you can't have a rainbow , without any rain .

superb sianx! went to skool s usual for ep..hahax! den had poa n emath..we spent our time toking during poa lesson bout goong..wahahax! so fun lah! den emath cher was nt here..so..free period!! yeah! hahax! den went to canteen for break b4 gg to sci centre.

had lots of fun in sci centre lah! at 1st tot tt its a bit weird for us..hahax! but den me n zhenling played like siao lah! reviving childhood memories..lolx! hahax! had lots of fun wif andy, jeremy, darling n valentine..duno wat were we doing actually..wahahax! jus playing wif smth tt will sum sort of stop ur shadow..hahax! made lots of funny patterns.wahahax! played sum slide or smth..hahax! took phots..hahax! den played at the mirrors..den i realised tt i dun mind being fat..lolx! hahx! den did lots of stupid stuff..but den had great fun today!

supposed to go compass point wif meimei 1..but den went back to skool instead..so sry hor, meimei..den reached kovan tt time raining!! den no umbrella..lolx! sianx! den went to buy things for ming..den jus walk back to skool..very long time nvr walk under the rain le..but it was drizziling only..hahax! den reached skool liao..den stayed oway frm the band rm..didnt wanna c certain ppl..den went to the store rm n slack wif jane n ming..stand there tok n drink bubble tea..lolx! hahax!

reached hm le den watch tv..watch the vcd goong!! thanx mummy for buying the vcd..wahahax! my bro sae i tricked her into buyinh it loh..lolx! guowei send-ed me the ending song which i jus love so much lah! hahax! today only watched 2 discs..last nite watch more den 3 b4 i slept..hahax! im back to my habit of watching tv le..yeah! jus nw watch until 6pm..den watch other things..waiting for 7pm.. very tired..den fell aslp..luckily i told my bro to wake me up at 7..had a nap..wahahax! my bro superb funny sia..he had his own way of waking me up..hahax! he jus grab my head n shake..lolx! den keep on toking non-stop..hahax! shake so many times lah! so funny..den my 2nd bro jus finished wif his tuition lah! so paiseh..i think my shuai ge tutor saw my slping when he was leaving lah! superb paiseh!! den my 2nd bro tell him tt i oways slp..lolx! hahax! lucily i only woke up after they left the huse..hahax! anw..i think shld ask my bro to teach my family hw to wake me up..lolx!wahahax! cus i normally dun wake up n continue to slp..wahahax! 1st time sia! thanx so much da-gor-gor! =X

jus nw kena frm mr faizal..at 1st online chatting only leh..den in the end made me call him..-argh!- i was forced lah!! aiyoh! hahax! but den we had fun..gossiped on the fone..wahahax! siao liao..he sure sae me on the nxt band prac de loh..den still nid to do things for him..-argh!- regretted sia! hahax! i think every1 including me sure die le..summore friday prac until 9pm leh.. -sianx!-

stop here for today..wanna continue watching goong n c my 2 shuai ge-s n meinu-s..wahahax! xP

i love u..
yet i dun..
y mus life b lidat?
can u b mine forever?

i stopped , Tuesday, October 31, 2006 8:41 PM

sick!! nt well today.-argh!- hate it whenever i fall sick lah! today mr lim nvr cum to skool.den i have to mark the attendance file.lolx! den went to class..gt geog paper back agn.totally hate tt mark..shld have done better..-regretted!- den slacked all the way..the teachers oso nvr teach much..so slept in class n hope tt my cold wuld gt better..but it didnt..lolx! haiix! totally nt well today. keep on sneezing non stop..-irritating!- hope its cus of nt enough slp. n thanx for being by my side darlings. i love u ppl so much!! *muackx!* shocked to noe tt sum band prac will end at 9pm! omg! so late! i think this friday is the 1st band prac until 9pm. so cool!!! =X

after skool gt sectionals..so sianx! stupid idiot!waste my time.although i sick but den i still want to prac de loh. den didnt really prac much today.wanted to rest so much! but i still have to put on a strong front.wah! gg to kena punish cus of smth tt happened.nt my fault lah! he want to touch wat u want me to do?! if i scold him for touching he will sae back 1 loh! its nt like u dun him rite?! totally absurd! i alr nt well le still wanna make my life difficult! hate u lah! wat kind of person r u? freako! im really pissed lah! n i admit tt i wanted to tear at tt moment.anw, hafiz told me smth.wahahax! quite shock to hear tt..didnt noe her taste so..watever. anw. gt work to do agn! woo~ hopefully i dun have to go for the SL camp.

tot alot in the bus. almost tear-ed agn. y when im sick i tend to feel like tearing easlier? weird. but im strong! i ren-ed! telling myself tt im thinking too much le! telling myself tt life jus totally sux n jus have to bear wif it n hope tt my life will change for the better asap.

ppl oways take things for granted. hate it when they do tt! when i help u do things, u take me for a fool. a huge fool tt u can make use of. wat kind of world is this?! y m i in this kind of world where there r ppl which r here to break ur heart? i jus dun understand. nvr. i jus totally hate u, men, guys, boys. totally canot b trusted at all! hate u ppl! nvr felt so pissed in 1 day b4. today is totally a bad day for me.
anw, thanx for trying to help me stead. i love u! but its my instru. tt he touched n tt stand. n i have no comments to tt msg tt u showed me. =)

shld i trust u agn?
i doubt so..

i think i really nid a shoulder to lean n cry on.

i stopped , Monday, October 30, 2006 4:09 PM

holidays start frm nw for the lower sec ppl..but we still have to study!! -argh!- so gd..can enjoy..haiix..we still have to go back to skool for 3 wks..-sianx!-

stayed at hm n rot today..nth much to do..jus watched tv, eat n slp..lolx! very boring..n nw i noe y im so stupid! my maid told me tt its cus i oways knock my head on the wall n floor when i fall dwn when i was younger..wahahax! so funny sia..she oso saw tt i fell frm the sofa while slping b4..wahahahx! so funny lah! n so..tts y im so stupid..lolx! hahax! my maid noes everything bout me cus shes been wif us since i was born!! 15 yrs le!! so cool lah! hahax!

i think my flute n picc will b placed at 1 corner in my huse agn..i borrowed it hm..but im jus too lazy to prac..-argh!- so sadded..ah boy2 wanna go back to clarinet section..wats wrong wif flute section?! only thing tt we r a lil crazy at times mah..den no more le mah..=P nw feeling a lil scarded..cus the pieces which sir is deciding to choose..1 gt picc solo..-argh!- but den im lucky..cus i think colonial collage is nt in 1 of his choices..wahahax! tt picc solo longer n more tough to play.. =X

im gg to carry on wif tuition agn..sianx! tuition, tuition, tuition..although its a cute guy giving me tuition..but den very sianx leh..hahax! i hate tuitions since young..hahax!

u shld noe hw i felt frm the very begining..

stuipd me!! =X

i stopped , Friday, October 27, 2006 9:25 PM

wah..sianx! reached hm at 830pm..cus of my bros..they dun1 to buy the cake for mummy.. -argh!- make me walk all the way to heartland n back to buy the cake..dam tired lah! summore its after band prac loh..so heartless..nw my shoulders r aching like mad lah! haiix! duno y i got so much stuff in my bag..still brot hm my flute n picc..lolx!
anw... HAPPY B-DAY MUMMY!!!

HAPPY B-DAE TO U(X4)

wah..superb sianx today! slept in the hall can! hahax! but den ZL woke me up to watch shimin sing..wah!!! superb nice lah! she won 1st position for the yuying star lah! hahax! during the break..SLs gotta stay back to meet mr neo to get the camp form..-argh!- i dun feel like gg!! anw..its nt compulsary..nt like the class exco camp..-sianx!- until nw still deciding want to go anot..cus i ask MU to teach me wat they tot during the camp..den he sae dun1..-argh!- anw..still deciding loh..=) den went to canteen..ZL wanted to buy peach tea de..but den dun have..so in the end she buy apple tea..but she dun like lah! lolx! hahax! so silly.. haiix! im like being forced to go for the class exco camp lah! i totally hate camps..except for band camps!! wahahahx!

den after skool..went to band rm..put our bags there den lock le..was feeling quite moody lah! oso duno y..i think im thinking too much le..=X den went for lunch wif MING..so crappy lah! she keep on luaghing..lolx! siao siao.. den jeanne keep on teasing me bout him..lolx! its all over le loh..so long le still keep saeing..nt sianx arhx..lolx! hahax! den jeanne still want me to take his fone lah! lolx! den quite disappointed oso..so many ppl quiting band..haiix..dun1 to bothered bout it..hahax! the flute section is superb high today lah! we kept playing..hahax! had lots of fun! but den jun wei wants to go back to clarinet.. -sadded!- wats wrong wif oboe..diff to play i noe..i wanna plsy..but im nt allowed cus of the picc!!! lolx!

many things happened today..some things are nt meant to b elaborated on..so..i oso dun bother..lolx! hahax! gt camps to go for sia..n im totally tired! dun feel like gg..-argh!-

im so happy manx! CLINTON is cumming back to catch our concert manx! wahahax! so cool..cumming back frm states..hahax! yeah! den lidat i will b able to sell my tickets!! thanx to those ppl hu r gg for the concert! thanx for buyng frm me!! wahahax! hope im nt the MC loh..pray hard.. hope to have the meeting wif henderson sec quick..wonder wat will we b toking bout during the meeting..hahax! duno gt shuai gt anot..hahax! =X

im tired of thinking..
but..
i love u, yet i hate u...
life is jus too complicated..
missing u oways...

i stopped , Thursday, October 26, 2006 10:13 PM

graduation day for the sec 4s n 5s..omg! im like so gonna miss em lah! especially those band seniors!! I LOVE U PPL SO MUCH!!! i will oways b here to support u de!! lolx! wahahax! heard tt melissa went into tears even though she tried to ren..hahax! i almost lah..but im STRONG!! lolx! hahax! nxt yr is our turn!!! wahahax! stress sia!! =X

skool today was boring..nth to do..jus stayd in the hall for all tt nonsense..lolx! den darling tot me hw to fold paper heart using money n the bus ticket..hahax! had LOTS of probs at 1st..nw better le.. hahax! thanx so much for teaching me to fold s well s to kill time..hahax! after skool i think supposed to go to the bsement for duno wat thingy for the SLs n all tt ba..lolx! but den i nvr go!! we all skipped it..wahahax! didnt feel like gg oso..den after tt saw ms jolene lim..den c she carrying smth..den we stopped to tok to her..hahax! den she ask me to put the concert banner in the music rm..lolx! den i sun bian go rm n take scores for stead oso..hahax! didnt manage to go c the yuying zhi xing..haiix..stayed in skool till 2+..den went for piano..

today duno y my piano cher so crappy lah! hahax! keep making us laugh n laugh..hahax! enjoyed manx! still played some number game..lolx! hahax! den the aunty give me the registration form..den i was like omg! so fast meh?! grade 5 summore..killer manx! i do theory until wanna die..hahax! den the aunty oso told me tt bernice is in the other rm..wahahx! pop over to c her..hahax! laugh n luagh n laugh..hahax! very slacky today..nth much to do..den got a new score..wahahax! so nice..but i noe i wont play finish all de..i will b too lazy to prac..wahahax! nw im jus waiting for the goong score to cum out!! i want tt scores!! superb nice lah! hahax!

i love u, yet i hate u..

wah!!!! dam disappointed lah! ppl 1 by 1 dun1 to go for band prac..summore nw is the time to pia for HKtrip n concert lah!!! den u tell me u dun1 go?! pissed sia! i only scard tt u ppl kena caught den have to cum for band prac but canot perform n all tt leh..haiix!! u ppl will regret de loh..haiix..dun1 to bother bout u ppl le..

its a killer!!!

i stopped , Wednesday, October 25, 2006 8:45 PM

the com idiot me finally change song le..yeah! lolx! hahax! gt song or dun have song mus tell me hor! hahax!

so sianx! nth to do today..stayed at hm n rot in front of the tv..lolx! the couch potato me is back!! wahahax! lolx! very sianx lah! nxt mth gt class exco camp..dun wanna go..c my mum can write letter to give excuse anot..wahahahax! mummy, wo de ming kao ni le!!!

finally done wif the edusave forms..yeah! but only left 1 person nvr hand in..haiix! wats nxt? hahax! still thinking.. wait till tt time cums.. but for nw..i have to look for a singer n collect the t-shirt design..
band members..if u can sing..jus cum n tell me..pls..i really nid u to step out n tell me!!!

sectionals yesterday was quite fun-cum-sianx..prac the pieces tt we r supposed to..den after tt e had a mini combine in the band rm..hahax! we played wif the CD playing..hahax! den we play the very 1st song which i had learned when i came into band..flight of valor..wow..so nice..hahax! missed tt song so much! played many other pieces oso..den very sianx..every1 packed up den leave at bout 4+ ba.. hahax! anw..MU!dun woory bout me quiting the exco..im jus thinking bout it only..hahax! i MIGHT NT b quiting..so..c hw loh..dun worry..(=
STEAD! u too manx! dun worry..i jus tot of it..have nt decide yet..hahax! n dun find ppl to tok me into it hor! hahax! no use de! wahahahx! =P

wah..i dun believe it manx! i almost cried in skool on yesterday manx! canot believe it manx! i was very pissed when i heard tt Mun vivien they all sae tt they have nt pass the edusave forms to those ppl hu nid to re-do em..they were supposed to hand in in the morning lah! den i was like very pissed until i wanted to cry..but im STRONG!! i ren! i want u ppl to hand in on time cus i dun1 u all to get scolding leh..i think i rather gt the scolding for u ppl lah! omg! disappointed wif those ppl i have trusted manx! o well..forget it..its all over...

band members..if u have designed the t-shirt for the HK trip..pls horx! hand in to me by TMR!!

i love u yet i hate u...

i stopped , Tuesday, October 24, 2006 6:10 PM

i did nt have tt intention to do so..but...temptation kills!!!

friday went to skool to wait for those ppl tt have nt hand in their edusave forms to hand in to me..lolx! i rushed to skool lah! cus when i was still slping at ard 10+ ms loh called me lah! make me rush to skool..thanx to those ppl who actually came to hand in their forms n waited wif me.. tt day made me agree tt life sux!! i like kena scolding for nth lah! i rushed em..n they nvr hand in..wat to do?! u think u busy i nt arhx?! anw..if my results r dropping im reli gg to quit the exco..so many things to do..summore during exam study period i was doing band stuff lah! im reli very pissed le loh! thanx stead for ur listening ear..(=

anw..the new flutes r here!!! YEAH!!! summore stead n i r the 1st to try em out lah! so nice...n mr faizal bot a flute stand! yeah! but den only i have..so i find it quite unfair lah..but nth's fair int the world..den he still forced me 'show off' to my seniors..lolx!

haiix! thursday gotten back our results..i failed 4 subs lah! stuipd! keep making me do band stuff during the study period! i only passed both languages n geog lah! dam pissed! den i failed physics when i have high hopes on it!! -argh!- wat a bad day.. haiix!

-temptation kills!!!-

yesterday went to vivo city to watch movie n shop ard..wahahax! watched death note.. so nice lah! wahahax! canot wait for the nxt show to cum out..but den i wanna read the comic 1st..but my bro lend it to his friend..sadded sia! walked ard vivo city..den saw mr colin chia..lolx! i jus looked oway when i saw him..wahahahax! bot my water bottle!! YEAH! my mum paid for it..if i went to buy it myself..den i have to pay loh..wahahax! THANX MUMMY!! n i saw smth i love in precious tots..love it lah! tt ear ring! but my mum dun1..-sadded sia!- she gave xcuses saeingtt its too long for me..lolx!

i stopped , Sunday, October 22, 2006 7:39 PM

haiix! very tired sia..canot tahan le..feel like slping n NT gg to skool today lah! but den no choice..theres BAND PRAC!!! wahahahx! starting was quite sianx..cus started on sum basics s usual..den after tt..played sum pieces..den after tt started on sectionals..so sianx! didnt reli dared to play the picc cus the part tt i wanted to prac was suoerb high pitch n i will play loud..wahahx! den i jus anyhw play..den lunch..waited for stead to tok to other ppl..den i toked to muzamir in a corner cus they canot eat luch..den mr faizal asked me to read sum thingy..lolx! den i knew tt i got work to do agn..haiix! c..i can predict! wahahax! den rushed for lunch wif stead..den toked to her..n im so happy for my stead lah!!! CONGRATES!!! wahahax! but den she bei pan me..-sobbx- hahahax! nvm..im STRONG!!! =X duno if stead they all late for band after luch anot..cus i went pianoing after lunch.. tortured lah! forced to play w/o looking at the keys lah! only can feel the keys n look at the bk..hahax! den rushed back to skool for band..hahax! jus cum back only den started on colonial n i have to play my solo w/o the snar drum lah! so diff..hahax! den play until went off tune..wahahx! so funny lah!

den was like superb tired today..runing here n there..canot tahan le..haiix! wanna slp..but den canot..in case my neighbor gt things to ask me for her exams tmr..wahahx! tmr getting our results le..tmr band prac music might nt b gd..cus sum ppl MIGHT have done badly for their paper..haiix!

band members arhx...pls make my life simpler by handing in all ur edusave forms n other things on time can? im really tired of chasing u ppl le.. n design the HK trip shirt horx! us hand in to me by MONDAY..hahahx! pls arhx! make my life simpler..hahax! anw..the band's Hk trip blog will b up soon..(=

ppl..best wishes for ur results arhx! i oso nid to wish myself..lolx! hahax!

dosing off at any moment nw..

i stopped , Wednesday, October 18, 2006 9:11 PM

arts fest today was so-so lah..was quite pissed wif some sec 1s n some ppl..but had lots of fun..wahahahx! quite sianx lah..nth much to do de..den s usual..slacking... hahax! den did some heart to heart tok to my steady.. didnt noe we gt so much things to tok bout..hahax! den after tt..understood her better..much much better..wahahahx! anw..thanx for all the toking n listening stead..I LOVE U!!!

hahax! so sianx today...early morning receive ms loh msg le..den immediately go n open the music rm..den set up all the instru. den tell the ppl wat to do..killer manx! tok to em..wanna die arhx..hahax! den we skipped FRC n stayed in teh band rm..so cool! gt air-con summore..hahax! den went to tour ard the skool wif stead..den went to class to take consent form..wah..tmr gg to science centre..lolx! a bit the lame sia..

HAPPY B-DAY TO U..
HAPPY B-DAY TO U..
HAPPY B-DAY TO HUIXIN..
HAPPY B-DAY TO U!!!!

haiix..so sianx..nvr eat luch..cum hm n watch tv le..anw..the show goong is like so nice lah! love the guy which is supposed to the prince lah! so cute..-argh!- shou bu liao le!!! wahahax! very tired..all the arts fest things r killing me..but den very fun..all the slacking..wahahax! haiix..tmr, wed n thrus have band prac..siao liao..nw is really chioinging le..killer manx!

so funny sia..brid sent smth to watch..wahahax! very funny sia..hahax! haiix..tmr after science centre gt band prac..wahahax! so cool! lolx! very long time nvr play picc le..wahahx!

ppl..our band have concert cumming up worx! mus cum..18 dec..$10-student price..5pm at s'pore conference hall..wahahx! sharing wif henderson sec's band..yeah!(=

i stopped , Monday, October 16, 2006 8:45 PM

im back!!! lolx! hahax! exams finally over!! yeah!!

thursday was like the last paper..den after tt..stayed in skool to do up the deco for art fest..in total went to heartland twice i think..so tired lah..walking to n fro..hahax! exercise..nid to lose weight...hahax! stayed in skool until bout 7 den leave..make me miss 45 mins of the show tt i wanna watch..-hurmp!- hahax! but den had lots of fun decorating the band rm..air-con summore sia..wahahax! feel so fortunate..hahax! yanming n i went to heartland on purpose..partly was to get the stuffs..partly was to SLACK!! hahax! lucky no1 noe bout it except the both of us..hahax! den went to buy the stuff until i spent more than $20 can! but tts jus for thursday..spent bout $10 on friday..cus we wer back in skool to continue the deco..but most of em were done..hahax! i was s usual..slacking all the way..hahax! i felt very bad..cus i was slacking..den i asked other ppl to do my stuff..cus i felt tt my art n writting was atrocious.. IM SO SRY!!! N THANX SO MUCH!!!

haiix..i think im in trouble..my papers were tough!!! all of em!! n i dun even have any confidence in passing any at all lah! die..n i nvr really studied for chem n f&n at tt time..haiix!! regretted manx! haiix! but its all over..all done..i oso dun1 ti care bout it le..nw its all on arts fest, HK trip n concert..hahax!

anw..the HK trip was brought forward to 9-13 dec..den the concert was brought back to 18 dec..-argh! 18 dec..my bro oso gt concert on tt day can! siao liao..hw to rush?! hahax! dun care..i gt my ways..wahahahax~

nw exams over le..so sian..nth much to do..but den have to kill my brain cells..cus nid to think bout band stuffs..hahax! yesterday..toked to muzamir alone for very long..bout band stuff n other stuff oso..hahax! den followed him to the back of the skool to buy stuff..toked so much lah! shared our probs tgt..hahax! anw..thanx muzamir so much for listening..hahax! den we continued to stay in skool to continue the deco..but den very1 was like slacking..nt much ppl were there..den we all slacked tgt..wahahax! monday gotta reach skool by 7am..nid to touch up on some stuff..den paste things..den prepare den can liao..wahahahax!
EXCO MEMBERS..PLS RMBR TO BRING UR BAND T ON MONDAY..BRING..

omg!! i still nid to create a blog for the HK trip lah! -argh!- nxt time lah..mus wait for it paitiently..hahax! today canot create..my ahma b-day!! wahahax! she give me red packet sia..can go shopping le..woo~ wahahax!

i stopped , Saturday, October 14, 2006 5:48 PM

im back! lolx! hahax!

wah..really regretted using the com can! jus nw before dinner deciding wanna use the com anot..lolx! i knew it manx! i wuld use the com for quite awhile..omg! i made the wrong decision..lolx! cus of MR LEE HONG ZHEN!! keep asking me to view the testimonial tt he wrote for me..aiyoh! wahahax! but den quite funny oso! hahax!

stayed in skool to study n do band stuff..skipped piano lesson..wahahahx! nxt wk oso nt gg..haiix! im so dead..the grade tt im doing nw is so confusing can! do until blur..anw..supposed to b studying..but ended up teaching hye yeon n yoo jin n tt lil boy science..lolx! den summore the bio part of the textbk..i almost died manx! hahax! den still ask me to teach em history..craziness manx! i take geog n u ask me to teach u history..hahax! but i didnt teach..they ended up doin maths..hahax!

PPL..RMBR TO HAND IN THE FORMS TT U HAVE NT HAND IN BY TMR!!! MUS REALLY HAND IN!! IF NT IM SO DEAD!!! lolx!

mus go muggin le..haiix! jus a few more days to go..jiayou!!

really hope to c clinton on the day of our concert!! n im paying ur ticket!!

i stopped , Wednesday, October 04, 2006 9:13 PM