saw how the person made it. i was the representative of my family and went up to mix the food. damn funny. like "lo hei". HAHA!
then headed to another hotel. cool thing is that our rooms were all on the first floor! LOL. first time i see such a thing. then had dinner. seafood steamboat! heh heh heh~
then our tour guide bought 2 cakes to celebrate christmas for the whole group of us! and cakes is not cheap in korea and its christmas eve!
had bibimbap for lunch. saw how the person made it. i was the representative of my family and went up to mix the food. damn funny. like "lo hei". HAHA!
then headed to another hotel. cool thing is that our rooms were all on the first floor! LOL. first time i see such a thing. then had dinner. seafood steamboat! heh heh heh~
then our tour guide bought 2 cakes to celebrate christmas for the whole group of us! and cakes is not cheap in korea and its christmas eve!
headed back to hotel and snacked and drank in the guys room again. watched a damn funny korean variety show. although its in korean, but body language can roughly tell what is it. smart eh? then went to bed. the room is like those typical korean drama house. interesting and also tatami style.
fifth day (25/12).
merry christmas!
had breakfast and went for ATV (snow mobil)! i was with my parents, so the driver didnt went that wild. my brothers joint another vehicle with 2 roughly same age guys. and my brother went "go! go! go!" so the driver went wild. rocks man!
had sulphur duck and their onion thingy for lunch. and our lovely guide bought fruits for the whole group! and fruits are expensive cus its winter season.
after that travelled to the ginseng farm and learnt about ginseng. drank ginseng milk! heh heh heh~ then went to kimchi school and made kimchi. fun and interesting! then wore their traditional costume. my big brother was pulled to dress the female one. damn funny!
went to a place in seoul where they show the houses of the people lived in the past. interesting, but my brother didnt took much pictures.
had ginseng chicken for dinner then went to hotel and sleep.
sixth day (26/12).
SHOPPING DAY!
went to some medicine shop which sells ginseng and cordeyceps. mum bought. omg. we are all in for it man. hope she doesnt force us to eat those pills.
had bbq for lunch. something like seoul garden.
went to the face shop! cheap like siao! way way waaaaay cheaper than s'pore! then went to a jewellery shop.
went to a duty free place which sells things made in korea only. bought loads of food. the shop provide free packaging, so they boxed up all our items. and apparently our family got the biggest box. lol.
then went to a fashion street; like bugis street. too cold to walk and all winter wear. i saw bags and wanted to buy though.. oh well. then went to a cafe for hot chocolate and cakes! chocolate fudge was great!
then we went to Lotte World; another theme park. we took the carousel (merry-go-round). they filmed "天国的阶梯" there okie! dont play play.
then headed back to hotel. our family went out to GS something; something like 7-11 also. 3 of us bought cup noodles for dinner while my parents went dont know where to eat. we were supposed to have dinner at Lotte World.
last day (27/12).
breakfast-ed on our own. slack around then steamboat for lunch. then off to the airport. the tour guide and photographer waited till all of us went in before they left. so sweet right?
met samantha at changi airport after arriving! woooh! she went to korea too! same flight and stuff, but we only met in changi airport when we arrived. cool or what?!
will crap about my discovery about korea next time.
i miss juliy, ha ha and korea...
i stopped , Sunday, December 28, 2008 10:01 PM
see how much i love my flute juniors? heh heh heh~
i like spoilt this picture by sitting down. i didnt expect to be in the picture. the worse of all is that this picture is printed out and given to the jap people over there as a flute section gift. oh my good! no face to see people anymore. LOL.
anyway,
WELCOME BACK DARLINGS!
only able to see you guys like one week later. cus im like going to fly off the korea in a few hours time! hope i remember all the souvenirs.
im so addicted to 不良小花! i think im going to chiong when i return from korea! heh heh heh~
see ya all soon! =)
i stopped , Sunday, December 21, 2008 4:42 PM
beauty sleep needed!
crap. im flying off to korea tomorrow and my nose is giving me problem at this time! and my mum wants me to pop a pill. jialat.
if im not wrong i have enough hours of sleep, like 8 hours? or was it kallis who passed to me?! she was sneezing throughout the whole paino lesson just now. arghhh! oh well.
woooh! im proud of myself! im watching 不良小花 on the internet. im currently at episode 8(at this point of time). its an achievement! cus 8 espisodes within 2 days! and to make things worse, i hate watching on my laptop and internet. i perfer watching on the tv. isnt that is what tv is for? lol.
will show how much i love my section next time. have not upload the picture into my laptop. arghhh!
i think you finally got me. i didnt meant to be rude that day, but i dont seem to have a choice. "busy" always seem to be my excuse, but it true. you somehow always get me at the wrong time, whenever im busy. im happy to have you as a friend, nothing else but a friend.
i stopped , Saturday, December 20, 2008 10:58 PM
i finally got my lappy back!
sent my lappy for servicing and it came back with not much of difference? lol. anyway, mst thank my dad for bring it so far just to service my damn lappy. i think hp is kind of retarded. they told my mum that the charger is wrong, but that was the charger they gave when i bought this lappy. -.-
have been out the past few days helping up at NIE for the JC/poly band fest thingy. but i didnt went today. i overslpt and decided to continue to sleep, so i gave some crappy excuse.
its freaking tiring. having to wake up at 6am in the morning and travel all the way to NIE. and i have not wake up at 6am like ever since i left secondary school! but i miss the morning air. so shiok lah, but not enough sleep.
i smart already. im going to bring my laptop tomorrow, cus doing librarian stuff is just so seng lang. so im bringing my VCD there to watch to kill time. heh heh heh~
he is still hot, but less hot than the previous time. shocking that he is so precise. tsk tsk tsk..
okie. random.
anyway, im flying off to korea on sunday for a week! so dont miss me! especially nurul syuhadah! heh heh heh~
i stopped , Thursday, December 18, 2008 11:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANI!!!
wooh! i reached home past 12am~ and i have no idea why am i blogging now cus i have to wake up early tomorrow.
yesterday.
that call made me teared. i also have no idea why too. maybe cus im just not used to all those from you. i tried holding back, but dont know why it still went rolling down. HA!
then headed to amk hub for movie with singying, rui fang & felicia~ cape no. 7 is freaking nice! its a must to watch! cus Van Fan is just too hot! weeeee! and the movie was quite touching or maybe sweet. i teared. unexpected right?
since when have i become such a cry baby? crap.
headed to yuying and was disturbing their last minute packing! HAHAHA! cant blame me. i had nothing to do. then followed them to the airport and sent them off. and those unglam pictures again! and im like so dead. they are going to print an unglam picture that we taken just now as a present to the jap people they are meeting. jialat.
whatever. i have no reputation there anywhere anyway. lol.
then had popeye for dinner. thank you so much mummie for the treat! but i feel so bad...
i have no idea why did i agreed to it.
i feel like backing out suddenly.
can i?
i stopped , Tuesday, December 16, 2008 1:18 AM
woooh! finally its all over!
firstly, i want to congratulate Pei Xin Concert Band! the concert was really a blast! damn good! all the hard work was paid off! keep up the good work darlings! =)
secondly, i want to wish my darling yuying concert band bon voyage! their heading to japan tomorrow! so just want to wish them all the best for the trip! wont be seeing them until end of the month cus when they are back from japan, i will be off to korea! so i will miss them and hopefully they miss me too! lol.
thirdly, i want to congratulate myself. finally its over! i can get a break now! although it wasnt that good, but its all over. so will do better the next concert.
i seriously didnt know if i was feeling disappointed or worried. i was disappointed that he didnt come. and i paid for the tickets. i was very very worried that he got the wrong timing.
my brother and cousin wanted to come, but they got the wrong time.
whatever it is, its over already. i seriously dont blame anyone of them cus i know he might be doing last minute packing for tomorrow's trip.
and i want the band's sweater! I WANT! after all, i was once a yuying concert band member! and its like i graduated only last year?!
piano lessons can sometimes be really interesting. when you are too bored, you will just crap about random things. and dont know why my teacher suddenly talked about reading fortune and others, she said scorpio people are very realistic and get jealous easily.
for the realistic part, i think its quite true. i dont really care about unrealistic things. its just not practical to me. jealous part... shoud be true too. sometimes, i do get jealous. but like once in a long while due to certain situation. lol.
im seriously burnt out. dead tired. maybe its time for me to get my ample rest cus im hanging out with some W47K people tomorrow! i mus be high tomorrow cus its holiday already!
i stopped , Sunday, December 14, 2008 11:43 PM
a drop of tear and a story of me, myself and i.
okie. i seriously hate the feeling of being caught in the middle of two things. it suck, like seriously. i was all prepared to just swallow everything at first, but... whatever happened, its just among me and the 4 walls of the toilet cubicle.
woooh~ i was "sick" today, that's why i didnt went to school. and i was like freaking early over there although i tried strolling on the way. freaking tired, but enjoyed. little kids are just so cute! at least i know that i did my best to help, but its still up to them. ALL THE BEST, KIDS!
oh yah. a group of henderson people came today too. and i was telling mf that they travelled so far just to come and see see. if its me, i rather not go over man! HAHA!
just being random here. i love my care bear! its green, small and CUTE! i know i should have said this long ago, but ha!
and one more thing. its kind of getting irritating when you always get me at the wrong time and with those words of yours. if you are trying to be funny, please try harder. no offence, but its irritating me! and im independent! or maybe learning to be, so dont obstruct my way.
i stopped , Saturday, December 13, 2008 12:13 AM
changed. wasted.
okie. i have an extra day of holiday which is today, self proclaimed holiday! i dont want to end up having to cough out an essay again. total waste of time and brain cells. since i cant stay at home, im going to spend my extra day meaningfully. im going to visit them again! and hopefully got time to practice my own parts too.
i feel like privating my blog? for fun and laughter, peace and joy. its just a thinking process. im thinking, but it is not processing.
im just going to swallow all those crap. i am professional. im doing all these for them, not you. i wont let anything affect me.
i stopped , Friday, December 12, 2008 12:05 AM
one down, two more to go.
its a public holiday and im resting. being a couch potato, watching tv the whole day. resting, but feeling the stress. crap sia! ARGHHHHHHHH!
i dont feel like going to school tomorrow and this whole week, but there's UT. and might have to leave class early for dry run. argh.. im in the holiday mood already.
and im sure my coming 3 weeks holiday would not be much of a holiday for me either.
i stopped , Monday, December 08, 2008 10:16 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG SING YING! (SING SING)
im freakingly jealous of those who are going to japan. I WANT TO GO TOO! damn it. damn it. damn it. damn it.
i just want the coming week to end quickly. i feel like a robot. one concert after another. crap sia. freaking tiring.
this is how my coming week goes (all "after school programmes" by the way) :
monday: public holiday
tuesday: dry run, band practice
wednesday: performance, Pei Xin(if have time)
thursday: band practice
friday: sectionals
saturday: piano lesson, Pei Xin concert
sunday: concert
i want those Passione III pictures! felt so "popular" yesterday. so many people wanted to take photo with me! heh heh heh~ but of course, being the biggest "aunty" in that section/band i have to take glam pictures with them from now onwards. looking from the slides last night, there doesnt seemed to have any glam pictures of me. (as usual) i think im the only person who dares to let people take such unglam pictures of me. HA!
i stopped , Sunday, December 07, 2008 11:36 PM
congrats! well done! we did it!
kuddos to PASSIONE III! it was quite a successful one!
to YYCB,
well done! what had happened, has happened. its over already. so now is the time to look forward to the japan trip! enjoy the trip, but at the same time put in effort in your playing! dont throw our facr there hor! i know you all wont, but oh well. HA!
take great care and rest well! *give yourself a pat on the back!*
to alumni band,
well done too! despite the few practices that we had, we made it today! be it we smoked through or what, we still made it! thanks so much for the effort put in for the past few practices and even just now! WE DID IT! our very first concert, our debut!
take great care and rest well! we shall see each other some time soon! *give yourself a pat on the back!*
to syu, yani, pat & zoe,
I LOVE YOU!! thank you all for coming down today. its just freaking far for you guys and you still made it! thank you all so much! dont be jealous that i didnt take pictures with you all just now. i know i have never taken a glam picture with you all before. no need jealous too! HAHAHA! next time yah? i promise! but unglam one more cool. no one dares to be that unglam!
to 老爹,
thank you so much for taking time off every saturday to guide the alumni band! if it wasnt for you, there wont be us. thank you for your guidance and patience. we owe you loads! and especially the flute section. thank you for accepting our crappy playing, nonsense and all that. we improved tremendously partly because of you! the other part is we practice on our own lah. haha!
to mr faizal,
thank you so much for coming down to help us when 老爹 is busy. and thank you for always shooting me when you are around. -.-
although i know you kept shooting me cus you want me to learn and know those meaning, but... unfortunately it isnt working. HAHAHA! sadded~
to all the others who came for the concert,
thank so much for coming down today. really appreciated it! LOVES!
i stopped , 1:16 AM
today is the day. just a few more hours.
make it or break it.
im trying to calm myself down and stop thinking so much. i will do my best! thanks so much for those well wishes! as what i always say: 人不到，没关系。有心就好！
to YYCB,
you guys can do it! im sure you guys have learnt quite a lot during the camp. put in your best effort but dont forget to enjoy yourselves for the concert yah? after the concert, its the japan trip! just remember everything that Sirs told you all. and most importantly, watch! i bet you all have memorised the scores, so dont stick your eyes to the score like there is gold on it! WATCH and count properly! dont be afraid too. breathe and play confidently! we all know that you all can do it!
JIAYOU! =)
to alumni band,
thank you all so much for making the effort to come down every saturday night for practice. today is the day all of us have been looking forward to! our very first concert, so let's do our best! we can do it! remember to watch and count too! festivo is the slightly more complicated one. FOCUS and also WATCH the conductor! watching is really really very important. i seriously dont know what will happen on stage later. i might go fast or slower. it all depends.
JIAYOU! =D
I LOVE YOU ALL(YYCB + alumni band)! XD
i stopped , Saturday, December 06, 2008 12:25 AM
STRESS! anyone please lend me your confidence just for a night.
saturday is the day!
this sucks man. if i cant do it in front of the main band, i really dont know what is going to happen in front of audiences. i seriously still got loads of catch up, but saturday is it. im not prepared and im freaking stressed up.
but on a brighter side, i was laughing i front of them. seriously crap. all the freaking unglam pictures up only. im so going to be dead.
i seriously pray hard and hope everything will go smoothly on saturday. hope i do well and not let anyone down. no tears would be shed this time round! and dont make fun of me after the concert!
seeing the juniors having band camp, i was so tempted to stay overnight with them, but there's school tomorrow and i needed to submit the damn RJ. i wish i could stay overnight with them. arghh! i love band camps. those never ending fun and stuff!
i want a flute; a flute with wooden head joint.
and i will promise i will practice damn hard!
but for now, concert comes first.
i stopped , Thursday, December 04, 2008 11:52 PM
i skipped school, yet i went to school.
not going to school can also be freaking tiring especially when you are at band. and to make things worse, having an exchange with 6 other schools. as usual, sai gang. and i brought daniel to the doctor because philbert bit him. -.-
im proud of myself cus i really sat down to practice. even though it was only for awhile, but i still did. but the thing i think i would kill myself for is that i missed Prof Ho's masterclass! although its for "dance of yao", BUT. whatever. cabbed down to RP from yuying. very kind taxi driver, thanks so much! if not i will be once again broke for the month.
tomorrow's going to be another long day. im going to school just because there is UT. if not i will just skip it too. then have to go to yuying straight after school. if only i could skip. i feel like skipping on friday, but i have no where to go.
saturday's the concert. i think im quite prepared to just throw my face. im seriously totally burnt out. i just hope i can survive till then.
i feel dumb. i pon school yet i went back for that 15mins?
i would rather go for the masterclass.
and im trying my best.
i stopped , Wednesday, December 03, 2008 11:09 PM
demoralized and stressed.
im not going to school today. i will be at yuying, so just get me through my phone. =)
i stopped , 12:00 AM
it does not matter. i should have known.
i was feeling vexed the whole day. there were just too many things on my mind and i was not concentrating in class. (like since when i do?)
the feeling of being caught in the middle really suck. both sides are equally important. but i have made my decision and i will stick to it.
[Vanessa, no more wavering no matter what is in your mind.]
sorry to those who will be taking their time off to go down. especially Mr Lim Jun Shen. hope you can make it in time for the concert. hope australia didnt took the music sense in you away.
"dont think too much. everything will be fine."
a nice sentence i use to comfort people, but it does not work for me.
nevermind. im just hoping all these would go off quickly. i chose to ignore them.
and please bring me to star gazing. its been a long time since i see much stars. let the stars take my mind away.
dont. it just makes me feel stress.
i will work hard. i promise.
i stopped , Monday, December 01, 2008 11:52 PM