you can't have a rainbow , without any rain .

this post is for the flute section. i hope you ppl are reading this.

do you all hate jane or thinks that she is very fun to bully? or did she treat you all very badly?she is your section leader and senior after all, so show her some respect. if she tells you to do something, just do as you are told cus she is told to do so by mr faizal, mr phua, techaers, majors or even alumni. this are all for your's and the section's good. can you all not be so rude to her and just do what you are told and not comment about everything little thing? i have been noticing all this, but i just don't want to say. i wanted to see if you all would change. but i was wrong. i dont mind you all being rude to me, asking me to do things for you all. but i really hope you all can show some respect to all seniors. i understand jane is very nice and don't scold you all, but that does not mean that you all can climb all over her head! you know why she don't or hardly scold you all? its cus she canot bear to scold! you all might not notice it, but really she made many sacrifices for all of you! don't you all feel guilty at all? i really hope you all can treat her better, respect her and practice hard. pls think about it carefully. make her last year in this sch a memorable one yah? you all are a section. flute section is supposed to be super united! i don't want to see and hear all these or anything bad again.

when its time to play, play hard.
when its time to work, work hard.

i stopped , Monday, March 31, 2008 7:46 PM

im HAPPY!!

today.
woots! collected my fone today! omg, finally! i think its fine nw, but my contacts!! argh! woke up 11+am den went to wisma wif mum to collect my fone. met mingyan at taka den walked to PS for lunch at ajisen and mum went to do smth. saw some lappy bags at taka! gg to gt 1! den followed mum to ntuc at amk hub den headed hm. i think i saw my pri sch classmate(timothy) somewhere in amk, but im nt sure if its him or nt.

sat.
no piano lesson, so went to west coast early in the morning wif the band for their rehearsal. aft tt headed to serangoon stadium to prac there. orchid park band was using the stadium too! and i was the st. john for the day! haha! den mp dam evil! i duno wat r his intentions of wanting to intro the student conductor of orchid park. lol! den went back to sch and dinner-ed wif siyan and gang! den went to buy snacks for the section for sunday.

sun.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AUNTY HENG!
woke up super early!! kena pulled to the temple by my parents! irritating! didnt have enough slp. and i have to travel frm yishun to sch by my own summore. paing. den went breakfast at KFC wif siyan, melissa, shi hui and weng guan. den went to west coast wif the band! aft their performance, they had ice cream!! so gd! but i feel tt they dun appreciate it. some of them didnt want it. mr faizal very gd to buy for u all loh. last time we didnt have this type of treatment okie.. better appreciate everything okie! and i accpected ming's dare on the bus to eat 4 hotdog buns! wahaha! its nice okie.. end up i ate 5 for the day! den during fall in when the band greet "thank you sirs, tchers and alumni", lina and ming replied "welcome"! lol. aft tt, i said"i love you! muack muack!" but i was mummbling. and didnt expect the band to hear it! they were laughing can! even 老爹 heard it and was laughing! omg! den af tt rushed to grandma huse wif yichuan. haha! loads of crap frm both of us on the way! and it was the 1st time i ate so lil for dinner ytd! haha! was very tired ytd.

i stopped , 6:56 PM

speech day is finally over and its ard 2 more wks till sch starts! omg. other schs starts ltr. so unfair!

woohoo! dam tired today. lunched wif lina and hidayah at pizza hut. and of cus, i was late. omg. so pai seh.. den aft tt went to sch tgt to check the speech day thingy out! haha! ming and i were like "back stage crew" can! we were helping the members wif this and that, running ard here and there. dam tired and hot! i was sweating like nobody's business! all thanx to jane's xiang xiang, i was xiang! haha! saw some of my frens, but too busy to chat! im so sry.. den dinner-ed wif brid, jane and gang at KFC! and we took "preety" pics! woohoo! and im so gg to post em on the band's blog nxt time! haha! and i jus reached hm nt long ago. very tired seh! and had fun taking silly photos! wahaha! shall post the photos nxt time. they r all seriously FULL of nonsense! haha! it was hard to capture those "pretty" pics lah! so kudos to ming and i!! wahaha! speech day was so-so lah.. at the back of the programme bklet, there is the sch song. and the funny thing is tt tt is no time signature! ha! dam lame! the person who put tt there mus b blind. tsk tsk tsk!

tmr no piano lesson cus its 5th wk! woohoo! so gg to west coast wif the band early in the morning for their rehearsal! and the united flute section, plus ming and i, are gg to carry the same anuty bag!! hw cool can tt be?! ha! den sun gg to weat coast wif the band for their performance. tt happens to be their judgement day too. so best of luck ppl!

im feeling sucky wif the current fone.. hope the person calls my mum soon so i can gt back my fone!! i some hw canot feel the vibration of the fone when it's in silent mode, so i oways gt miss calls! dam it man! i really miss my fone loads! and some of my contacts r gone. irritating!! so whoever who msged me, pls leave ur name in the msg too. thanx so much! =)

i stopped , Friday, March 28, 2008 10:42 PM

woots! im nt quite in the rite mood today..

firstly, my fone is spoiled(since like duno when alr..)! so my mum finally took it for servicing tgt wif my bro's fone. actually the plan was to bring it to IMM cus its the "repair centre" or smth lidat.. but duno y she ended up gg to wisma! so it will take a longer time for me to gt back my fone. so im using my previous fone which im SO nt used to.. and thanx to me and my itchy hands, those things nt saved in my SIM or memory card are ALL gone.. so some ppl's no. and other stuff are like gone! shld have jus left my memory card in my fone man! argh! and there's quite alot of stuff in my fone. msges.. nvm abt it. ppl's no.. its impt!! things in my calender.. oh man! i think im SO dead! its real impt to me! argh! nw when i gt back my fone, i have to put in things 1 by 1 agn(provided i can rmbr).. sian! nw i noe hw much i relied on my fone! its like THAT much! omg.. wat a day to start wif man! and nw, im only left wif the back cover of my fone. lol! and i only can collect it back on sunday/monday. dam!
secondly, im quite pissed off today. i was kind enough to tell u and this is hw u respond to me?! u think u are so great? i think all ur manners and so called respect have went dwn the drain. think twice man. i was only trying to help u all so u all can gt to SYF. "thanx" so much.. nw i noe its bad to be a gd person. fine, nw i shall shut up and ans. NO qns. tt u have to ask(be it if u all fared well or nt). but im feeling better aft much tots abt it. im thinking since u r the 1 nt listening, its okie. cus im nt the 1 gg for SYF, so its nt really my prob.. no point stressing myself over this kind of things.. ha!

anw. was in the band rm disturbing ppl wif ming when i reached sch.. haha! we were like trying to take ugly shoots of ppl in the band rm at tt time. dam funny! den when band prac ended and all of them are at the parade square falling in, we were in the band rm playing one of the pieces! dam funny lah! i play until blur alr.. and my bro told me tt he's on tv!! lol! cus today gt hill-stone(however u spell it). so some tv ppl ask him to sae"i was there, but i didnt see it." lol! dam lame lah! so nw i noe.. they think of scripts for ppl to sae.. haha!

quite a bad day for me today.. and summore this morning when i toked to my mum abt the class bbq thingy, she suddenly told me tt nite i have to go for gathering at my auntie's place! wth. i alr told her before hand tt i have bbq. so im so nt gg to my auntie's place for the gathering! ha! im so gg to b a bad kid for tt day!

anw. i ate cheese cake for breakfast this morning. nice, but sinful.. haha! im so gg to have salad for lunch frm nw onwards! hope i can lose weight lidat!

i stopped , Thursday, March 27, 2008 11:39 PM

im loving bananas!!
*sudden craves! wahaha!

quite sian today.. although went out, but i did nth much. went to yishun. on the way, i saw liyuan(pri sch fren), but i dun think she recognise me or tt she didnt noticed me. its been really a long time since we seen each other.. and i tied up my super short hair and my head was like full of clips so tt those real short hair can stay dwn. argh! omg. look like some kind of ku-ku head! ha! den headed hm and my bro came back hm to change fone cus his fone is spoiled too! dam irritating seh.. my fone spoil SO long alr, they nvr take to repair. my bro 1 call hm saying tt his fone is spoiled, my parents ask him to bring hm so they can send for repair! dam bias rite?! but nvm, all thanx to my bro, my fone can FINALLY go for repair!

i stopped , Wednesday, March 26, 2008 10:45 PM

woohoo! super high today! oso duno y. mayb cus i cut my hair and it made me go mad? lol. okies. woke up early and headed to amk hub to gt my hair cut and shop at ntuc wif my mum. lol. dam freaking tired cus i only slpt at ard 0230hr! omg. den aft lunch went straight to yuying and it was raining at my huse! dam it! all thanx to my parents, i was late in meeting yimei. anw. den it was time to hyper!!! was really hell loads of fun wif yan ming and whoever hu hyper-ed wif us! wahaha! we hyper-ed all the way till "band prac" ended. performance of the band was so-so, but can sae tt they did improve a tini tiny lil bit. during the rehearsal, went to canteen to crap wi yimei and shimin! haha! den went hm.. sian-ed!

i think im mad! fancy torturing myself by slping quite late and waking up early! omg. im seriously feeling very tired. but last nite slpt tt late cus i cant slp! was tossing and turning in bed, thinking abt some band stuff. sometimes i wonder y m i so enthu. even gt myself stressed up abt their probs! omg. i jus hope tt they can make it to SYF and remain distinction. i think i will cry my eyes out wif disappointment if they didnt sustain. wooh. but im still in a positive mindset!wanted to tok to the band jus nw, but decided nt to cus of duno wat tt i canot rmbr. im worried for em! feeling stressed for em too!

anw. i duno if i shld regret cutting my hair. dam it! its like "wah! so shiok as the weather is quite warm recently!", but when i look in the mirror its like" omg!! i think i really put on quite alot of weight as my face looks rounder! argh!!!". see the diff? omg. im worried! cus speech day most of my frens r gg! so if i go, i will have to find a hidding place! argh! kuku! i feel round, even when i look in the mirror w/o specs! bad bad! omg!

i stopped , Tuesday, March 25, 2008 11:06 PM

moday blues! argh.. feeling super tired. i think i slp too much alr.. slp at abt 0130hr and woke up at 1130hr?! tt mus b the reason! nothing on today, so slacking at hm! haha! omg. then for the rest of this wk, im so gg to be busy as a bee! okie.. woke up, ate breakfast den changed my bed sheets for both of the beds in my rm! while having breakfast, kena frm my dad agn. so its like i nvr gt a gd start for the day. every day of mine mus kena frm someone before i start my day. wtf! den aft lunch officially start my slacking! haha! and i finally ripped tt disc so i finally gt those pieces into lappy. woohoo!

tue: speech day rehearsal at yyss
wed: might go out
thurs: band at yyss
fri: speech day
sat: band at yyss (west coast for rehearsal in the morning den back to yyss)
sun: band performance at west coast

ytd, sun.
overslpt and rushed to meet my darling flautists! luckily i nt late, but "heng", rachel and angeline were even earlier! shocked when i saw "heng" sitting on the floor duno doing wat to her feet. and the evil rachel is taking photos of wat "heng" sticking plasters! lol. den they started wif their aunty-ing agn. haha! forgt to bring camera along! dam! so we jalan jalan ard while waiting for siyan. den lunched at long john tgt. i didnt noe tt my darlings can b tt high! omg. can compete wif us alr seh. den jalan jalan aft lunch while waiting for jasmine. aft tt we went into some shop which sells sufer girl's stuff. and our whole section bot a bag each! woohoo! so we r gg to use it on sat tgt as a section! hw cool can tt be eh? haha! had a great time laughing in tt shop! aft tt went to gt flowers for 老爹 and water frm carefour. den headed to VCH. concert was okie. aft tt went dinner wif brid they all at bugis. all those photo taking by the road side! haha! went to action city den headed hm. had a great time laughing wif my darlings. im thinking of organising an outing wif yy and henderson's flautists to the zoo! its been a long time since i went to the zoo.. haha! wat a place for an outing.

miracles do happen, but you still need to work hard.
don't only count on miracles to happen.
work hard now and enjoy the end result.
at least you know you did ur best no matter what the results is..

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somehw, i dun feel like im part of the family at all. everything anyone asked me to do, i wuld normally do it for the sake of nt getting black faces and all that. they r seriously too much man! watever i do, i will gt blamed and scoldings for nth at all. for example ytd. when i was on the fone, my mum asked me to go and shower and scolded me for nt packing my rm as it was in a mess. okie, fine. im on the fone, so i decided to pack my rm 1st. aft awhile, when i was still packing my rm, she scolded me for nt shower and still toking on the fone! wat's wrong wif ppl nwadays man.. i did wat she wanted me to do and i gt scolding. and my dad and bro! lidat oso.. they all seemed to be finding fault wif me can! izzit wrong toking on the fone?! izzit wrong using my laptop and watching tv?! izzit wrong to shower?! y cant they jus blame themselves for things nt rite rather than to vent their anger all onto me?! izzit so fun to find fault wif others?! y m i so suay tt i can nvr gt a gd day? i seriously rather stay out wif my frens than to stay at hm and let u all scold me like nobody's business. reading is gd. they asked me to read so i read, but can u actually believe tt i can gt scolding if i read too much and nvr do other things? so its nt tt i want to have a huge gap in between us and nt b close like every other family, but the thing is do i have the choice? im nt tt dumb to try to mend the gap up by letting u all scold me all u want and me still wif a smile. im NT ur slave!

i stopped , Monday, March 24, 2008 4:20 PM

i crawled out of bed agn as usual. went for piano lesson. my tcher very evil. i suffered in silence while being forced to prac the piano. lol. but i duno y i suddenly have the urge to gt at least a merit this yr rather than jus pass like the other yrs back! wahaha! i was like so enthu during piano lesson jus nw. mayb cus exams r gg b in july/august! omg. its freaky! aft tt went to sch for band. woohoo! 1st time i reach sch so early cus piano lesson ended early. den went for lunch wif 老爹, lina and ming. omg. it was a killer trying to ans. 老爹's qns abt everything, including abt alumni band!! omg. its nt i hu wants to drag and delay everything, but i feel tt the tops r nt even doing anth abt it(unless they r busy, which i dun think cow is). den its so like last time can. everything is pushed to me and i have to clean up aft em. its very tiring. tt time was more den enough to kill me alr. but i really feel tt if nth is gg to b done abt the alumni stuff, im gg to do it! i dun want to b blamed abt things nt moving. ha! and im so gg to thrash tt cow! push him till he dies! okie. back to today. aft lunch went back to sch. this batch of ppl r VERY lucky! when u march in the parade square, u gt wind and hardly much sun(most of the time) and u all always gt to use the hall!! so gd life! omg. we nvr gt such gd treatments b4! so u ppl better treasure!

anw. i think im gg on a diet!! woohoo! i seriously need it! i've been snacking on unhealthy stuff. things like chocolates and chips! even eunice sae tt my face is rounder when we met up ytd!! omg! its time for me to cut dwn all those nonsense!

& im feeling sucky aft the conversation abt the japan trip jus nw.. cus i dun think i will b having holiday in dec, so might nt b able to join the band for their japan trip! dam it man! really really hope i have holiday in dec.. omg....

i stopped , Saturday, March 22, 2008 10:06 PM

*sry for the vulgarities.

i duno wats wrong wif my parents man.. izzit wrong to use my lappy in my rm? its my rm! my rm is where i do things in private wat! wat do u mean by " i duno if i shld continue wif the wireless since u all have been doing things privately."?! wtf! there's smth called privacy mind u! its nt like im gg to some porn website, doing some illegal stuff or smth rite?! is chatting wif my frens online a sin?! its nt like my bros dun have msn rite?! or rather ALL my frens r decent okie?! u think they r some kind of gangsters?! its dam f*cking unfair! u both have always been saying me! watever i do, u r jus nt happy. wtf is this man.. having menopause or smth?! always picking on me! sometimes i really think if im ur daughter or nt can! fine. if u dun like me doing things PRIVATELY, y dun u join me when i go out wif my frens, go for band or watever?! better still, i have a better idea! follow me to sch, sit beside me & even go to the toilet wif me! when sch starts & i need to do work, i will make sure u f*cking ppl sit rite beside me & watch me finish it! i will call/msg u to tell u want im doing like in every 5mins if u want! i WILL go to the extreme if u really want me to so. im fine wif anth, since u ppl dun trust me AT ALL. i seriously rather stay out late wif my frens than gg hm to place where i NVR belong to! its a torture okie! wuld u both jus tell me wat do u want?! have i changed or smth?! im totally sick & tired of all this f*cking things alr! enough is enough! I HATE IT & U BOTH!!

i stopped , 1:00 AM

im tired! crawled out of the bed, forced myself to wake up. went out wif my darlings to watch Rule 1! woohoo! my very 1st NC16 & ghost movie. lol. i feel it wasnt scary, it was disgusting! omg. but goro was making me laugh thru the movie and forcing darling & i to eat the popcorn. haha! aft tt went for dinner & train-ed hm.

thurs, the instructors were having the mindset of pulling the band out of SYF marching assessment. i was hell shocked and sort of had no comments to everything. i felt super disappointed tt this type of things culd actually happen! i held back my tears when i was on the fone toking to some1 abt. im thinking if do u ppl deserve it? or izzit tt me, as an alumni, have nt done enough to help u all?

YYCB members, wat's wrong wif u ppl man? start to shed tears only aft all this? y didnt u cherish ur chance in the 1st place? havent u tot that u culd have put in ur best at all times and nth of this sort wuld happen? dun take things for granted. this isnt the spirit of YYCB. where have tt spirit gone to? pls b serious in everything u do and nt complaining the whole time abt this and that. its 21 days to SYF and wat r u ppl thinking? i have been gg for every band prac to sort of show tt im really supporting u ppl frm the bottom of my heart! im showing u tt im here supporting u! if this continues to go on, i dun c any purpose of the alumni cuming dwn. we r there at every band prac nt to kill time. its nt like we have nth better to do than to watch u ppl making "perfect" mistakes. the previous batch of seniors hu went for the previous SYF marching assessment didnt gt distinction without all those hard work. i agree tt u all have been working hard for it, but izzit enough? were u ALL taking sectionals and band pracs seriously? its seriously time for u all to wake up. there's no point for the alumni to beg the instructors to give u all another chance, cus we r nt taking part in it. its really up to u all. the future lies in u all. either u do a gd one or crash it. im sure everyone wants to take part and gt another distinction. buck up if u ever have the tots of wanting to take part in SYF, nt even saying to gt a distinction back.

YYCB members, pls wake up!

if im wrong, pls let me noe.

im using the word "pls" if u ever noticed.

i stopped , Friday, March 21, 2008 11:23 PM

tiring day! went out in the aftnoon to meet someone at yishun mrt cus she wants to pass me smth.. den she funny lah. late awhile only den bot me sweets. lol! den my usual place.. ha! tiring! jia lat arh. aft tt went hm. den went to look for hanis to gt back my boots & we sat on the road & toked! woohoo! had a blast man! its like we have nt been toking for super long time.. & sitting on the road toking, makes me rmbr of the times where we really chat abt EVERYTHING! haha! jus nw we toked for abt 2+hrs? we chatted abt everything under the moon and stars! wahaha!

tmr gotta go to my god-ma's place for dinner.. so nt the time lah can. i was super prepared to go catch a movie wif my darlings at amk hub. i totally forgotten abt the dinner until i reached hm jus nw and i was told abt it last nite? omg. my memory's failing!! i think i need to sort of study to keep my brain alive.. lol!

i stopped , Thursday, March 20, 2008 12:19 AM

updated! wahahax!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YAN MING!

omg. nw den i realised tt its been a long time since i updated. hahax! im jus too lazy to use the com. jus lay on the sofa & my eyes were glued to the tv! woo. many things happened. camp, yuyuing band performance. okie.. nt many.. gt photos! but will only upload them some other time onto the band blog. ha! many ppl r rushing me to put the photos up! omg. im so sry! esp. to siyan & wengguan. they have been waiting for the photos & complained me to me. so sy hor!

anw. i finally gt my very own lappy! woohoo! went to RP to register and bot my lappy last fri. went to collect my lappy jus nw and did all the configuration. hahax! funny student helpers! they taught us this and that and sort of had small quarrels among themselves. and as im a com idiot, i was really afraid i will crash my own lappy while doing the configuration. thanx god tt there was a student helper who stood beside me telling me wat to do and sometimes even helping me. and there was once when he walked away, i was stuck! but the person beside me who was also doing the configuration helped me. ha! thanx so much to whoever who helped me jus nw!

but RP arh.. tsk tsk tsk! irritating seh! at first at the RP roadshow, there were only hp and acer. so i bot hp, compaq. but sat nite at ard 11+pm, RP msged me saying that fujitsu is gg to set up a booth too! dam it! i alr bot my lappy, if nt i culd have bot a lighter 1. mine is 1.92kg and fujitsu have 1 which is 1.7kg!! but comparing to my bro's lappy, mine is way lighter and slighter smaller too! ha!

okies. nxt time den i upload the photos. but only some wuld b here. most of em wuld b on the band blog.

i stopped , Monday, March 17, 2008 5:57 PM