you can't have a rainbow , without any rain .

haiix...2dae so sianx..stay at hm....nth 2 do...den i play da spoilled picc..play 4 less den 10 min den i clean n keep le...i dun hav da feelin 2 play cus its spoilled...i oso nt sure if spoil anot..cus 3 of da notes canot play...duno considered s spoilled anot..so sianx...
den keep on watchin tv...cus mi parents nt at hm..den canot use da com cus mi bro gota study 4 his exam...den mi n bro end u watchin vcd...lava gal n shark boi...so lame loh...i nva seen such a lame show loh..i watch da advertisment den i thought sill kkz lah...den i watch da show 2dae...its da lamest show i eva watch lah...den i lie on da sofa..keep on laughin...den afta tt den i continue 2 watch sum serial drama...oso funni show...i canot live w/o tv...mus at least watch tv 1 time..if nt i will die de loh...im a couch potato..lolx..hopefulli cheryl gt bring da yamaha picc n lend mi..den i can prac da SYF oudoor pieces..hopefulli...i jus scard tt i brorow frm cheryl when she wanna prac..den i nva prac...den i like veri bad loh...haiix..
tuesdae cummin le...tt dae gt performance at da talents corner....den i duno if i playin solo...scarded manx...but solo oso wif clarinet solo..if i play..i jus folo da solo loh...haiix...

i stopped , Sunday, February 26, 2006 8:56 PM

haiix...yesterdae 4 band wi do marchin...cheryl ask mi play piccolo...lolx...actulalli im ok de...u ask mi 2 play flute or picc oso ok de...but i think playin da flute easier 2 pitch da note...da picc...can pitch is can lah...but harder 2 pitch..den mi job s a QM...lock da band rm...den mus wait 4 every1 2 go out..go marchin...i wait 4 every1 2 go out..even da sec 1s...i nt sure if da sec 1s cummin back 2 da rm anot cus i hear dey sae dey might ask da sec s 2 go 2 da rm 4 sections by themselves..i was like..wat if dey do sumthing wrong den hw...so nvm..since dey 1 it 2 b likdat...den i lock da door...den i go 2 da storerm...den i c cheryl dey all..jus came back frm i think chinese remidial or sumthing..den i waited 4 them..nid 2 lock da door...den io go back 2 da band rm..den i c all da sec 1s cum back..dey veri impaitient loh...i hav 2 unlock da door b4 dey cum in..den da gal keep on puul da handle..i 1 2 scold her de...alredi tell her dun pull le..still keep on pullin..omost sae vulgarities..bloodli loh..dun unlock hw u all cum in..?...irritatin...en dis yr da sec 1s all so noisy...like dun tok ppl will take them s mute likdat...pissed off manx..den i saw siti cummin back..dn i ask her wat happen..den she sae dey cum back 2 do sectionals on their own..lolx...den i ask her 2 take care of them den i dun lock da doors...since she is there...den cheryl dey all still there...wait 4 so long...lolx...den meizhen n jasline came back..den i ask them 2 take care of them...den i jus go le..i dun care le...but den i think dey hav break or sumthing..den i saw jane..i slack..i go 3rd lvl toilet wif her...cus 1st lvl washin..so slack manx..den when wi go downstairs..dey all go back band rm 2 take instrument.. den cheryl pass mi den cheryl pass mi da picc..den wi go sectionals...lolx...i mus gt used 2 da picc..still nt veri used 2 it yet...
after wi go 2 da parade square 4 marchin...play n march...aiyo...veri da luan sia...den wi marh w/o da intrument 2 make sure wi noe where wi standin n all tt lah..den wi gt break...i go back band rm n play mi flute..aiyo...i hav difficltli loh...but i dun care lah....
den 2dae...go 4 skool band prac...4 da chosen ppl tt nid 2 perform at da talents corner...but den i playin flute 4 tt lah...lucki still can play da flute arh...if nt reli die..den play till so shiok...den i borrow da picc 2 prac 4 SYF outdoor..i thnk wi participatin...cus wi r chiongin...concentratin more on da marchin n all tt...den da conductors 1 da sec 3s comitee 2 plan da march camp loh...stress manx...wi sure hav 2 put most of da time 4 marchin...i think da SYF outdoor is in april...OMG...i think plan nw is 2 late loh....lolx..but nvm...i think wi can stay alive...lolx...planin is a tough job...but at least u can choose when 2 da wat...likdat beta loh..i think..den like 4 da games or wateva...u can da game ic..den can slack loh...lolx..aiyah...wateva izzit...i will work hard arh...oso duno 4 wat...lolx...

i stopped , Saturday, February 25, 2006 9:50 PM

wat a dae manx....lolx...i study 4 mi physics n SS tez...SS i noe its tmr...but den da physics is 2dae de loh...den change 2 tmr....but aniway gd lah....i tt 1 last min study de...i fnd tt physics n chem veri borin..but mi chem...so far gt 2 tez le..i done quite well...i did nt sorta do it all by miself...i duno i ask ah zhen...lolx...i so cheat sia...
so fast...its wed...dam fast loh...i feel like im dreamin...lolx...i feel like slackin dis yr...but den dis yr sec 3 leh...cant afford it manx...den still gt band in mi life....nt 1 kkz...but 2 manx...lolx...i like so busy le..but still tryin 2 make miself more busy...so wierd...im a freak...lolx....sumhw..i think tt its ok lah...still can manage...
tmr is sorta da dae....da dae which cheryl decide hu 2 play da piccolo...wi nid 4 2 play 4 da speech dae...but den da 3 seniors confirm play da picc de...den 1 more person...so far i c d siyan, jane n mi gt try da picc...but yanny didnt...y arh...every1 mus b equal manx...lolx...but tt dae i think i act pro loh...i didnt 1 tt 2 happen manx...i was sorta high tt dae..i keep on playin wif jane n yanny...actualli its da whole flute section loh..wi keep on saein. 'nt 2dae..nt tmr....nt 4eva..' cus of jane...lolx...wi were quite high tt dae..which ws last fridae...partli cus of da marchin thingy...da numbers most wrong de loh...den wi keep on walkin wrong...lolx...but i think by tmr..i 4get de loh...lolx...hope i can rmbr loh...
2dae..i so dam slpy....its nt like every other dae loh...other daes..im oso slpy...but 2dae is dam dam slpy loh...oso duno y...lolx....den i duno wats gotten into mi manx....i yesterdae did mi piano h/w loh...i didnt noe i was so guai..lolx...i 2dae go there like nth 2 do likdat..den i wait 4 da cher 2 mark until i omost fall aslp...mi eyes like close de loh...but after she sae tt i go home n continue..den i jing shen qi lai....so wierd...funni manx...
recentli so mani ppl sick...duno wat happen sia...hope i duno gt sick...but mi ear still nt kkz yet cus i nt oways put da medicine..lolx..mus put regularli manx...if nt mi ear likdat quite sum time le...lolx...hope mi tez all turn out fine...lolx...

i stopped , Wednesday, February 22, 2006 7:09 PM

haiix...2dae so tired manx...gt chinese tez...i think its common tez or smth...but dis time round..da chinese tez canot study le...da nid 2 study part all taken out le...i think quite gd loh..if nt nid 2 study...but 4 mi....s usual...i do until slp....lolx...i oways do tt durin every tez..i think...its like so quiet n borin loh...but its a tez manx..wat 2 expect....lolx...
4 da tez i anihw do...i dun reli understand wat they tokin bout loh...den i read da passage until i c everything quite blur...i was reli tired...so..i decided 2 close mi eyes 4 awhile....but den i saw da cher lookin at mi..i think...so..i jus sit up n drink water..it onli helps 4 awhile...after tt i so slpy again loh...den after skool gt maths remedial...so sianx...ah pok giv da things nid 2 do i oso nva do..i jus sit there n tok 2 huixin dey all...lolx...denafetr tt gt POA 'remedial'....i so tired at tt time le loh....lolx..so i jus listen wat ms tang sae n ask mi 2 do..lolx...i like pig likdat...lolx..haha....

i stopped , Monday, February 20, 2006 7:00 PM

yesterdae go SSW wif brid n yanny....i think it was fun...but i veri da scard tt brid might b loneli...i n yanny in da same section...but brid in trumpet...haiix...brid gt tell mi b4 tt she will die if da ppl ard her r quiet...i so scard 4 her manx...summore hor...she sick sia...i reli scard manx...but in da end...she was quite ok...lolx...brid so funni...she sit on da chair...den her legs canot touch da floor...lolx...dam funni loh...but she dun1 2 tok 2 mi n yanny...so wi resort 2 da blink n dun blink thingy...lolx...2dae is da SSW aniversary....i 1 2 go manx...but in da end...i nva go...dey gt pot luck...den da flute section ppl r makin sandwich...i nva go is cus tt i duno where r dey meetin 2 make da food tgt...den if i go 2 da CC at 5.3o...den i veri paiseh tt i nva help them...den i jus go...paiseh manx...so i keep on tellin miself tt i nxt time den go...haixx...i so reli wanna go loh...but haiix...nxt time...i think...haixx...i 2dae nt tt happi...keep on gettin said 4 nth loh...pissed off manx...oso nt mi fault...i oso mani daes nva use da com le loh...u 1 blame dun blame mi lah...i oways gt said 4 nth...nt i do de oso gt said...wth....i feel tt im jus here 2 gt blamed...
i feel tt i sat nth 2 do...den oways at home watch tv....den gt scoldin...den i read bk....oso nt happi....gt scoldin...i join SSW 2 keep mi busy n 2 prevent 2 gt scoldin...i still gt said...wats wrong wif u ppl...u dun1 mi keep on watchin tv...den i dun...ask mi 2 keep on readin bks 2 improve mi eng...oso nt happi...wats wrong manx....i do wat im intersted in oso gt said...wat do u think i m...?...here 4 u 2 scold n sae when u r nt happi izzit....i oso human manx...spare a thought 4 mi lah...wtf...im nt a beanbag manx....haiix....

i stopped , Sunday, February 19, 2006 8:54 PM

y mus there b valentines dae...i veri envy those couple....but...i noe...it will nva happen 2 mi...nva..
i 2dae veri malu sia...nt onli ear pain...siao liao....y mus he giv mi a flower..?
i reli dun think i shld take it at first loh...i c he in da canteen giv hor....den da 2e (2oo5) most of them there....so i bo bian...jus take loh...i feel tt i sux manx....i feel tt i like playin wif him...i shld nt take it..argh...!!!
i reli feel like tellin him da truth...but iscard sia....c his face feel like runnin oway...hw..?help mi...
i nid help....arh...!!!!i stiill did smth worse...i gav da flower oway....i so black heart manx...haiix...i dun think i can face da fact...i cant face reality manx..help mi....lolx...i reli cant....

i stopped , Tuesday, February 14, 2006 9:56 PM

i stopped , 9:56 PM

haiix...valentine's dae is on tue....so fast manx...i think i hav 2 buy presents 4 ppl loh...lolx...nt onli valentine's dae gifts....oso b-dae presents...OMG....im gonna b broke 4 dis mth...argh...
haiix...i reli nt goin 2 SSW dis sat...i think veri carefulli le...i wish veri much 2 join them...but i hav 2 shop 4 valentine's dae gifts n b-dae prezziez....lolx...sux manx...nw even mi e-z link card oso bcum negative le...nva top up 4 dis mth yet..oso duno if gt $$ anot....haiix..sum1...save mi...i still hav 2 go ard 2 help mi bro find valentine's dae gifts 4 his friwends loh...i wanna go bugis gt mi stuff...den he ask mi 2 help hi buy...frm bugis go 2 J8 2 find his stuff...likdat will siao 1 loh...lolx...
woah...i veri da slpy....2dae band...i keep on runnin here n there gettin stuffs 4 ppl...den cum back still hav 2 teach sec 1s....tired sia...run w/o mi shoes...den mi socks soles black...summore...rainin...so nice 2 slp in such a weather loh...lolx...haiix...tts wat happen if u r part of da band commitee....mus pray hard tt tmr nelnel they all gt cum..if nt i 1 person canot do da job de...mus go jie sao bridget 2 b commitee manx..summore mus b QM...same s mi so tt she noe wat i suffer...every band prac...hope tmr oso rain...den like 2dae....sectionals...shld hav brought out da noah's arc scores earlier 2 prac...but oso duno if gt time 2 prac...i teach sec1s loh...so sianx...can slp while teachin them...1 of them quite gd...but da other ok nia....mus concentrate more on da weaker 1..but canot neglate da other 1....manx..i think i will b teachin them 4 a while..cus jane still learnin da marchin scores...OMG...speach dae cummin again...veri sian de...i think wi r nt sittin 2 play dis yr...wi will b marchin...argh...

i stopped , Thursday, February 09, 2006 10:09 PM

haiix...da daes passes so fast...lolx...so fast goin 2 thurs again....mani ppl b-dae cummin le...dis mth goin 2 broke le...haiix...lolx...2dae da chiwei wang cum da person hu 'tok 2 himself'...keep on disturbin mi..kick kick mi chair...feel like cuttin off his leg...lolx...
zhenling so gd manx...buy a bag 4 mi....but i take it s a valentine's present...lolx...but im thinkin of getin her a present 2...but i nt sure wat she 1...lolx...haiix...mi brain cells r dyin everytime i think of wat 2 but 4 her...lolx....
oOo manx....i think im in love............in love wif a piece called noah's arc....lolx....dam nice loh...its a piece of music which u listen soo mani times le still wont sian de loh...so dam nice...i gt da flute scores....SSW playin...tt time they giv mi da scores...dam nice...but lots of runnin notes...demi semi leh...fast sia...i culd nt catch up wif them....so i jus sorta anihw play...but those i noe i play lah...play niceli manx...but if SSW cheryl nt goin den i 1 person play 1st flute....hw can..i cant make it by miself alone...no way manx...i still nt familiar wif da scores yet....hw i wish i culd hav da tome 2 prac tt scores at home...but i jus dun hav da time...i thurs gt band...practicin 4 speach dae...canot play there...den at home gt things 2 do like h/w n all da shit...lolx...i reli dun wish 2 pull SW down loh..jus bcus of 1 person...tt is mi...haiix..i mus reli find time 2 prac manx...jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! n all da best 2 those ppl hu r gettin their O lvl results on fridae...!!

i stopped , Wednesday, February 08, 2006 9:23 PM

haiix...2dae so sian... gt scoldin by ah pok...haiix...so slpy loh...still gt chem lessons...in da mornin c lim chin huat face le...still gt 2 c him at da last 2 lessons...woah...he make mi do wat thing arh...mus check wif every1 tt their particulars rite...woah....if wrong still mus mi change 4 them...so ma fan loh...den oso no space...den jus nice tt dae mr jali giv duno wat thingy 4 cca de...still mus check wif every1...1 by 1...make mi go ard...i tired like hell manx..still gt some hav nt ask yet...haiix...wo de ming zhen ku....haiix..sobbx...lolx...
haiix...da back few guys hav nt ask yet...canot ask loh..in between lessons when da teacher go off...i go ard n ask....onli gt 2 do bout 2 onli...den da cher cum liao...do until veri qi kek loh...haiix...den i keep on walkin here n there...tired sia...haiix..
tmr gt ida lesson...so sian loh...but quite ok lah..onli gt 1 lesson....so suay loh...i veri gulity...i oways thinkin..hw cum i so idiot..choose lit...dun1 POA....y arh...?? i oso duno loh..

i stopped , Monday, February 06, 2006 9:27 PM

haiix...after 1 nite of thinkin y da conductor sae i expressionless...i finali noe y...they were laughin at wat they played wrongli...i duno y they laugh...i dun think its so funni loh....i thought of it 4 1 nite...finali gt it...lolx....i didn noe i was such a slow thinker....haiix...
i still nt sure if i shld continue 2 go...but i mus rmbr 2 bring jacket...dam cold....make mi 2dae suffer...keep on sneezin....den oso nose block....haiix....if dis were 2 happen on da 28 feb..den i dun mind...i still dun y they 1 mi 2 perform on talents corner loh...n wif cheryl...such a PRO...mi...such a NOOB...i scard i pull her down...haiix...so mani probs loh...i think i jus hav 2 pull up mi scoks..so chim sia...hardli...
i think i will continue da SSW...muz learn more frm da PROS....haiix...but i mus pull ppl go wif mi...n let da conductor c mi expressionless again....hehehe...no lah...i jus felt scard....cus if he aim at da flute..den i sure 1st 2 die...i still nt farmiliar wif da scores...haiix...wat 2 do ne....??jus cant take it animore le...lolx...
2dae..suffered alot...mi nose blocked..but instead of feelin cold...i feel dam warm...canot sae hot...lata ppl will think wai...lolx....i dun feel like goin w/o mi bro...at least he there...haiix...
i reli didn expect tt ppl there will b so chatty....friendli...n wierd...lolx....make mi feel veri wierd loh...haiix...i think i mus reli pull ppl 2 go wif mi...i dun care...i kinda enjoy it lah...quite fun 2 mi...i think i sorta enjoy music....but when i c mi piano...argh....i jus dun feel like placticin....jus duno y....haiix...tmr gonna show huixin n yanming da SSW scores...i veri d sure tt they c le sure go siao...cus i 1st time c oso lidat...it took mi lots of coursge 2 reli go loh...i saw mi bro's conductor's score...den quite...sorta shocked...i tell mi bro tt i jus try out loh...duno oso jus anihw play...cus i in skool band nt reli serious de....normali playin wif yanming de....lolx..hahaha...

i stopped , Sunday, February 05, 2006 9:46 PM

woah...i reli went SSW....i dun believe it manx...da place there dam cold sia...keep on shieverin...haiix...lots of ppl oso duno tt im mi bro's sis...lolx...den they keep on askin...nt sae tt its irritating..but its juz wierd 2 mi....lolx...sum ppl oso dun believe loh...haixx...i dun look lke mi bro...sadded manx...
i go there veri scard sia..i c they all so PRO loh...i sit there like idiot lidat...tryin 2 sight read n play...but the notes most of them cram up...den oso da speed fast...a NOOB like mi...i dun think will succed...but i still try mi best...den when da band nt yet start...i dun dare 2 play...they all sit there tryin...playin...i think tt i so pathetic loh...i sit there keep on lookin at mi scores...i dun dare 2 play...i so LAN loh...compared 2 them i like shit loh..muz improve 2 keep up wif them manx...mi bro oso tell mi tt his conductor sae tt i no expression manx...i gt loh...scard lah...den da conductor sae he scard cus i no expression...i gt loh...i veri da scard arh...play wrong i sabo them hav 2 play again loh...
i dun if i shld go nxt wk...mi bro nt goin...den if no1 goin wif mi i will siao 1 loh...i c da scores i like 1 2 die...although duno hw 2 play...but i stil tried mi best 2 folo...but i gt play da slow parts...i cant sight read well...i c all da notes lidat i 1 2 die...i veri da scard sia...i think da ppl there quite friendli...but they lidat i scard sia....i think i shall remain expressionless...i rather b an idiot...dan 2 show tt im dam dam scard...but da duno wat name...frm oboe sect de...dam dam friendli...
haiix...i mus try 2 face da fact...realiti...haiix...wat a world manx...i think i hav 2 find da courage 2 go...n i nid 2 learn hw 2 heard if sharp or flat...

i stopped , Saturday, February 04, 2006 9:37 PM

woah...i reli went SSW....i dun believe it manx...da place there dam cold sia...keep on shieverin...haiix...lots of ppl oso duno tt im mi bro's sis...lolx...den they keep on askin...nt sae tt its irritating..but its juz wierd 2 mi....lolx...sum ppl oso dun believe loh...haixx...i dun look lke mi bro...sadded manx...
i go there veri scard sia..i c they all so PRO loh...i sit there like idiot lidat...tryin 2 sight read n play...but the notes most of them cram up...den oso da speed fast...a NOOB like mi...i dun think will succed...but i still try mi best...den when da band nt yet start...i dun dare 2 play...they all sit there tryin...playin...i think tt i so pathetic loh...i sit there keep on lookin at mi scores...i dun dare 2 play...i so lan...muz improve 2 keep up wif them manx...mi bro oso tell mi tt his conductor sae tt i no expression manx...i gt loh...scard lah...den da conductor sae he scard cus i no expression...i gt loh...i veri da scard arh...play wrong i sabo them hav 2 play again loh...
i dun if i shld go nxt wk...mi bro nt goin...den if no1 goin wif mi i will siao 1 loh...i c da scores i like 1 2 die...although duno hw 2 play...but i stil tried mi best 2 folo...but i gt play da slow parts...i cant sight read well...i c all da notes lidat i 1 2 die...i veri da scard sia...i think da ppl there quite friendli...but they lidat i scard sia....i think i shall remain expressionless...i rather b an idiot...dan 2 show tt im dam dam scard...but da duno wat name...frm oboe sect de...dam dam friendli...
haiix...i mus try 2 face da fact...realiti...haiix...wat a world manx...i think i hav 2 find da courage 2 go...n i nid 2 learn hw 2 heard if sharp or flat...

i stopped , 9:37 PM

haiix...2dae band so tiring manx...i think oso gt bit of sunburn... haiix...i wanna go SSW....but no1 wanna go wif mi...mi so ke lian...haiix...so slpy...juz dun feel like doin anithing...juz slp n slp n slp...haha..lolx...2dae hav so mani things happen...dun feel like tokin bout it...haiix...

i stopped , Friday, February 03, 2006 9:11 PM

bloody piece of shit...lit teacher veri big meh..can oways anihw scold ppl...if lit can study urself..den y nid teacher2 teach 4 wat...?y do wi nid 2 go 2 skool..?ppl prepare n b4 goin 2 present...den u anihw call their prsentation shit n crap...if wi so gd den wi cum skool study 4 wat...?y nid u 2 cum n teach us 4..?oso no1 ask u cum n teach us...u think u veri gd meh...bimbo...cum in da class onli scold le...pissed off loh..everitime lidat...veri unreasonable loh...mood swing freak...bloody hell...muz faster change 2 POA manx..

i stopped , Wednesday, February 01, 2006 6:10 PM