solo-phobic (i seriously have one ever since after SYF'07)

yesterday.
enterprise im sure you will hate enterprise! damn the module and faci! i totally have no idea what is going on today. and the faci speaks like he's using a microphone to talk. so loud! he and his stupid ground rules and stuff. im so going to hate this module and faci. how am i going to survive this module man.. but on a brighter side, i grouped with nicole today! weee! and other team members were nice too! =)
after school, as usual band. didnt know that they brought forward the exchange! then first suite! oh man! the damn solo part. i hate solos. never fail to demoralise myself. i still sort of blame myself for last year's SYF. what an experience. i will never forget it. oh well. practice, practice and practice! but not for any solos. my own parts.
after practice, the whole band have to attend this piano recital. its cus no one from the school wants to go, so they dont want to lose face showing the pianist an empty hall. LOL. im feeling superbly demoralised lah! first was the solo part. next was the piano recital! the pianist seriously damn pro! her fingers can run like mad! chromatics and all that! makes me really think that im going to fail my grade 5. SADDED! argh! i must work harder (if i have the will power to do so)!
then trained home with the rest. damn it. im like so quiet, merely said a few sentences then jaron said i noisy?! im so not noisy okie!