dam.. my results were bad! dam bad! cried like shit tt day i guess.. summore tt day have band prac, all of em were marching in the parade square.. i have to seriously thanx the grp of ppl hu stayed to comfort ppl (i guess) and those who gave me tissues! & special thanx to jane for being wif me almost the whole time aft i gt my results, bridget for all the crap to make me feel better & my grp of fren like zhenling they all for all their comforts! & special thanx to ppl who gave me advices on everything. THANX SO MUCH!! LOVE U PPL MANX! =D
sun.
went to watch huixian's performance! woohoo! great 1 manx! den travelled all the way frm amk to cck to my grandma's place. dam far & ex! adult fare alr!! crapped wif yi chuan.. lolx!
mon.
woohoo! went lunch & shopping wif mum! finally gt my CNY clothes! but spend a lil over budget this yr, cus i bot 4 sets! lol. lunch was great manx! having dim sums can oso be very filling actually.. walked until my legs dam tired!
tue & wed.
went to sort of teach agn.. kena said by a pri 5 kid.. sadded! but wat she said made sense lah. lol. wed more slack. nth much, only helped em here & there.
today.
went out wif mum agn.. quite unwillingly, cus she spoiled my plan for the day!! argh!! planned to go for band & finish the proposal, but nvm. nvr slp well last nite. keep on waking up for no reason. dam! den woke up at abt 1130. went over to my auntie's place cus my cousin refuse to go to sch?! lol. tts smth u gt for staying in a walking distance frm ur relative. lol. but when we reached, my cousin finally went to sch. den my mum toked to my anutie for quite awhile, duno if my mum rmbred tt i havent eaten anth at all yet. didnt noe my cousin was such a brat at all manx! tsk. tsk. den went amk. jack's place for lunch den to the movies! watched 27 dresses! dam nice lah! but i think its more for gals kind of movie. wanted to watch sweeny todd, but M18!! den cab hm wif mum & i paid it!! twice alr!!
tmr gotta go to sch to finish up the proposal. date due. everything all push to me. im nt a rubbish bin okies! quite fed up lah! since we alr toked abt hu do wat & all tt, okie. im fine wif it. but den aft u finished, u dun even care abt it & expect me to clear all the rest?! im fine wif it, but im stressed out! nobody's helping me at all and i oso have my things to do!
i stopped , Thursday, January 31, 2008 9:43 PM
argh!!!!
early morning went to shop for CNY stuff wif my mum. there was SO much to buy, but my mum stopped me frm taking almost everything tt i liked. lol. bot sweets for em too! den lunched wif mum den went to grandma's huse to pass her those CNY stuff.
im super tired today. now i noe, teaching pri sch ppl is VERY tiring.. yes. they made me laugh and made me mad & need lots of encouragement. its fun, but teaching really needs hell lots of patience. woots. im starting to think tt i canot teach until i refill my patience. totally exhausted. didnt expect em to high until tt stage. or m i old alr?
& i realised tt flute section ppl r really the crazy type of ppl. when they laugh, the "laughing gas" will spread to one another and everyone wuld start laughing. lol! woots! tts us!
anw. i think there's smth wrong wif my mum. monday, she asked me smth while we were watching tv. lol. wat a conversation manx.
mum: so.. any boys chasing aft u?
me: no.......................... y?
mum: no lah. cus at this age u ppl always have this kind of thing wat..
me: (thinking) lolx.
mum: huh.. unless u so fierce tt nobody want u..
me: diao........
mum: see last time when ur da gor gor have gf, always spend time wif his gf.. & now u see ur er gor gor.. spend so much time wif his grp of frens which more than half r gals..
me: (even more diao-ed) so wat.. u want me to stay at hm more often or go out more often?
mum: no lah.. jus asking only..
this is madness! cus im nt working, so im dependent on my mum on my survival! she noes im nt working and she's nt giving me pocket money!!! she's so forcing me to go gt a job lidat manx. i think she had given up forcing me to look for a job aft mths and she's using this method so she no need to nag at me everyday! evil! actually i sort of have a job. i teach, but i dun ask for pay.. so does tt counts? lol.
tmr is the release of results! dam! im nt really scared abt it for nw. im heartless. i jus feel like slping. wait tmr den i gt the stress! my senses r retarded. and ppl r wishing gd luck here & there. thanx so much! appreciate it lots! but i really have no confidence. 0%! jus hope i can gt into the course tt i want. tts all i ask for..
& i wanna go shopping! dam! have nt even buy a single CNY clothes! waiting to go wif my bro, but we jus canot find time!! he gt to go back to camp & i gt my activities. manx.. i go wif him to help him look at his clothes. but i dun c y he needs to follow me.. lol.
i stopped , Wednesday, January 23, 2008 9:59 PM
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KENNETH KOH WEI LUN!!
ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TAN SI YAN!!
woohoo! its been quite an irritating wk. and i really regretted giving my no. to this person. calls me almost every nite and i have to leave my fone ringing till he puts dwn. argh!!
thurs.
woohoo! finally cut my hair short! but i feel that i looked weird aft the hair cut. still gt ppl sae i looked more meaty aft the hair cut. in short, fat. even my cousin sae so. dam! den went to sch for band.
fri.
went for band cus they having some cca thingy for the sec 1s. many things happened. i tot tt we go jus to help them to pull sec 1s into joining us and slack for the rest of the time, but ended up doing this & that. sy toked to me abt SYF thingy. i really happy that u tot thru things carefully and really sry tt im nt able to stand still and tok to u abt it cus i was asked to do things. den played a few pieces wif the sec 4s & 5s to entertain those sec 1s cuming to our booth. had fun wif jane! woohoo! den aft tt had meeting for the alumni band thingy. wah.. tcher & instructors were there telling us wat to do, but things jus went into 1 ear and out the other for me. too tired alr. den aft went to mac for dinner & discuss the proposal thingy wif jason, 大笨牛 and ming. all the thinking were done by the guys, while the gals were blank in the mind. i did the writting! lol. crapped so much! den all went hm aft we really culd nt think anymore.
sat.
woke up early to meet chew! we toked, den went to meet the guys den headed to np! woohoo! took 151 all the way to np. 30 stops! sit till our butt rotted! but we crapped on the way. and i used coins and paid student fare while the rest paid adult fare! woohoo! den walked here and there.. regretted not asking my bro along to np cus he was frm tt sch and he culd have brot us to each sch to walk! gt 2 courses tt im interested in. woohoo! jus hope i can gt into the 1 im really interested in.. anw. den headed to heartland to buy sy bday cake! den reached sch only when the band is falling in. lol. aft tt had sort of meeting agn but wif 老爹 to do the proposal thingy. headache sia.. as usual, i did the writting agn cus i culd nt think of anth. & cus i nvr went for band prac, i duno wat happened, so i canot update the band blog! argh! brid better treat me to a meal or smth for updating it for her! =P
sun.
slp at 2+am last nite and kena forced to wake up by my mum at ard 11+. den went to grandparents huse for lunch & dinner. supposed to go shopping wif my bro to gt CNY clothes! but duno y he dun1, so didnt go. crapped wif my cousin aft dinner. nw i noe crapping too much can be quite tiring at times.. lol.
im still thinking if i shld really go & gt a job instead of slacking ard.. i feel like,but den.... & oso if i shld attend henderson's concert nxt fri.. getting results on tt day, scared no mood for concert or rather nvr pay attention to the concert. argh!
i stopped , Sunday, January 20, 2008 10:37 PM
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY WENG GUAN!!
why shld i be the one shedding my tears for u all? i felt that i have given the help but u all just dun seemed to be putting in the effort. there's really no point continuing to help if u all dun put in the effort. i feel like an idiot aft i tot abt why i cried like nobody's business. watever u think of me or even hate me, i dun care. i said my piece and i jus hope tt i knocked some sense into ur head and spare a tot for everyone including urself. im nt wanting to make u all feel bad or anth, cus i feel dam bad having to see my juniors punishing themselves. u all noe wat i have said & i oso dun1 repeat myself.
many things happened today.. tears, sweat, laughters..
deliberately went dwn to sch to watch the band perform during assembly.. overall didnt performed well.. dun understand manx. those were the pieces tt we performed during the concert & u all cannot play? den smth happened.. i think i was the cause who made it a even bigger thing. yeah.. im sry, but i cannot bear to watch everyone, under the sun for so long, dehydrating. everything tt wuld happen, happened.. den aft everything ended, went to mac wif jane for early dinner? both of us thrash things out. den we were joined by brid, weng guan & si yan they all. had fun wif weng guan's bday cake wif those crazy ppl. thanx so much for making my day. =)
and many thanx to those ppl hu comforted me jus nw & ur tissue papers! =)
i stopped , Wednesday, January 16, 2008 10:02 PM
argh! im quite disappointed in my section. their going to perform on wed during assembly and it is meant to attract sec 1s to join us. the pieces that they are performing are the pieces that we performed in passione II! its quite shocking. during passione II, i felt that they were fine. now i know tt its the seniors which are covering them! very disappointed.. going to watch them perform for assembly on wed. hope they did prac on their own and perform well on wed.
thurs..
went for band prac to visit them. most of the sec 4s & sec 5s went to poly open huse, so band didnt do marching.. in air con rm prac summore. they only came back aft band prac, so they slacked..
friday..
went to tp open huse wif hafiz, mu, ming, jing xiang & jeremy lai! walk & walk.. nth much actually.. campus quite small.. den aft tt went back to sch for band. as usual, most sec 4s & 5s went to tp open huse too. sec 3s & some sec 2s had leadership camp, so i stayed overnight to pei brid! when the band is dismissed & those leadership camp ppl go for dinner, i was the only 1 left in the band rm! waited for jane & brid to come & the rest of the leadership ppl to fall in, den left for dinner with jane & brid. den brid came to my huse. we showered & i packed my stuff and headed back to sch! dam my dad! duno y anyhw lamed me for showering for 1 hr?! wtf! i think he's blind or smth. brid oso showered okie! den blamed me for coming hm to gt my stuff den send brid & i back to sch. i nvr even do anth wrong. dam! nt happy den dun send us lah.. i alr sae nvm we can oways take bus back to sch on our own. dam pissed! mus thanx brid & those other funny juniors who made me forgt abt it!
talked to mu outside the band rm when the leadership camp ppl were in the band rm learning conducting. tok lots of nonsense! den aft they went to bed at ard 3+am, mu, lina, ms lim & i went to mac for breakfast! aft sending lina to the bus stop, mu & i stayed in the band store! woohoo! on air con! but we didnt slp, so we went to bball court & parade square to tok till every1 is up!
sat..
band prac.. leadership were doing marching, while others did sectionals. den aft tt marching.. nth to do so i helped em since the steps are the same as 2006's SYF. aft lunch went back to band rm cus i think too hot ouside alr.. den helped the section by playing wif em. den went outside to rehearse wed thingy. dam hot! sat at the podium and play tgt instead of walking here & there with em. kena sun burn! argh! den aft tt they all had theory test. i did tgt wif em! dam! lots of mistakes! i did 2 papers summore! if lidat, i duno wat would happen to my grade 6 manx.. den waited for rain to stop wif those ppl den went hm! slp only at ard 1+am. surprised tt i culd tahan for so long! woohoo! achievement! lol.
sun..
went to grandparents place as usual. slacked wif my cousins!
haircut! haircut! wanted to cut my hair so long ago & finally gg to have my haircut on thurs! woohoo! hope i can gt it cut short! so it might b the last time ppl will c me with my hair long till it grows back! wahahax! forgt all abt the meeting on thurs! dam! so aft my haircut, gotta rush back to sch for meeting! argh!
i stopped , Monday, January 14, 2008 9:02 PM
zaid passed away on monday in a motorbike accident.. a great senior whom i dun think i have talked to at all in my 4 yrs in the band. he is only known to be the joker to me, the person who cheers ppl up when you are down, relieve some of your stress during the stressful SYF period & very supportive of the band. thank you so much for all those support & jokes you cracked during those stressful times..
you will never be forgotten..
may you rest in peace..
this song is for you..
just saw him last year during the band's bbq-cum-last band prac on the 28th. after knowing about this tragic accident.. haix.. very shock to receive this news.. hard to sallow the fact that he's gone.. could not sleep aft receiving the news at around 12+am.. haix.. wanted to attend his wake to send him off his last journey, but things cropped up, could not make it..
life is short..
treasure.
everybody learns this word only after they have lost something or someone.
life is unfair and unpredictable.
who knows what's going to happen next.
no one's in control of life and the way life goes..
no matter how careful you might be,
things might still go wrong..
Labels: goodbye..
i stopped , Wednesday, January 09, 2008 11:38 PM
been staying at my grandparents huse since friday. nth much to do but to rot on the couch! finally back hm today! actually my grandma wanted me to stay for another nite, but my mum sae she gg to pick me today.. sadded. i love my grandparents LOTS! i love staying there.. no1 cares abt wat i do manx! my gransparents normally let me do wat i want. if i wanna go out, jus inform them if i eating at hm anot. tts all! nt like at hm.. my mum wuld ask where m i gg, wif hu, for wat.. lolx! irritating!
anw. heard tt 'O' levels result gg b out on the 25th. dam! tts fast! im super worried.. argh! jus hope i can gt into the course tt i want.. pray hard! wish me luck!
finally finished the things i wanted to give my juniors on sat! thanks so much for helping me pass it to them today my darling jane! & need to thank si yan for her unlimited use of colour pens! hahax! & those slpless nites.. lolx! & im still looking for a job! dam! im rotting at hm & my mum oways nag at me! irritating seh! wanna go out oso diff.. ppl r either studying or working! im bored stiff at hm!! help me !!!
i stopped , Monday, January 07, 2008 9:03 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2008!
new yr! new hopes! new dreams! hope things will go well for me & every one in 2008!
31 dec!
supposed to go countdwn wif my my classmates ytd, but too lazy to go out. summore ling wuld nt b joining us.. so stayed at hm & watch "witch yoo hee" & some other shows on my bro's laptop in my rm cus my bro's frens r at my huse for bbq & countdwn. stayed in my rm while my bro & his frens made a hell lot of noise in the living rm & outside the huse. they stayed overnite. some of his frens quite gd, in terms of looks & attitude ba.. cus 2+am, i went to kitchen den they were having 2nd round of bbq, den 1 of em was asking me if wanted food. lol! i went back to continue to watch till 3+am, den go slp. den duno wat time, i felt someone entering my rm & slping on the other bed in my rm! scared me seh. i think my bro's fren slping in their rm, so my big bro slp in my rm. lolx! but my dream is to share a rm wif my 2 bros. frm young nvr share a rm wif em b4..
lolx!
28th dec!
my last day as a band member in yys concert band. aft lunch had sectionals..ended up slacktionals wif me ard to disturb em. den went back to band rm to watch the concert & camp videos. my dear rachel arhx.. duno y suddenly cry. shocked me arhx. den bbq, but i was wif angeline, rachel & hui yu in the parade square crapping. den we had the xchanging of presents, den back to the band rm for some cry sessions. lolx! i cried wif my some of darling juniors. aft the whole thingy ended, meizhen, jasline, rachel, huiyu & i went for supper at mac! a pity tt jane wasnt there.. & i oso didnt take enough pics wif my juniors! argh!!
dam sadded to leave those grp ppl hu i have been wif for my 4 yrs in tt sch. i will nvr forgt all those great memories tt we all spent tgt manx! those hard work, blood & sweat, tears & laughers! all those competitions, performances, etc.. thanx so much! =D
some pics..
i stopped , Tuesday, January 01, 2008 10:49 PM