woots!
i woke up half-an-hour late today! oh my goodness! then i was rushing all the way lah! saw a px band member in the train. we both stunt. haha! i think they got practice today, cus she was in band t-shirt. LOL. but i was not late for school! i reached at 0858hrs! if i were to be later by a few minutes, i would be marked as late and minus of 0.5 marks! heng sia!
cognitive today. i thought it would be the usual boring and brain cell killer again, but it was not! surprising. can see that andrea is trying to be more kind and smile more so the class would not become so moody. she is trying her best, so bear with her alright? lol. topic was quite easy today, all linked to the previous weeks topics. but the tough thing is that we only have 4 slides to throw in everything! what the hell! but team 4 managed to do it though. ha! the fish and chips at haven is great! aiseh! nice sia! i felt that i participated quite alot today. my friends make me read out the worksheet answers. then i think during 6P/ after 6P when andrea is still talking, viki's team suddenly got scream sound and everyone in the team kena shocked. some kuku thingy. and viki still ask me to go. (im not that dumb to scare myself!). then after andrea left, farhad was being such a kuku! he projected in the screen and plucked in his earphones to the max! end up he also got a shock! stupid sia! then syu and i headed for sectionals! she did something real damn freaking funny and embarrassing! but i was threatened not to blog about it(you all are missing out in the fun not knowing~). syu was damn lame just now during and after sectionals! life can never get boring with her around! then headed home. hirda and gang was super high in the train. damn fun and funny! and now then i now that zoe is a black belt in something! oh my goodness! unexpected!
im like SO happy lah! tomorrow no piano lesson cus its 5th week! im sure syu would be jealous! but im having a date with her tomorrow! haha! its shopping time~ and i cant wait for sunday! challenge your limit 2! my mum dont allow me to have water games on sunday lah! so sadded! tsk tsk tsk...
i stopped , Friday, May 30, 2008 11:09 PM
i have a senior who knows darling Loke K.K?! amazing and cool can! okie. im just being random here. fine.
culture and asthetics today. things were quite okie, just that i was down with flu due to not enough sleep! have been sleeping at around 1+am for around 2 weeks. it was maddness! and i was quite pissed with certain things. oh well.. oh yah! my friends and i kena caught TWICE by the damn security for eating in class. damn lame lah. its not like we will mess up the whole place right? lol. then met up with syu and shahreen. we both like to tease syu! then syu and i went to meet ziha then band. warm up was interesting. we went outside the room and sang gloriosa, while there's some percussionists from YCKSB came to tune the timpani. LOL. but of cus i was not singing. wahahahahaha! then went back i for practice. luckily zoe came or i will be dead. then shirley done up the parts we have to play for the first flute parts. oh my! so difficult lah! i could not catch up. then i anyhow already. haha! and i saw him again! woohoo! but he left with his friends after awhile. *aawww...* from brid claims that its fate, that is her crap point of view lah. LOL. okie. band ended early then went for dinner at causeway point. then trained home. mum picked bro and i from the mrt station. and i am thinking of working cus i wanna buy things. my bro wants to introduce me to work at botak jones cus he's working there, but i just cannot find time to work.
NORMAL SCHOOLING DAYS
monday: school
tuesday: school, band practice
wednesday: school, meet up with friends?
thursday: school, band practice
firday: school, sectionals after school
saturday: monrning - piano lesson; evening - yuying alumni band practice
sunday: rest day
see? my schedule is all filled. and it seemed to be mostly covered by band, band and band. cool eh? but do NOT take me as some band freak, cus im not. oh my goodness me. i feel so busy all of a sudden. i have loads of things in mind that i want and need to do, but i just cannot find the time to do so. and i AM lazy too. ha! and now you know when you u can date me eh!
oh yah! i am going to sentosa for some "challenge your limit 2". wahahaha! elle "invited" me. since leeting they all going too, why should have any excuse to not go with them? i shall challenge my own limit. but i hope for no high elements. i hate it! cant wait man! woohoo! hope i will get "fried" by the hot sun! that is what i want and looking forward to! oh! since its sentosa, i might be able to catch a glimps of hunks! yeah! lol.
i want to rant! i feel i got loads of things to say. would anyone be kind enough to listen to all my crap?
i stopped , 12:01 AM
im blogging with a block nose in class.. im SO tired. i need my sleep. how am i going to survive for band later man... i hate flu during band days.. argh!
SCREWED UP! (have no idea why i keep saying this 2 words nowadays)
anyway, wanna blog about yesterday. didnt have time to blog last night. woots! lesson was okie. computing and maths. probability! oh my god! we used the tree diagram to answer the questions instead of using the a maths formula(binomia theory or however you spell that). it was a killer drawing out the whole tree diagram man. tiring. and i feel like going for band practice all of a sudden! then after school, syu came to my class to pick me! wahaha! then hang out with SYU and ZIHA! wahahaha! we went to the library. supposed to be studying for today's UT, but in we did our work and slacked! wahaha! then trained home. and dinner then RJ-ed. i was burnt out yesterday and i have no idea why too. just feeling very tired. then i did my RJ while watching tv until i fell asleep. lol. then suddenly i heard "you are my sunshine, my only sunshine........[my childhood song]" (my was phone ringing). it woke me up! wasnt expecting to get any calls. so i crapped on the phone for about 1 hour. i was complaining, crapping, laughing and whatever you can think of. the conversation was sort of lame. then went to bed.
i see people having holiday(primary and secondary students), i also want seh.. mine is starts only next week and only for two weeks! im bored in school seeing bad grades everyday. argh! i was asked to go down to px cus they have practice today i think(free/child labour! tsk tsk tsk.). but sadded. i have school and band practice. so cannot make it. i miss them though.. awwww~ sadded.
i miss yuying's no-life kind of studying.
i miss yuying concert band.
i miss px kidos.
i miss my little aunties and uncles.
i miss my kuku friends.
i miss... i miss....
everything that i miss.
i stopped , Thursday, May 29, 2008 11:31 AM
science today! oh my goodness me. i thought i would not be grouping with jj anymore for science, but he is still in my group! lol. then he left during first break, so nicole and jeban came over to our group cus fadhli left too. today's problem was maddness. my brain was finally functioning after 8 weeks and i was prepared to chiong! but the problem was difficult that i decided to give up. ha! our slides were mostly koped from other people's slides. and the kuku faci keep probing us. we were already trying our best to explain. irritating!
then after school, syu and shahreen came to my class. those people who have not left the class were mad! keep on disturbing me. argh! then syu and i headed TRCC for band. wooh! when band have not started and i think mr yusri was waiting for the whole band to settle down, everyone was doing warm ups including me. i did not dare to play cus mr yusri was beside me. oh my goodness me. then he suddenly asked me to play as loud as i can. i was quite scared, so my sound was not very good. then mr yusri was asking me if i think my sound sounds tight. oh my god! then we did warm ups(scales) with ACM. then we sight read les miserable, ACM conducted. shirley put sandy, syu and i to play first, but sandy came late so syu and i were alone! total maddness. its natural for someone to play softer when not sure right? halfway during the piece, mr yusri was like "vanessa, play louder.", so pai seh lah! summore i was sitting corner and he was somewhere near me beside the ACM. he also asked syu to play louder. total pai seh-ness! argh! then we practiced gloriosa. i was the only 2nd flautist excluding the picc player. i was lost for 1 part. now cannot slack already.. shirley wants us to play some of the 1st flutes parts when we have nothing to play. oh my goodness me! no more slacking time.. ooowww.. then after band, went back home for dinner.
oh yah! its a fact that flautists are mad people from what i observed! yuying like that, RPWS also like that! cool eh?
i stopped , Tuesday, May 27, 2008 11:46 PM
i was happy yet pissed yet sad.
happy.
i had mc griddles for lunch! supposed to be for breakfast, but mc delivery was dam freaking slow and long. i was starving lah. it was okie cus i was not that hot anymore. and i had coke. omg. luckily i had it for lunch or the toilet would be mine.
pissed.
my group today. team 4. oh my goodness me. okie. jj's action is funny at times, but there are limits to things. especially when we are doing the powerpoint slides. thanks to him, my lappy hanged and could not "move" for quite sometime until i asked for help from neelam and decided to restart it. he and his itchy hands. i think i will need to change a new lappy within the 3 years of poly life man. he is freaking violent to my lappy lah. its not like my lappy is not as important and worthless as your lapy rite? that time he poked my screen freaking hard. today, he keep pulling and putting the plug for charger (in the gross version: in, out, in, out) until the whole thing hanged. i was seriously very pissed lah. but i have not shown my anger in class before. so i had to pretend as usual. irritated. he kept playing CS and crazy taxi lah. if you play during breaks, for all i care, but during time when we have to do PDT and worksheet. i now feel RP is a retarded school man. the facis claim that they grade according blah blah blah including contributions to the group discussion. i do all the PDT alone before the new team mates came in and i know i did not do very well for presentation. and im sure i will get a "C" or "D". facis are just blind lah. fuck sia.
sad.
my uncle's body is being cremated this morning. i wanted to go see him for the late time, but got school and there's no way my mum would allow me to skip school. i was hoping to skip school and go down to see him for the last time and cus i have never seen a cremating session before so im curious. and also wanting to see him for the very last time. sadded, i have to "die" in school.
i was somewhat quiet in school today. even elle asked me why am i so quiet. lol. i was super tired cus i slept very late last night including all the mixed emotions. i was pissed with my lappy for giving me problems too. im so sorry. will try to hype up asap.
i stopped , Monday, May 26, 2008 10:14 PM
im in the worse mood i can ever be now.
the very first thing i did after i came into class was stare and diao the fucking faci. im hating his lessons nowadays thanks to the "F" he gave me. what the fuck. im really showing him my attitude. he got problem come find me lah.
i looked at my grade. fuck. i got a "C" for computing & maths and "D" for science. my very first "D". lol. their reason was cus i was quiet and never speak much during presentations and group work. okie. i admit that i was quiet, but if people wanna kop my slides and don't let me speak, what can i do? go over and slap thier faces and take over? this is total crap-ness. RP seem slack in their studies, but its quite a killer during lesson time with all the reseach and presentations needed every single day. i need a breather. like now.
what's wrong with me? my brain is moving at a very slow rate. im seriously slacking like nobody's business every since school started. i really need to wake up and start working hard already. RP people, you guys should know how important are UTs. and can you believe it that i didnt study for any of the first UTs? none at all. someone please wake me up. im feeling all hopless.
i stopped , 11:47 AM
just came back from the wake. went through with the prayer things. the chants were in teochew, so not wanting to ruin the chantings i just shut up and do what im supposed to do. 3 hours of prayers and chantings. everything was did out of respect, so im not complaining. today's prayer was freaking sad. i think most of us were in tears, including me. just could not hold it lah. although im not very close with him, but afterall he is my (late) uncle. if its hard for me, it would be worse for my cousin and auntie. haix.... supposed to stay there till night for the night prayers, but tomorrow got school so my parents decided not to let us stay.
yesterday. woke up early to go for piano lesson. ended up im still late for class. lol. im like going there for extra extra lessons every time. my lesson is supposed to be only 1 hour, but i stayed there for 3 hours. they seemed to be giving me extra lessons for free. but in the 3 hours, kelis and i spent more time talking than practicing. she was super hyper. after lesson, went back home palnning to watch tv, but i ended up sleeping. then went to the wake. my whole family was involved in the prayer and chanting things. the prayer and chanting lasted for about an hour and a half. stayed there until 12am then headed back home. supposed to have alumni band practice in the night, but all thanks to micheal sim we cannot have our practice cus of the key problem. idiot ass. "eat snake" and leave early for hoilday.
*thanks so much for the care and concern. im fine. love you all. =)
i feel cheated. the holiday was supposed to be three weeks and now they changed it to two weeks. crap man. now i cannot stay for the camp at yuying. i cannot even make it for their investiture. what the crap man. to make things worse, there's band practice after school, so i cannot make it to see them. might rush over after school on monday or even pon. see how things goes.
*to my dearest flute section, please keep your second week of june free. flute section outing yah? we go zoo! but i have not decide which day yet. will keep you posted. please spread this message around. thanks! love u people!
i stopped , Sunday, May 25, 2008 7:28 PM
im.... tired and freaking sad. devastated.
was woken up earlier than usual this morning cus of some reason. whoever who read this post before i edited it, you know what happened. but i decided to remove it. shall keep it to myself unless you wanna know or something, then i will consider about saying or not. haix.. life still have to go on.....
i was keeping myself occupied so i wont think about it. the plan of mine was quite successful until after our team finished presenting. then i started to think again. omg. thank god i had band practice after school to occupy me. i wanna aplogise to syu and huda for being "emo" to you all ever since band practice started. wasnt in the mood for anything, that's why i was thinking of going home after band practice just now. after band practice, dinnered at LJS with the band members. they were super high. then trained home with some of them. thanks for entertaining me cus i was really super quiet.
i was crying when i was walking back home. it just came back into my mind. omg. i just could not take it anymore..
i could take it no more.
i tried to hide the pain and show the smile.
i tried very hard.
im so sorry that they were some sort fake.
i was really not myself today.
sorry for everything.
i stopped , Thursday, May 22, 2008 2:42 PM
*one litre of tears* i spent my weekends and vesak day watching it online. was recommended by kelis. oh my goodness me! damn touching. must watch then you understand what i mean. argh! and the best of all is that.... there are good looking gals and guys! started watching from saturday, until now still have not watch finish! but left last 2 episodes! if have time, will chiong tonight after school. omg. very nice!
vesak day(mon)!
went out with big bro to town to shop for his things. ended up he bought a bag only. lol. and i bought a wallet! woohoo! then went back home and continued one litre of tears. i think i
tues.
got back enterprise grade for last fri. wtf! i really got a F. its freaking unfair lah! cus * gotten a B for it when * left lah! WTF! and i did most of the things during meeting 1 & 2 leh. idiot sia.. i thought he was a nice faci and felt bad leaving, but now i think i will pon his lesson more often. ass. nevermind. to hell with him. then science was boring. totally boring. and my brain was not working cus of my mum! she came into my room saying " wake up already! today got UT!" then i was like omg! so i rushed out of bed and to school. ended up its today! wth! i was damn tired lah! then after school got band prctice. practiced gloriosa movement 1. then sight read emblems, some marching piece. omg. was put to play 1st flute with syu and ziqi. alamak! i intend to stay in 2nd for the time in RPWS can! omg. it was tough at first. but i was listening to shirley's playing, so i just follow loh. lol. killer man! then went causeway point with syu and friends to mac to buy food home. they all damn funny man! they were so hyper. haha! then went back home. continued to watch one litre of tears. wahahaha!
i stopped , Wednesday, May 21, 2008 1:51 PM
okie! i was wanting to fall sick so i can leave class early for the alumni band meeting at yuying. and in the end i really kena flu, but cus of not enough sleep. LOL. but in the end still left during lunch time. i think my whole class knows that im leaving early, so they keep asking me why i have not leave yet. lol. then left at around 1330hours. my bro's friend saw me, but i just act as if i never see her. omg. & just nice seh. reach yuying on time! was happy to meet my aunties and uncles once again! woohoo! but the feeling is not there anymore.. i felt awkward. i somehow just cannot feel the hyper feeling anymore. so i also sian diao. then went to staff lounge to work on the proposal stuff. crap. then went back to band room and played with the band. king across the water, its a small world and peter and the wolf. omg. i cannot believe it man.. my sight reading seriously SUCKS. i could not sight read that fast anymore. could not even catch up with them lah. so saddening. then sort of practiced gloriosa during the break. i was supposed to do the inventory stuff for the flute section, so i asked jane to help me while i ask mf on how to play gloriosa. okie, both are talking at the same time so i didnt know who to listen to. lol. so i listened to jane 1st. ha! then i had to "consult" mf again. he sang the tune to me, but i still dont know how to play. crap. why did 老爹 go overseas sia.. lol. then went KFC for dinner with them then headed to plaza s'pura with them. we were crapping! that's than the spirit man! haha! then headed home. waited freaking long for 86 to arrive. argh!
tomorrow have piano lesson in the morning. omg. freak. i have not touched the piano in my house for like a year? and im still thinking of taking flute grade? what the crap man. i dont want to have to give up music cus i dont have the time to practice and all that crap. disappointed in myself. haix..
i stopped , Friday, May 16, 2008 11:48 PM
i was not in a very good mood today, even until now. i think cus im super tired. im deprived of sleep! many hours of sleep.
firstly i was woken up super early cus i have to take bus to yio chu kang mrt station and train to woodlands. omg. then i was super early lah!
second was UT. computing and maths. omg. i anyhow pong cus didnt have the mood to do and i practically have no idea how to do the programming stuff. oh my goodness me! i think i will fail it. ha!
third was my thumbdrive. i was seriously pissed. or maybe i should not blame anyone. i dont know what have those people been doing with my thumbdrive. kena trojen(however it is spelt). wtf lah! so those people who used it will kena the virus too. im so sorry. but my bro say that its usual for RP students. lol. whatever~ now i have to go to IT help-desk for a 3 hour scan and then reformade. pissed sia. but thanks to simin for informing me and fadhli for informing simin. ha.
foruth is some other things which should not be said here.
fifth is when im doing my RJ. idiot sia. my bro is an ass! he totally suck man! i asked him for help about the virus thingy. damn it! if i know, i would not need to ask right? f*** up seh. then ask my mum about the RJ question as i didnt understand. then my bro kaypo and asked me to reseach on my own. WTF! i was not asking him lah!
to hell with the irritating things. must only remember the good stuff! yepp. W14H ordered pizza for lunch today!! we ate in class! wahahaha! jealous? lol. but i dont like the serivce of that pizza shop. irritated. then went to one-stop centre to pick it up with leeting~ then feast in class! woohoo!
then after school went for the welcome tea thingy. it was okie lah......... i was in group 2 and same group as my bro's friend, vanessa! lol. i could not remember her though.. then there was goldie(not sure how to spell), my bro's friend too, asking me if i rmember her. lol. then another came, but only told me that she was my bro's friend. dont feel like elaborating already. then train-ed home and here i am.
to be continue...............
toodles~
i stopped , Thursday, May 15, 2008 10:49 PM
woohoo~ i was half dead today. totally burnt out. and to make things worse, i didnt have enough sleep!
today's lesson was boring. or maybe cus i was feeling super burnt out cus of yesterday's band practice. next time then crap about yesterday's practice. MATHS! omg. probability. i sort of used to like it, but i forgot how to do simple maths after not touching maths for so long. simple maths cannot make it, do you think i can make it for tougher things? lol. but i tried my best. and the kuku viki did everything as usual although i was the scribe. ha! team 5 is evil! cus im used to leaving my wallet and phone on the table after the first breakout. so i left it there the whole time. then when i went toilet duing the second meeting, they ganged up and hide my phone! okie. i admit that i didnt noticed it at first until i wanted to message siyan. then the people i suspected was viki, nicholas, jeban and jj! i didnt suspect nicole cus she dont disturb me. then they say its jj and he went to the library with his team! omg. so i was waiting for lunch break to end so i could get my phone back! at that time, i was somehow connected to jj (like couple that type). what sia.. those people in the class were bullying me lah! then keep drawing on the board putting my name and jj's name together with hearts and all that. and now even ms mei lan also thinks like them. omg. after that viki suddenly returned me my phone! then they told me that they ganged up. argh!
just to clarify some stuff here.
to everyone: jj and i are not your so called "ai mei". we are just friends. so please dont misunderstand.
to team 5: i was seriously not emo-ing just now cus of my "missing" phone and even after i got it back. i was just super tired due to yesterday's IG. sorry to give you all the "sian" attitude.
tomorrow got RPWS welcome tea thingy. have to wear black cus their theme is black? lol.
i stopped , Wednesday, May 14, 2008 10:39 PM
im blogging now cus later might not have the time to blog due to band practice later! and still have to go home and rush RJ.
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right person to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
i kop-ed this from shi min's blog. i think she kop-ed it from yi mei's blog.(tsk tsk tsk... kop here and there..) haha.
nice eh? some encouragement to girls, and myself. ha! BUT! im a human, not an apple! LOL. but its very nice. sort of made my day cus im totally bored in class. UT was a mood spoiler today. SCIENCE. i so hate that subject. there were that few questions which i anyhow pong. haha! i dont think i learnt anything for science, cus i seem to be always failing the quiz(lucky its not counted!) ms fi wasnt here today. thanks god the relief faci is good and the problem statement is quite easy. once again, my brain is not functioning. but cus later got band practice. ha! im all nervous and excited about it~
dam it! i wonder who likes to bully me in class. i left my phone and wallet on the table. cus of my wallet is big enough for me to notice if its missing. BUT MY PHONE! there's a few culprits though. ha! kuku!
yepp. and friday i going on with the plan on pretending to be sick so i can leave early to reach yuying on time for the meeting. i need about 1hour from woodlands okie. its freaking far! but i think it would be super worth it cus the alumni band is finally setting up and i can get to meet my lil aunties and uncles after SO long! haha!
tata~
i stopped , Tuesday, May 13, 2008 1:52 PM
im overjoyed!! weepeee!
okie. my day was spoilt by someone at first and even now, but i choose to rmember the happy ones! ha! i hate people commanding me to do something like im you dog okie! the fact is that im not, thats why i didnt help you! could you even say please? ass sia!
anw. hack it!
happy things! first cus the alumni band thingy is finally settled! we just have to talk to the principal and school alumni about plans! wahahaha! FINALLY! so the commitee is meeting up on fri at 1445hrs? so i have to ask for early leave with some crappy reasons. hopefully kumar would allow me to leave during lunch. but i will do the ppt with my team before leaving, so wont leave them in lurch! FRIDAY!! so it means that i cannot have movie with my classmates.. haix!
second, my dear dear that the price of the brand of the flute i want to buy is dropping. wahahaha! but im still in the mist of saving seh.. haha! whatever it is, im super happy today!
school was boring. hate science man. i tried to push myself to study today, but cus of jj i cannot get into that mood! argh! next time i must sit far away from him. ha! jj was very crappy today. then went to haven during the first break with W14H people. thn went back to class. my brain was seriously not functioning today. could not get it to start. viki did the most lah! during lunch break, went to hell to buy bubble tea and food for others. thanks for accompanying me! then slacked in class as usual. presentation also anyhow pong. see how bad i am now? ha! then lili called me during lesson time when other teams are presenting! shocked sia. didnt want to answer, but jj say just answer. lol. so i answer loh. then the good news about the alumni band thingy made me high! called lili after lesson and viki and jess were disturbing me lah! keep saying what boyfriend on the line. LOL! after school, accompanied nicholas in school. (im a good friend okie!) he slack sia! got muaythai, but waiting for them to finish their run around the estate. crapped with him then left for home.
tomorrow have UT! omg. science summore! what the hell. then after school have band practice. woohoo~ hope i remain in the flute section. *fingers crossed*
im loving people who made my day today! thanks so much! hoping that tomorrow would be the same. and i feel so busy all of a sudden..
im feeling bad for everything..
i hate this feeling..
im sorry.
i stopped , Monday, May 12, 2008 9:08 PM
what the hell lah!!
this is total crap lah! what kind of scandal is this man. before daphne left, dont know why she suddenly say "i think you 2 will be together", looking at jj and i. wth! then elle and jess started to say too! idiot sia.. that will never happen okie.. he's not my cup of tea! WE ARE JUST FRIENDS! omg. they just dont know me well.. im the type of person who can crap hell load, so dont misunderstand please! tsk tsk tsk! people nowadays arh... like to jump into conclusion without getting their facts right... tsk tsk tsk.....*shaking head*
totally F.O.N!
i stopped , 1:57 PM
why are weekend just so short? i have not rest enough~
im feeling so bored. its been some time since i slept at 0230hrs? haha! was watching this sort of horror show on channel 8 last night. i think its more sad than scary lah. so i got bored and chatted with people online and didnt pay attention to the show. i was a good girl! i read until i fell asleep. ha! then woke up at 1230hrs. lunched at grandparents place at amk then headed home. im back to my couch potato job again~ lied on the sofa and watched tv. then headed to grandma's place at cck for dinner. good food for dinner! but sinful! omg. i ate alot! i think im so not going to eat fried food for the next week~ haha!
okie. dont know why on the way to my grandma's place, my dad suddenly talked about work. so he was saying that teaching tuition would be able to earn "fast money". and cus my bro is teaching tuition so he was like "yah.. i know." so i was deep into thoughts.. lol. cus im in need of money noe cus i want to buy a flute! so i was thinking if i could teach tuition? but the thing is i cannot think of any subjects that i can teach! my best subject is chinese, but i anyhow pong one lah. so i was thinking of primary one! lol. but i was thinking better not, cus i will only make the student fail. haha! hmm.. now that i have a place in band, i cannot find a job! argh! please recommend me job which pays people to slack! thanks! lol.
im missing my little aunties and uncles loads! might go back on friday, depending if im free or not. might have to pack up and leave immediately when kumar say "class is dismissed"! praying hard that class would end early on friday! cus thursday cannot go back, got RPWS practice.
the weather's getting warm once again. omg. i was still intending to keep my hair long. argh! keeping long hair would make one look thinner, while short hair would make one look more fat! but short hair is more cooling and easier to maintain! omg. please give me suggestions to if i should get my hair cut or keep it and let it grow long. thanks!
oh man! tomorrow's module is science.. omg. torture again. im sure that guy would sure aim me again! dam that faci! he's a pain in an ass. ha!
toodles~
i stopped , Sunday, May 11, 2008 10:30 PM
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!! =]
i stopped , 1:04 AM
its saturday! and i spent it so not meaningfully. spent half of the day sleeping. argh! was feeling too tired already. trying to catch up with the hours of sleep i lost during weekdays.. every weekend seem to be like this. super no life. even kelis says so..
morning went for piano lesson. crapped with kelis as usual. and my sight reading today is freaking bad! oh my god. im not sure if its cus i have not fully wake up or what, but i cannot even read treble clef. i had to rely on kelis to tell me the notes. if this is going to carry on, i wonder how am i going to pass my exam and carry on for band practices? argh! but the good thing is today's weather is great! we should have gone to sentosa man.. ha. saturdays always reminds me of yuying concert band. those saturday practices with crappy juniors. how i wish the weather would remain like that...
then went back home and sleep from 12+ to ar 4+pm? then went to grandma's place for dinner to sort of celebrate mother's day. and weekends can be boring nowadays. there are nothing good to watch on tv. so im bored!
oh yah. im seriously very grateful to those who have encouraged me and cheered me up that time! thanks so much! appreciated it loads!
my dears who answered my crap and cheered me up online although they are having exams.
mf for replying to my crap messages and complains.
my besties who were always there for me.
and whoever who i left out.
thanks a million people!
i love you all! =)
my besties who were always there for me.
and whoever who i left out.
thanks a million people!
i love you all! =)
i stopped , Saturday, May 10, 2008 10:49 PM
wooh! just updated the band's blog. im jealous can! their exams are over and mine? omg. dont even wanna talk about exams man.. im missing secondary school life!
slept at 1+am yesterday and didnt have a good sleep. keep waking up for nothing. what the hell lah. lol. then went to school as usual. enterprise, so teamed with jeban, jj and xin juan. i was going bonkers thanks to jeban and jj. then went to haven for first breakout with friends. headed back to class to continue with lesson. and i fell asleep during lesson for 5mins? was super tired and lesson was boring. lunch time, stayed in class to do ppt with team 4! total crapness. i was seriously turning mad. during presentation, team 4 was the last. and i pity poor mr kumar. i didnt upload the lastest ppt of ours. we kept changing it while other teams were presenting. so he had to look up all the way instead of looking at his laptop. wahaha! at least i know he's paying attention! lol. then after school, stayed in class to finish RJ, quiz and evaluation. then went off with jj, oscar, hazel and leeting. dam funny on the way to the mrt. the kuku oscar and jj were having fun sayin "aiseh" to me. lol. so evil lah! keep laughing at me.. headed home. syu asked me to check my mail. woots! i got into RPWS. cannot believe it man! i screwed the audition and interview yet i got in instead of hafiiz?! omg.
im tired. very tired. extremely tired. lol. and now that the 3 of us cannot get into RPWS together, im feel even worse. haix..
my dear friend,
we will always be here for you.
talk to us if you need a listening ear..
we love you.
can someone motivate me?
im really slacking my life away with bad grade..
VANESSA! u got to wake up and stop slacking!!!
i stopped , Friday, May 09, 2008 8:56 PM
wooh.... im freaking tired.
had UT today, so have to go to school earlier. so yepp. i rushed to up the mrt station at yio chu kang. i was dumb enough not to look at which side before i boarded. omg. i boarded the train towards ang mo kio?! wth! then i have to go over to the to other side to take to woodlands. met angel, so we headed to school together. she's evil! we took bus from the mrt station. she saw her friend, then we cut queue. haha! cus of some things, so i concluded that he's gentleman. ha! lame. then rushed to class. UT suck! cus i didnt study for the UT last night, so when i blur when i started doing the first question. the 6Ps are of NO use at all. wth. so i just anyhow lah. then jj they all left during the first break. so ended up left hazel and i. sadded! then ended up combined group with elle and clar!! haha! during second meeting, faci asked every group to asnwer questions to help us in our ppt. and our group didnt do, so we had to think on the spot. she asked us things we do not really know how to answer, so clar said to herself smoething about discovery channel. then i heard it so i said out aloud to answer the teacher "we know by watching discovery channel" lol! the whole class laugh like siao.. we were having super load of fun can. then wanted to go for the sex talk during lunch time with friends, but it was full already! LOL. dont know if they go for the talk or for the starbucks voucher. ha! so went to buy sweets and chocos then headed back to class to do ppt. super fun sia! our group's ppt was the funniest lah! i myself was laughing during the presentation and asnwering people's questions. ha! after school,
quickly finish my quiz and evaluation then left with the rest to mrt station and "flew" to amk hub to meet hz they all for dinner~ followed them to play pool. then went to MOS burger for dinner and i was doing RJ. haha! then hz, kh and des went off first. so goro, bear, ling and i were walking around. and when bear was buying bubble tea, ling came out from the toilet then goro and i tricked her! dam funny. i was giving it away by laughing lah! she fell for it! wahaha!
let me show you GORO's ugly pic. he was dared to try to stuff as many fries in his mouth without swallowing. LOL. dam funny.
dam kuku lah! haha! enjoyed today man! was burnt out after today's lesson.
toodles~
i stopped , Thursday, May 08, 2008 10:40 PM
woohoo!
loads of people(like half the class?) never turn up for lesson today, thinking that it is cognitive today. so faci was kind! she let us choose who we wanted to group with. so as usual, i got left out. so i went to join the group with the least people. haha! so i teamed with sannie, leeting, jj, xin juan and hazel. haha! i was having the usual running nose again and jj oso kena! haha! so we shared our packet of tissues.. *im so sorry for not helping you all in today's module. i was not feeling tt good..* then after school, met up with syu and went to library to finish up our RJ and slack around. we were supposed to be study.. ha! pity that hafiiz could not join us. but we were freezing in the library! then we headed home.
my bro msgd me during lesson asking me if i want to combine cash to buy mothers' day gift for my mum. we bot perfume. haha! so i asked him to help me buy too, cus mine is finishing soon. omg. he bought anna sui for only $38?! wth right? haha! but of cus i have to pay him back the money lah. haha! love him lah! it was really a good bargain! from $69 cut to $38!! woohoo! haha!
tomorrow have UT again. enterprise. omg. after that is cognitive module! argh! that makes things worse. so W14H is thinking of leaving after UT to catch a movie! wahaha! kuku people. i bet andrea chan will go crazy! ha!
my new specs is giving me problem.. my head pain arh.. haha! that's why have to keep on taking it out. haha! have not get used to it yet.
i stopped , Wednesday, May 07, 2008 9:21 PM
wooh~ W14H rocks my socks!
got UT today, but didnt study for it. ha! cus was too sad yesterday that i just felt like stone-ing. okie.. then left home slightly late and was caught in the jam outside my house! i was so afraid that i would be late for UT, so when i reached woodlands mrt station i walked to school super fast. haha! i seriously thought i was late cus when i reached class, most of them were sitted already! omg. but i reached class 10 minutes before 9am, so still have time to relax before doing UT. haha!
then changed group today. so for G104, im in group 5 with viki, simin and nic. haha! first time grouping with nic. our group was super slack today. ha! then went to "hell" for first breakout with almost the whole class. omg. the chicken rice at "hell" sucks. they were still having promotion "buy 1 egg, get 1 egg free!". LOL. we just did our UT and you give us eggs?! *superstitious* then went back for lesson. stayed in class during lunch break. wahahahaha..... viki was at my mercy at that time. i was disturbing him like mad! cus he was playing CS, so i keep pressing his finger so he will waste his bullets. ha! then i asked him to teach me CS. i controlled the gun while he controlled the walking. he keep making SO much noise, keep complaining that my gun was not pointing straight. so noisy seh. then i seriously didnt know the enemy was behind, so i keep getting killed. but at least i got 1 head shot okie! haha! then we exchanged rolls. i took over the walking part and he took the gun. lol. i play halfway, i gave up. i was feeling very dizzy. haha. some kind of a noob eh? then he stopped playing after awhile and he turned on songs. wahahaha! im such a smart kid! i keep stopping his music. i think he was quite fed up with me. haha! my group fun seh! then we rushed our ppt. lesson ended at 3.30pm. like 1 hour early?! LOL. everyone was surprised lah. so i finished everything in class. i stayed in class till after 4.30pm with some of W14H people playing hang man. ha! then headed home. then dad brought me to collect my new specs. woohoo! but uncomfortable seh.. still not used to it yet.
anw. i heard that RPWS is only taking in 2 flautists this year and there were 15 flautists! omg. i think i seriously stand no chance anymore. to make things worse, i heard that they already chosen 1. so given up hope since i screwed the audition. haix.... lets see the outcome..
and i think im falling sick soon. i dont feel very well today. especially after i reached home. haix.. it shows that its time for me to start to sleep early..
tmr going to hang out with syu and hafiiz, but studying! haha!we are so going to crap! i guess~
i stopped , Tuesday, May 06, 2008 8:10 PM
im in freaking extremely low spirits.
school was boring today. or rather i was not paying attention in class cus i was freaking nervous about the audition during lesson. everytime i looked at the time, the butterflies in my stomach multiply by half? lol. and nothing could get into and out of my head. i seriously could not think. my mine was blank. im so sorry for not giving my ideas and helping you all team 1.. cus i could not understand the thingy myself.. was not able to celebrate ms lee's birthday with the rest cus of the audition. so didnt pon school.
after school, met up with syu and hafiiz at W1 then headed to TRCC for audition. omg. i was freaking nervous and i wanted to back out. then headed to this room to practice scales and merry widow. okie. seriously speaking, it was not as tough as it seem to be, or maybe cus i heard before. but the difficulty is still there.. so we were practicing merry widow and scales. we were panic-ing while practicing. blah blah blah.. and the audition started late. there were 5 flautists today. and i was the third to go in. then it was my turn! damn freaky. so many people in the room watching me, alone. the senior told us that about 4-5 people only.. then ended up so many?! i was superb nervous. it was "shi-brato".. then the conductor started to ask questions.
conductor: hello.
me: (smile)
conductor: what is your name?
me: vanessa
conductor: vanessa...... what school are you from?
me: yuying...
conductor: yuming......?
me: yuying. yu ying.
conductor: orh. were you there when i was there last year?
me: hmm.. yes..
conductor: what instrument u played?
me: flute and piccolo.
conductor: what was the most difficult piece you played before?
me: hmm.. lord of the rings-hobbits..
conductor: lord of the rings last movement..
me: yeah.. (i think i saw some of them with the "wah...." expression on their face)
conductor: okie... let's start with scales.... could you play D major scale? play in quavers. (after that singing the tune)
me: okie. (what the hell?! okie... D major got F# and C#)( and i was dumb enough to start on the middle D)
conductor: could you start from the low D? i understand its a difficult scale..
me: orh.. (then i played)
after scales...
conductor: okie.. have you tried the whole piece just now?
me: hmmm.. no..
conductor: where did you stop?
me: hmm... figure 4? (looking at the score)
conductor: okie.. so could you play figure 3 to the end?
me: figure 3 to figure 4? okie....
after playing that part......
conductor: hmmm... good. anything to add on SL? (looking at shirley)
shirley: hmmmm.......... can you play me your highest B flat?
me: orh. (played)
shirley: can you play your lowest C?
me: orh. (shit. for all notes, ask me to play that C?) (played)
conductor: okie. thank you. you may go now. (with that kind smile)
okie. that's about it. and i screwed up the audition. it was really bad. i think if i screw up merry widow, i think nvm and still can forgive myself. but for all things, SCALES! that i cannot forgive myself. keep on playing the wrong notes. and the F# problem again! just cannot play the damn F#. what the hell. im damn disappointed with myself lah. i was actually dumb enough to start from middle D when i was asked to play 2 octaves? i wanted to cry after the audition, but i was busy talking to someone so it sort of distracted me. then i saw hafiiz cried right after coming out. omg lah. i blur. then conforted him then keep instrument then went home. on the way back was super sadded that i screwed up lah. haix.. but at least its over, so i concentrate on UTs. but still cannot get over it lah. anw. thanks to mf for replying my craps. and thanks to syu and hafiiz for making feel better with all your craps. cannot be weak and cry in front of you all. so i held back my tears. i now have no mood to study for tomorrow's UT.. haix.
now that audition is over,
the sense of relief is there.
but the disappointment in myself just cannot be forgotten.
and now UTs are up next.
the stress just never leaves..
haix....
i stopped , Monday, May 05, 2008 8:36 PM
omg!
just a few more 3 hours and 2 minutes to my death.. argh! my stomach is filled with BUTTERFILES!! im so nervous that i cannot concentrate in class! nothing can get into my head! still heard that there will be around 10 people sitting in the room watching one person! and to add onto the stress, there would be 1 person right beside watching the fingerings!! argh! omg! and summore MERRY WIDOW!! what the?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! i think my scales might be able to make it IF dont have chromatic scales!!!
WISH ME LUCK!! CUS I NEED LOADS!
argh!
i feel guilty,
but what's done is done..
life still have to go on.........
i stopped , 2:28 PM
wooh! what a hot weather today! cannot tahan seh.. and my mum dont want to open the freaking window?! its very stuffy!
woke up at 11am cus i want to watch tv. ha! what a reason right? haha! while watching tv, syu called me. i was wondering who would call me on sunday! then she was saying that the audition piece is merry widow! wth! so i quickly went to check my email. omg. i passed the interview and the audition piece is really merry widow!! argh! wtf! then went to change my specs frame. so sadded! i wanted to change to plastic frame, but the uncle say cannot cus its a different type of lens. argh! so from purple frame to black frame! wahaha! never wear black frame before. my mum wanted me to take the red frame, but i wore red one before. and im not used to the specs yet.. going to collect my other specs on wednesday! after that went to grandparent's place for lunch. then came back home. as usual, watching tv. then headed to my grandma's place for dinner. i felt panic through the day! then i msged mf after dinner asking about the scales and all that cus i dont really understand what they meant. so later have to flip through the scales. argh! im worried! and adding to the stress, tues have UT!! and i have not study yet.. LOL! shit. i feel so slack. i think im going to concentrate more on my studies. cus i have been too enthu in band during secondary school and i faired badly for Os. learnt my lesson. but im still hoping i can get into band. *contradicting myself* studying is no choice for me, so i have to like it. but music cannot be compared to anything in my life. just praying hard that i can get into band and do well for my studies at the same time..
wanted to pon school tomorrow cus wanted to go yuying in the afternoon to celebrate ms lee's birthday. but cus of the audition in the evening, im going to school. and i cannot be a bad girl. haix.. im so sorry that i cannot make it. and so sorry that i "bombed" you all yesterday..
i have enough preoblems in my mind now..
and im all stressed up..
i stopped , Sunday, May 04, 2008 10:10 PM
im bored stiff.. haha! but hafiiz and syu are entertaining me online! haha! thanks guys! you both are the best!
hmm.. my mum is irritating today! argh! im going crazy. firstly, she gave me some fruits for supper, like after 11+pm already?! fruits, so i take it as it wont affect my weight...... lol. then we are watching this variety programm on channel u talking about thin people.. omg! they are damn freaking thin! okie.. whatever~ then to make things worse, i dont know where the hell my bro got chicken wings(i think) from. so mum told me that my bro got chicken wings.
mum: eh... gor gor got chicken wings leh..
me: i dont want.. i very full already(just finished the fruits she gave me)
mum: oh yah hor.. reminded me that you are on a diet..
me: hahaha..... yah lah! still ask me to eat.. haiyoh..
mum: better not let you eat or you will exceed your current weight..
me: haha.. wah liao.....
mum: no lah.. dont be too thin nor too fat.. this weight okie already.
me: (continue chatting online with syu and fiiz, but listening to her)
mum: its very interesting that you dont eat your lunch in school and your face is still so round eh..
me: WHAT.................?!?!?!?! i do eat, but seldom cus no time..
mum: okie.. but you better watch your weight arh.. if not your face will be as round as the moon..
me: (thinking: moon? the moon VERY round meh?) haha.. i will...........
i know and understand what you are trying to do..
please no "match-making"..
just let things goes as it is can?
cus im feeling awkward..
sorry..
i stopped , 12:11 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MS JAMINE LEE!!
such hot weather these days! how i wish i could be in school everyday cus its AIR CONDITIONED! haha! the weather's making feel all lethargic.. *yawn!*
woke up early this morning for piano lesson. i suddenly dont have the urge to carry on going for piano lessons. how i wish i could quit? i so want my weekends back! i want to slp in till lunch time during weekends.. oh man. but im not that lame to stop learning piano just cus of weekends. LOL! *contradicting myself* spent about 2+hrs at piano lesson, but more than half the time i was chatting with my teacher about horror and ghostly things. LOL! total crap. haha! then took bus back home and i started to watch tv. after lunch, i was too tired and fell asleep while watching House. then kena woken by my mum cus i was supposed to go amk to meet zl they all to study, but they were heading to kovan cus amk library too many people already. so i didnt went. after that mu called! just to ask me about the boyfriend thingy. LOL! crap. then went to make specs. finally! but can only collect on wednesday. im liking the times without specs, dont why seh.. haha!
slept at 0200+hrs last night cus was online talking to syu and fiiz. haha! damn fun chatting with them. i was busy sending them recording or pieces to them. haha! but fiiz was distracted by the horror show on channel u.. LOL! haha!
and oh man!! i cannot believe it! i almost gotten my very first A! just cus i was the damn leader on wednesday and i didnt do her work during the first break, that's why she down grade me?! what the hell!
i stopped , Saturday, May 03, 2008 7:05 PM
woots! im back home!
school was kuku today! enterprise is always the module i enjoy the most cus got jeban and jj to make me laugh and kill me with their nonsense! haha! and i think many self proclaim holiday today. many didnt came for lesson today.. went to "earth" canteen with almost the whole class for sort of breakfast? but i didnt eat. no mood for food at that point of time~ food there was REAL cheap! a bowl of noodles whcih costs $2+ outside, is selling at $1.50 in "earth"! i think its koufu or smth. haha! then went to "heaven" to buy waffles with farah, nic and leeting. that was the first time im at that canteen! omg. i feel so kuku.. then went back to class. jeban and jj damn funny seh. jeban was looking through his contacts on MSN. then he saw my personal message and he was like "what the bleh!", while pointing asking jj to see. his reaction was VERY funny! i was laughing my ass off! LOL! then they were like "eh...bf eh......" LOL! it was already up there since last night? haha! and many kept asking if i have boyfriend and all that. those kukus! can you actually believe what i say?! haha! then jj and jeban took my laptop to do the ppt. then dont know why, they started talking to jeanne?! what the hell?! they were crapping and disturbing her can! then mu talked to me online asking me the boyfriend thingy.. dont know what happened to jj seh.. he was quite angry, then keep on complaining to jeban and me. lol. then after presentation, i was playing harvet moon! haha! im so addicted to that game! haha! after school, helped sannie with her RJ then headed home.
when can i get my specs done? i have yet to make a new 1! argh! tomorrow got piano lesson and shopping with bro! how am i going to survive? im supposed to be accompanying him to buy things.. but i also wanna buy! its been awhile since i went shopping...
syu JUST smoked me! wth.. bluff me that she year 2?!?! could not believe that i actually believed her.. LOL!
and im thinking of working! if i cannot get into band, im so going to work after school on certain days! at least i dont slack around at home and i can earn money! so i would be neaer to my dream of buying a flute! wahahaha! that's just my thinking lah.. haha!
*anw. about the boyfriend thingy, its up to you to believe.. haha! but think twice before getting into a conclusion.. can you actually believe what i say and do? haha!
i stopped , Friday, May 02, 2008 6:50 PM
woots!
im bored in class now.. i need people to entertain me... haha! enterprise today. omg! mr kumaran if funny lah. he likes to tok crap then after that he would say "okie, jokes aside...". LOL! damn funny lah. today's lesson is about interviews, resume and all those nonsense. so kumaran showed us his resume! i could not see clearly cus i have yet to make a new specs. argh! then the kuku jj keep laughing at him!
and for all things, kumaran have to talk about interviews! argh! and all the factors on how people choose and all that.. omg! now im worried about the results of the interview again! wth! i just got over it and now im back to square 1! idiot sia!
oh yah.. im thinking of skipping school on monday cus going to celebrate ms lee's birthday on monday. further more, monday's module is science! omg! just hate that module man!
*all the best to derrick for his interview today!
^-^ ^
i stopped , 11:04 AM
okie.. did i mention that im so loving the time with fiiz and syu? haha! we are ALL flautists okie. we met at the tune-in session and we were all playing the 2nd half which was seventh night of july. after that we started talking online and stuff. and we were chatting online last night for more than an hour?! haha! i dont think they know that the interview thingy was bothering me last night, but after chatting with them, i was alright already! thanks to their crap! haha!
today's labour day! which means holiday!! i was supposed to go to jun shen's house and go out to study with jeremy they all, but i was simply too tired so i didnt go for both. *so sry!* i slept at 2+am and i woke up at 1.30pm? so spent half of my holiday sleeping! all thanks to my mum. such a nice way of waking me. knowing that the weather is SO hot, she offed the fan! it was super stuffy! i was sweating like nobody's business that's why i woke up. and i was mummy's good girl today! i was reading the book my bro bought for me, but not for the whole day lah. haha! i watched tv and slacked around too!
going to study with jeremy and friends on saturday after piano lesson. next tues to next next monday gt UT! although they are tests, but its 50% of my results! omg! i think im so going to study hard to do well for the UTs since im already getting all the C grades. argh!
okie. let me tell you about the tune-in session on tuesday...
i was damn freaking scared although neelam and derrick accompanied me. and i met jean! derrick sat beside me when we were asked to go in and just take a sit. then all the talking.. after that we went out by sections and were splitted into 2 groups. i was asked to play the piccolo, but after that i told the SL that i dont want to play the piccolo. so i was put into second flute! just what i was hoping for! haha! during the 10mins break, the second half people took the instruments and start trying out seventh night of july! and when i tried the flute, dam! i could not play! so i tried the picc. i could play the picc but not the flute! omg. i though i lost my embrochure, but actually the screw of the flute was lose.. LOL! scare the hell out of me! then there was this flute senior sitting beside me playing too. my playing was total rubbish! pardon me, cus my specs broke and i could not see clearly adding that im nervous! and that i have never played that piece before and i ahve not touched a flute for months! after practice, followed derrick to the store room then left for home. i had difficulty walking to the mrt station. could not see clearly and it was night! still have to walk a long way to the mrt station. luckily there were other students heading to the mrt station too.
i stopped , Thursday, May 01, 2008 7:36 PM